My head feels heavy like stone ,
while my eyes flutter closed , my body is screaming for sleep — my shoulders ache for rest while my mind won't rest. I spin in circles in this hell hole
I can only hope for the light to go out.

we promised ourselves
to never turn out  
like our parents
and yet any  minor
inconvenience the mask slips  crumbling to the floor  
revealing a piece of them
through us.
We quickly grab
the mask
trembling hands
Hold tightly
onto the shame
we promise ourself
to never act
Like that again
Repeat the cycle.

I shall kneel and pray to
any of the gods
except this god.
i cannot tell you what
happend
I tell you this .....
this god I never call
By his name ...
He is not worth the sacrifice.
He is not worth to abandon oneself
for false promises are claimed to be prophecies.

I can't speak what my heart feels yet only describe in mere words what it yearns for.
I cannot speak my mind , those whirlwind of thoughts keep me confused , which way do I go left or right? Do I know? I choose to speak my mind in a crowded room , with a blink of an eye the white walls reflect back to me empty and sterile nothing alike , like those thoughts i carry inside — their footsteps echoes in the back.
I tried ropes and ties in hopes of saving yet not  one soul grabbed what i had to  offer like i was mere wind of no means filled with nonsense.
Broken oaths still seek me , voices linger in the back of my head.
I feel the tightness in my chest spreading like a parasite eating me alive.