her
what has she done to me
all I have is a few ****** shards
she stole my heart
and crushed it

look at my heart
some will say
it's rotten
it's not even there
has it ever even been there?
or it's perfect
full to the brim
no blemishes
                     incorrect
that's my demon
my mask
a gift
and a curse
no one can see through it
no one can touch it
no one can find me

I pull one
out
and sink it
in
pulling it across
my skin

a place
I go looking around
I see no one
perfect
I remove the mask
because it's just me
no one judges
no one hates
but also
no one supports
no one loves
just me
and my mask

slowly
waiting
for just the right moment
It’s been building up for days
I need it to explode and release me
all the anger
sadness
I want to let go and scream
I can’t keep it in
let me the hell out of
the cage I call my mind
I growl and scream in frustration
nothing will happen
so frustrated
I can’t even be me
I just want to scream
every curse I know at the whole world
but I can’t

All those words
seen as bad
evil even
rude
profane
crude
         one question
why?
they're only words
why fear
what
you can't even see
there just words

No weight on my shoulders
I'm free
no ropes holding me down
yeah right
I got heartbreak holding me down
I got gender on my shoulders
I got sexuality eating me up
and you on my mind