Malia: Poems

Dec 2019 · 76

Malia Dec 2019

Who do you think you are
To just waltz straight into my heart?!

Who do you think I am
An innocent little lamb?!

How dare you look at me!
When there is so little to see.

Dec 2019 · 81

I Learned Something Today

Malia Dec 2019

I Learned Something Today

I just learned something today
Pain doesn’t go away as you age
The years go by and the sadness doesn’t leave
There’s still a missing part of you that you want to retrieve.

There are still scars healing all over your heart
That doesn’t change as you grow older.
There are still memories you want to erase
Ones you want to disappear without a trace.

But you learn how to cope
You sometimes seem to grow wiser
As you become weathered and worn
Your burden grows a wee little bit lighter.

Dec 2019 · 70

Short poem

Malia Dec 2019

Short poem

Prejudice and pride
Something we want to hide
Yet it will still show itself

Dec 2019 · 84

You Are a Star

Malia Dec 2019

You Are a Star

You are a star
You shine so brightly
You have a future
You are going to be okay
You’re my best friend
I will always be there for you
Don’t worry
Everything’s gonna be okay

I need to start saying this to myself

Dec 2019 · 87

I am not Afraid

Malia Dec 2019

I am not Afraid

I am not afraid of new places and things
I am not afraid of the unfamiliar
I am not afraid of change
If anything, I am afraid of staying the same.

Dec 2019 · 78

What Younger Me Would Say to Me

Malia Dec 2019

What Younger Me Would Say to Me

What younger me would say to me:
“I wanna see the sea!”
“Do you have a dog?”
“You should get a dog.”
I have four, by the way.
“Have you ever ridden a horse?”
I have. Still obsessed, of course.
“Is middle school like, super hard?”
No, but work hard, and you’ll earn a reward!
“Do you mean I’ll get candy or something?”
No, but you’ll get lots of satisfaction.
“What’s satisfaction.”
Oh you’ll see when you’re older.
“Teenagers ****.”
I won’t deny it!

Dec 2019 · 83

Ill-mannered maiden

Malia Dec 2019

Ill-mannered maiden

Ill-mannered maiden
Lost in her world
Lost herself to Satan
No longer pure.

But that’s ok
You aren’t either
Unless you’re a baby
In that case,
That’s a smart baby!

Dec 2019 · 92

No Longer

Malia Dec 2019

No Longer

Fake friendship has lost its appeal
I only long for what is real.

Compliments I no longer crave
I have too many sins, too many mistakes.

Pity parties I don’t want to have
I might be anxious, but I’m not THAT sad.

Dec 2019 · 68

I Walk Through the Foggy Mist

Malia Dec 2019

I Walk Through the Foggy Mist

I walk through the foggy mist
I feel the souls around me
The lost ones I am amidst
I’m not talking about dead people
Instead the ones who are ignored
I’m talking about the people
Whose hearts are battered and sore.

Dec 2019 · 65

Shoutout to awesome people cuz yea

Malia Dec 2019

Shoutout to awesome people cuz yea

Thank you Larry Marshall
For listening to my complaints
For putting up with my whining
And supporting it anyways.

Thank you Katja
For writing from your heart
I see you
I hear you
And it sounds awesome.

Dec 2019 · 82

In the Center of it All, Alone

Malia Dec 2019

In the Center of it All, Alone

Surrounded by people
Yet still alone
The lone wolf traveler
Isolation-prone.

Socialism isn’t her thing
But she pretends it is
Masked she is
But she is not a hero.

Nevertheless
She wants to be heard
But she whispers
Hoping that he will hear.

Dec 2019 · 125

Am I Afraid of Myself?

Malia Dec 2019

Am I Afraid of Myself?

I just realized
I say real a lot
Am I afraid of the fake
Am I afraid of lies?

I don’t know
Because I lie a lot
Sadly
I need to fix that
Am I afraid of myself?

Dec 2019 · 161

Real Idioms

Malia Dec 2019

Real Idioms

It’s raining cats and dogs
And probably raining hogs
What if our own idioms
Suddenly became real?

“Oh, all I did was **** time”
Say that, and end up in jail
And hell, for that matter.
“Punch the clock”
Ow, that hurt
Don’t punch solid wood kids.

Dec 2019 · 62

The Real Answer Was Worried

Malia Dec 2019

The Real Answer Was Worried

So I had a WellCheck today
I had a paper I had to fill out
One of the questions was
“How do you feel most of the time?”
The choices were:
Sad, angry, happy, and worried
I circled happy
The real answer was worried

Dec 2019 · 63

Running Out of Time

Malia Dec 2019

Running Out of Time

Timers are my enemy
I never liked running anyway
Running out of time is worse.

Dec 2019 · 599

Contradicting Concepts

Malia Dec 2019

Contradicting Concepts

Contradicting concepts
Are the essence of my being
Yes, it may not make sense
But it makes sense to me.

I love the things that can’t be seen
Or touched or heard or smelled
The type of thing that’s not tangible
That I am always seeing.

I love the way it sparks my fire
Of kindling curiosity
I don’t know if you guys agree
Or if it is only me.

Dec 2019 · 139

Nightmare

Malia Dec 2019

Nightmare

I hear you scream
It pierced my dream
Unless that scream is really me
Trying to claw my way out of a nightmare.

Dec 2019 · 87

Storms

Malia Dec 2019

Storms

I am searching for a friend
You are searching for an end
Of peace.

You want chaos
I am a tornado
I want peace
You are a tranquil forest.
So mysterious.

We are both storms
Of different kinds
Mine whips you up
And yours makes me slow down.

Dec 2019 · 80

Loud Words Spoken Softly

Malia Dec 2019

Loud Words Spoken Softly

Loud words
Spoken softly
Nevertheless
I hear the scream
Of people who wish to be heard
Whisper it to me
I will listen.

Dec 2019 · 57

Phony Zest

Malia Dec 2019

Phony Zest

Well, I just took an online-test
That told me I was mildly depressed
It also said I’m moderately
Passive-aggressive too.

A couple good things
It said to me,
I’m not a psychopath!
I have high self esteem
And I’m not a narcissist!

No one who knows me
Would ever think
I’m mildly depressed.

Except for you guys
As you have seen
Beneath this phony zest.

Nov 2019 · 112

A Temporal Relief

Malia Nov 2019

A Temporal Relief

I was feeling much better
Then I realized my problems hadn’t left
This temporary relief
Was a very short-lived gift.

Words are my comfort-food
I’d binge-eat all day if I could,
But sadly it only changes my mood
And not my life (I misunderstood!)

Welp, that *****.
Eh, I’ll fix my life eventually
*key word-eventually!

Nov 2019 · 107

250, Now 251

Malia Nov 2019

250, Now 251

250 poems
Now it’s 251
Who knew I had so much to say
I thought I’d only make one!

That was a complete and utter lie
Guess I didn’t know
That it’s so addictive
To write poems on HePo!

Nov 2019 · 464

Dear RhymeZone

Malia Nov 2019

Dear RhymeZone

Dear RhymeZone,
Thank you for existing
You help me find the rhyming words
That used to always be missing.

You’re pretty much my savior
Thesaurus.com, you too!
You make my works even greater
For my readers (you!)

Thanks to you I can concoct
Words that fit like a sock!
Never mind a glove,
These words are more, which I love!

Honestly, what would I do without it? Do you guys relate? I want to know. I’d you don’t know what RhymeZone is, I encourage you to look it up. It’s so helpful!

#rhymezone #thesaurus #thanks #funny

Nov 2019 · 68

I Need to Write an Essay

Malia Nov 2019

I Need to Write an Essay

I need to write an essay
But this is so much better
My words are very messy
Much more fit for poems
Not for assignments this semester!

Nov 2019 · 74

Run Away

Malia Nov 2019

Run Away

Run away
Run away
It’s best that you don’t stay
You have no idea
What chaos I am.

Run away
Run away
Remain and you will pay
The price of loving a living sin
And being in the places I have been.

Run away
Run away
Stay with me; you better pray
That you will make it unscathed
Out of this friendship you have made.

Oh please stay
Oh please stay
I will let you have your way
Even though I’m walking fire
And you have gotten yourself stuck in my mire.

Nov 2019 · 61

Horrid Monster

Malia Nov 2019

Horrid Monster

Every single word I say
Hurts a person’s feelings
Every single breath I take
Is controlled by inner demons.

Every single friend I have
Has never seen behind my mask
And my poor family
Has to deal with the real me.

It’s a shame I cannot be
An actual human being
For I am a horrid monster instead
With bad luck trailing where she treads.

Nov 2019 · 283

People are Walking Poetry

Malia Nov 2019

People are Walking Poetry

People are walking poetry
Hard battles inside the mind.
Sometimes soft, sometimes loud, always chaos
Nothing forgotten, left behind.

Sometimes I think that people
Are full of burning hate
Then I realize that they hold love
Two opposing traits.

People are walking poetry
Each of us made of words
Caging feelings so very deep
We are adjectives and verbs
We are poems you’ll want to keep.

Nov 2019 · 678

What is Love?

Malia Nov 2019

What is Love?

What is love?
If I may ask.
Is it butterflies
When they walk past?
Is it warmth that seeps
To your fingertips
When they gift you
With a soft gentle kiss?
Is it the trust
That gives you comfort
Or the peace that they give you
That you only used to have in slumber?
Is it the bond that you share
That can’t ever tear?
Is it dying for the one you live for?
What is love?
If I may ask.

Nov 2019 · 67

Thoughts I’m writing down instead of doing math

Malia Nov 2019

Thoughts I’m writing down instead of doing math

Only in our blind beliefs can we ever find the truth
The deepest precepts come from the youth
Contradictions never fail to make sense
And I can’t even see through my own pretense

Nov 2019 · 63

Waning Faith

Malia Nov 2019

Waning Faith

There is a God
But he ain’t showing himself
Why is he letting his “great power”
Rot on the shelf?

My faith is waning
My awe is fading
It’s too loud
Too big of a crowd
Looking for peace
But that hasn’t happened.

Where the frick did you go?
Why did you leave
When I needed you the most?
If you’re really there
Show yourself
Come back.

Nov 2019 · 89

Snap Back to Reality

Malia Nov 2019

Snap Back to Reality

Living in a fantasy
Isn’t gonna change reality
This calamity
Can’t you see?
We’re breaking down
All this sound
Is slurring
These lines
Are blurring
Confusion rules the world
Leading to angry fists curled.

The title is a line from the song Lose Yourself by Eminem and that line has been stuck in my head for days!

“Snap back to reality, oh there goes gravity”

Nov 2019 · 145

The Pityful Little Girl

Malia Nov 2019

The Pityful Little Girl

I look in the mirror
And I don’t recognize
The pitiful little girl
Gazing back.

There is so much sadness
In her eyes
In these moments
When it’s just me and her
No one else there
No one I have to be happy for.

Nov 2019 · 69

Gentle Warrior

Malia Nov 2019

Gentle Warrior

Truly
Do you understand
It’s crazy how you withstand
All of that pain
And yet you’re still there
For me.

Your quiet strength
Supersedes
Loud and showy bravado
Thank you
For you are a gentle warrior.

Nov 2019 · 154

Dear Younger Me

Malia Nov 2019

Dear Younger Me

Consult with the rain
Speak with the flowers
Keep your individuality
Don’t be like the others.

Keep your angelic innocence
But if you lose it, don’t be bitter
Be a misser or hitter, but don’t be a sitter
Follow your gut and also your heart
Your intuition matters.

Don’t doubt yourself so much
Have faith in yourself
Keep your kindness
Always offer a hug, even when their tears soak your shirt.

Just be you.

Nov 2019 · 67

Freedom

Malia Nov 2019

Freedom

Freedom
Is more than being able to be
But to be able to express
Freedom of thought
It’s what our founding fathers sought
The freedom to speak
And say what is needed
Without getting persecuted.

What a world it is
When children in grade school
Don’t have freedom.

Nov 2019 · 91

Silence

Malia Nov 2019

Silence

Sometimes
I am so quiet
I’m afraid I disappeared.

Nov 2019 · 91

Careful Calculations

Malia Nov 2019

Careful Calculations

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YOUR CAREFUL CALCULATIONS MEAN NOTHING FEEL FOR ONCE

Nov 2019 · 119

Please and Thank You

Malia Nov 2019

Please and Thank You

Chatter fills the air
Stop blabbing away
Your empty words
Mean nothing
Speak when you need to
But don’t be fake
Please
And thank you

Nov 2019 · 108

BUT I AM NOT BLIND

Malia Nov 2019

BUT I AM NOT BLIND

I may be dark
But I’m not blind
I won’t stick my head into the sand
I will not ignore
What is happening.
I may be dark
BUTIAMNOTBLIND

Nov 2019 · 379

Deteriorate

Malia Nov 2019

Deteriorate

Decay, degenerate
Rot in hell from all this hate
Lessen, languish, lower, regress
Back to when I was a mess
Sink, slide, undermine
I don’t think I was ever fine
Fade, fail, fall apart
I wasn’t “okay” from the start.

When you’re so messed up you make online thesaurus results dark.

#deteriorate #fail #notfine #notok

Nov 2019 · 168

Thank You For Answers

Malia Nov 2019

Thank You For Answers

Thanks for an answer
That’s all I can ask for
When “knowledgeable” people
Don’t tell me anything
Thank you for answers
Thank you for hearing me
Thank you for listening
And not talking as much.

Nov 2019 · 72

Swimming With Sharks

Malia Nov 2019

Swimming With Sharks

I’m swimming with sharks
Leaving me in the dark
They try and limit
My limitless art
Don’t even start
Because these blood-red words
Come from swimming with sharks.

Nov 2019 · 94

SOMEONE ANSWER MY QUESTION thanks

Malia Nov 2019

SOMEONE ANSWER MY QUESTION thanks

Can someone please
Answer this important query
For me?

Once you grow older
Maybe 23
Does it get easier
When you are free?

Or does it get harder
When you’re not told what to do
Weighed down by responsibilities
That depend on you.

Does it get better
As time goes by
Or does it stay the same
Or does it get worse?

Nov 2019 · 121

A Nightmare Set Free

Malia Nov 2019

A Nightmare Set Free

If this is all a dream
A messed up fantasy
A nightmare set free
Into the real world
Why haven’t I woken up yet.

Nov 2019 · 65

Winter Rhapsody

Malia Nov 2019

Winter Rhapsody

The snow lands on your long eyelashes
Strike a few matches
The blinding white
Mingles with the white light
Not quite
In this world.

By the fire we chat quietly
For me a mug of hot cocoa
And for you some warm tea
This is the best thing that has ever happened to me
Not just chatting, but you
And the warmth of the fire
Mix wonderfully.

This Winter Rhapsody
Is a fantastic fantasy
Snap back to reality
I’m all by myself.

A blizzard in Colorado.

Nov 2019 · 63

I Succumb to the Cold

Malia Nov 2019

I Succumb to the Cold

Knee-deep in the snow
Don’t know where to go
My fingers feel numb
To the cold I succumb

Nov 2019 · 60

Untitled

Malia Nov 2019

Untitled

All these stories in my head
I’d rather write instead
Of changing my real life for the better.

Nov 2019 · 50

This is more to myself than you guys

Malia Nov 2019

This is more to myself than you guys

Get lost in the music
Get lost in the words
Look up to the sky
See bright blue birds.

Rose colored glasses
Won’t fix anything
But clear magnifying ones
Will help you see more closely.

Don’t put your shades on
Don’t put your head in the sand
Just because things may be going south
Not everything’s sad and bland.

Nov 2019 · 41

Untitled

Malia Nov 2019

Untitled

Don’t you dare

Nov 2019 · 60

Untitled

Malia Nov 2019

Untitled

I’m not a kid
Not an adult
I’m something else, something more
Not an adult
Not that mature
But some of my innocence left