Life is one long strain of chemical sequence
Compiled in a trans neurological equation
Beginning with alpha and ending in binary
Infinitesimal mathematical truth of
Eternal division, internal tessellation of
Fission, fissures, halving into countless universes
Of possibility till nothing is left but the remainder,
Parts of the whole,
Expanding, not imploding, slow death
Spherical dimensions beyond
Comprehension
Improbable inventions,
Explosive beginnings with no beginning,
Particles creating life, cellular,
Molecular, birth in light,
Death in darkness
Ideas formed from eternal truths,
Theorems not yet disproved.
Cycles of growth and decay,
Meaningless processing
Lead those capable of thought
To the forever struggle of
Why.

Clarity
My knees shattered from beneath me
The ones standing next to me seem to not notice or care to hear
With no ground under me I continue to run
Legs pound with no air to balance my breathing
Suffocating is the option presented
I might take it, if my knees won't ground me
God just let me go free
No guilt
No noise
Nothing holding me
Only life letting me taste its spirituality

Wait.
Again?
Broken record some might say...
You're together then you're not
Which one is gonna stay?

Oh.
Him?
Some might consider it a sin...
Hes hurt you and you've hurt him
You're shocked he did it again?

Stop.
Its over?
Too many people call you bluff...
You love her then you hate her
But you think you've had it tough?

The children.
They hurt?
They've cried and then they've healed
But their scars will never be mended and certainly not sealed

Hurry, run
They all smell fear
Don't look now
They're drawing near

We flee from those
Who tower in the halls
The ones who mock us
And push us into walls

They copy our walks
And our looks of fear
We quicken our pace
And rapidly wipe the tears

"Dont be so childish"
"Want a clean slate?"
"We will stop when we want to"
But it might be too late

They see our scared faces
Rushing in the halls
But they don't see the blood streaked arms
That stay inside our room walls.

Hurry, run
They all smell fear
Dont look now...
Shh its too late my dear.

Everywhere I go
Everybody wants to know
"Where's the lady"
They all ask
I answer, hiding behind a mask
Of smiles and laughs,
And say to them:
"She's gone, she won't be back again;
I don't care"
And shrug my shoulders.
But now my life is so much colder
I walk alone, the crowded streets
And tell my tale to friends I meet
Then I turn, walk on with the truth
With tear-filled eyes
I think of you

I find myself pacing
Or staring at nothing,
While i can't slow my thinking
Or find a pattern in my breathing.

I'm no less lost
Than I was last month,
And no less terrified
Than when I broke
All the promises
I had made to myself.

My tiny room
Can't hold me
For too long.
My expansive thoughts
Bounce off the walls
And back into me
Until I decide to
Find some place open to think.

And I walk all alone
I lay in dark open fields
Or on benches by water,
Hoping my thoughts will get lost
In the landscape
And forget to return to my head.

My eyes fill with anxiety
As I forget to breathe.
I make sure no one
Can see me
Than I let the anxiety
flooding my eyes roll down my cheeks.

The cold breeze
Reminds me to breathe
And I'm back in the grass
Hoping you're thinking about me.