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She paints her lips
We all know what goes on inside
That pretty little mind
She slits her wrists with the same hand she wings her eyeliner with

Demons still haunt me behind my eyes
Ghost of my past coming back to lurk in my wakening days
Witching hour
Three am
We don’t have to die so soon
At least wait until afternoon

I could’ve destroyed him
But I didn’t
Lucky him

Sometimes I wonder what I did
If I had never stood up for myself would I still have her?
I can’t think like that
No one deserves to live like that

I hope to God that she was doing her best
But her best just wasn’t good enough
It’s sad to say, but deep in my heart I want to say she tried
When she tucked us into bed and made dinner even when she was tired
I want to know that she loved me even on the darkest of days in her own way
Even though she chose him over me

She didn’t recognize her own daughter’s voice
How sane can she be?
If she chose him over me
Sometimes I wonder if she ever loved me
Does she still think of me?

In this moment I love you
It doesn’t matter what I don’t know about you
But everything about you fits so perfectly
In this moment
In my world where nothing ever goes right
Except when it does
In this moment
My heart is yours
This time
Am I stupid?
I am in love with you
Right now