when those eyes like ice meet mine, i look down
she snarls as i freeze
fight or flight
she has me trapped
words like knives into my anxious mind
who would have thought it would end up this way
the way my entire being flutters when you pass
your eyes like melted chocolate, seeping into my soul
creating a whirlwind of mixed emotions

you keep me in your arms
lay me down
look into my eyes

and
whisper
into
my
ear

i love you
you say
softly

and i fear for the first time, i'm falling
and i'll never land
you have written your cruel words in scars on my wrists
your torture is verbal
turned physical
you’re gone, but it’s still there
i’m trapped in your endless cacophony of insults
it's loud
everywhere
colors
they shine

paper feels strange, like nails on chalkboard through my fingers
everything is too loud, but my music is never loud enough

filter is gone, never was anyway

reading speed is fast, but i can't understand sarcasm, yet i use it a lot

imagining is easy, speaking is hard

i don't understand your face
it's strange
this is what asperger's feels like.
you cannot wait
wait
wait for the sun
the sun
the sun will shine bright without me
without me
without me you will go on
go on
go on and find someone new
someone new
someone new will help you get better
better
better without me you are
you are
you are
red
only red
i see
red

white noise
but red
red surrounding me
it's spreading like a plague

i can't stop it

can't stop the flow of red, and only red

there's a pale tint to my skin

and it's almost over

red
eyes narrowed down
slits
forever
i gaze and they're digging into my arms
teeth bared like poisonous snakes
a hiss and you're not human, no
you were never human
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