Feel of a lost direction
   A path saved for later
Took about a hundred try
   Lost the touch.... what's the matter?

Life changed....
      You remained the same...inside my heart....aching...hurting.
       Hole that you left .... gaping....still bleed....making me weak.
      The tears dried ....flow stopped...vision still blurred.
      Three sixty on happiness...pain married sadness... thoughts incoherent.

To fall
   To unfold
       To connect
           And to hold
The life story of a lonely princess
Completed with a stolen glance
Mated with a perfectly calmed storm
Amidst an act of kindness.

In this game of fencing
   I was teaching her different styles..

She learnt with an open heart
   Was a sponge in disguise..

Like a choreographed dance
    With rythmic beats with rhyme..

And when all of it was done
     She killed me with a perfect strike.

Your eyes tell the lie
   You were trying to survive
One minute one moment
    One breath at a time.

You said some words
    You meant the another
You made few mistakes
    Then you looked for another.

We were all destroyed
    Death now lives inside us all
You played the long game
    Acted dumb but were smart after all.

The battle of emotions
   You won with the silence
The wait for something to signify
    You counted as the minutes went by.

The fracture of our soul
    The wait the guilt the regret
    And the life of us all.

We never truly move on
     We just learn to hide it a little better..
Cause some wounds are on our soul
      That changes the shape of us.

Future...
      Futuristic mind set..
Plotting...
      Planning the next step.
In living inside tomorrow...
    Our today needs some help.

Oblivion...
       A mirage of an existence
Passion...
       Mediocrity being persistent.
Drifting...
      Crash landing on a pile of disappointment.

The walls built to protect,
The walls of sand castle.
The walls keep closing,
The walls becomes the world,

Putting up with empty values,
Dictation on every step.
The Barriers built to teach,
The Barriers meet amends.

Should've tried harder
Should've work for my existence
Should've told to mind their business
Should've built my own castle.

Cause the reason..
The reason I couldn't find myself
The reason I lost my breath
The reason concrete cemented
And castle turned to cage..

The reason my wings broke
The reason I forget to fly
The reason there's no ground beneath my feet...
And the reason is me.

It's crazy attractive to get away
                         With a perfect crime.
Slicing one's heart    
                         With a cold butter knife.

Frown or hide away
                        Behind a sinister smile.
Lure the prey with warmth
                       End it...with a perfect strike.

Only missing you
When the lights are out.

That kinda relation
Have you ever thought about?

One moment ....
       After another.
In this toxic.....
       Chemical reaction.

A constant...
        Tug of war
Is that what...
  You called a solution?

A memory lost...
    On an empty emotion.
A scar left behind...
     A serious need to question.

To hear the unsung...
    On the wavy flow of motion.
Struggle to contain within...
    Go ahead ...have a conversation.

An ugly descriptive hole
        People call them doors
I'll keep it wide open
    But won't ever cross the threshold.

Been a while
     Since my last write
           You moved me a little again
                  So let's give it another try!.

What a burden
        To uphold
              It's a door
                      We should just close.

On your way
      Back home
           Don't turn back
                  Please don't knock.

My eyes saw...
     But my heart believed.
With my battered heart,
    And an insignificant mind.
With some empty threats,
     I chose to live.

With a broken trust,
      And some deceptive truth.
A lie concealed quietly,
      With the help of my trust.

The boundaries set,
     Then the boundaries broken.
My earnings of lifetime,
      Somehow got stolen.

But my eyes saw...
Heart didn't believe.
My mind could tell..
But the heart didn't see.

With some broken bones,
      I mend my soul...
Been choosing to free,
      With a permit to steal.

With that insignificant mind,
      I learned to seal.
And with my battered heart,
      I choose to live.

The moment stretched thin,
    Within your eyes lies..
The fate of your despair,
     As you face your desire.

Lonely nights caused,
     As your bleeding heart flies.
The leaving of your soul,
      Within the moment lies.

The eyes tell the story,
     The one your smile hides.
You let yourself fall,
     As the time flies by.

The moment stretched thin,
     When you live behind the words.
The expected memories feels,
      Within your soul it cries.

And the moment stretched thin,
     Within the moment lies.
The fate of your desire,
      As you face your despair.

I wrote ...I erased...
I refined it....then wrote it again.

The words....of the memories....
Writing the soul....with different stories.

Calmed breathing...finally controlled...
Pulse under normal...then.... I let go.

Smooth lines
       Expressive eyes
             Innocent wide smile
An honest to god lie.

Fate intertwined
       Within a bracket hide
              Need something exceptional
A dread forming inside.

The want within reach
        Every sense override
               Worded desire hypnotise
Turned euphoric high.

Burned through the night
         Clothed in warm light
                 Pieces falls in places
Shines brighter than starlight.

Twinkling amidst the dark
         Showering in scattered fireflies
               Music in the visual serenity
And the promise to be mine.

I tried to walk slow
To always look for you
To take the life in pieces
But I can't anymore...

To hold inside my heart
Your pains your secrets
To look the other way
When you broke me to pieces.

To love you with all of me
To be your only constant
To be the love you hate
To let you be my only mistake.

I was struggling to find
The love I hoped for myself
But the dreams I lived
The dreams of your eyes..

The light was yours
While I burn like a candle
There was only a spark
But we made the fire.

A star shine in the sky
You made me the night
I hold on to your darkness
Onto the hope to be alright.

But the harder I hold
The faster you slipped
The dreams of us forgotten
I'll let you live in your bliss.

Maybe it's worth saving
But I can't save it anymore
Maybe it's my destiny
But maybe.... it's not.

Trapped within itself
A silent cry ...
of an abandoned soul.
Hold me upright,
Cause I can't anymore.

With my wings tied tight
I'm learning to fly
All around and above
I'm seeing myself
With your eyes..

The faith I see
The picture you paint
A lone lost star
In search of its moon..

you came
You made me believe
I see.....I smile...
I stop....I sigh...
I creat...I heal...
I learn...I fly...
For the trapped soul...to the one who freed ..
This world with you ...
....straight up good..

A stranger unknown
Make believe the fact
The search came fruitful
Then I met myself.

The limits I see no more...
Maybe it's an illusion...
Maybe it's not.

You came along..
The star ain't alone anymore..
My own little constellation...
I can fly towards horizon.

You made me believe..
I see.....I smile...
I stop....I sigh...
I creat...I heal...
I learn...I fly...
For the trapped soul...to the one who freed ..
This world with you ...
....straight up good.

For the new beginning
       For a do over
To find a hope somewhere
       Cause life isn't over.

To fly under the weather
     Above the scorching sun
To stare at the icey moon
     Cause the world is still open.

To leave behind the mistakes
    To learn a better lesson.
To hold the head high
     And to heal what's broken.

To smile for the emotions
      To accept the short comings
To love yourself first
       Cause it's the start of the beginning.

To survive within the night
     To cherish the light
Dark or bright...

Acceptance
      Cause it's life.

Dept of your darkened mind
    Lures the darkness of mine
To consume the shadows
   And the last glimmer of light.

In the moment of lust
In the passion for thirst
    They dance around in open
     On the music of our hurt.

A call strong enough to break
    A soul that's what on the stake
With the flames of burning desire
    A death of light ....with a red hot fire.

It's been a while,
      But I still got time.
Still fighting the night,
      Still reviving the light.

The journey goes on,
      And the life keeps moving.
Weight on the wings increased,
      Still flopping them for flight.

It's been a while,
     Still trying to write.
The same old pain,
     With some different lines.

Nice to see you around,
      Oh yeah...I'm also fine.
Still hoping for better,
       And I still got time.

It's been a while,
     Still keeping us aside.
The chaos keep erupting,
     But I find it alright.

The labyrinth we called life,
     The way I'm trying to find.
The Blood went icy,
      Then the fire you ignite.

It's been a while,
      Prayers keep us live,
Buried under the mud,
      Still wish to survive.

It's been a while,
     I'll see you again sometime.
Without the pins and needles,
    Then it will be alright.

I know....
    You are totally rooting for my short-comings.
I'm sure....
     You'd love to tell me all about it.
I hope you know...
     There's nothing you can say to surprise me.
I wonder. ..
      If you're aware ...it's impossible to break me.