A false remembrance of trust
“You must trust me” He commands
Commend me to stand
Lean on Him for the strength I was too weak to have
He says
“I am your protector”
Trust
I don’t remember it that way

Daylight frees the quiet soul from slumber of forgotten memories
Dreams of pink, sweet lilac streams
Of calm water
Cherry wine
Summertime
Back home in the Forrest that kept you for so long
Rock banks, soft breathing
Relaxed for a while
Happy for some time
You grew out of girlhood here
Woman not yet
Learning, yes
Remembering, maybe

Momma called me fat
Maybe if I stop eating
She’ll be the one who’s bigger

Plastic tears
Manufactured mother, never the perfect trophy wife
Sometimes I could almost feel your pain
His rough voice creates echos into our empty home
Shock waves through your fragile heart
I wonder why you stay
Nothing was ever good enough unless it was him
Maybe it’s my fault for not pulling you to the surface sooner
Drowning in your own pool of self regret and heartache
You lie like no one is watching
Mother, I’m sorry to tell you but everyone is watching you now
Silicone, plastic wrap heart
You only unravel to show him
I still have dreams about you
But I don’t know if you’re capable of loving me back

Running around with a guy twice your age
Practically
I bet you feel really brave
He’s so cute though you say
Mature, sure
Fifteen and twenty
Not that bad
Five years is plenty

Gunshot
Raining knives
All the ways to hurt yourself with one letter
You’re not even real
I mean
How can the person staring back at you with the dead eyes possibly have any soul left to save?
Dangerous, honey you’ve reached your peak
High as a **** kite
Ready to take flight into the nightosphere
You’re poison like ketamine
Flame burning like gasoline
Baby stop, before you hurt yourself
You know everyone is waiting to see that

I’d cut my hair
If I knew it wasn’t you
Who liked it
So long
Flowing down my back
Break free
Snip
Maybe I’ll do it anyway