when those eyes like ice meet mine, i look down
she snarls as i freeze
fight or flight
she has me trapped
words like knives into my anxious mind
who would have thought it would end up this way

you have written your cruel words in scars on my wrists
your torture is verbal
turned physical
you’re gone, but it’s still there
i’m trapped in your endless cacophony of insults

you cannot wait
wait
wait for the sun
the sun
the sun will shine bright without me
without me
without me you will go on
go on
go on and find someone new
someone new
someone new will help you get better
better
better without me you are
you are
you are

red
only red
i see
red

white noise
but red
red surrounding me
it's spreading like a plague

i can't stop it

can't stop the flow of red, and only red

there's a pale tint to my skin

and it's almost over

red

eyes narrowed down
slits
forever
i gaze and they're digging into my arms
teeth bared like poisonous snakes
a hiss and you're not human, no
you were never human

a single drop of red into the pale white sink
and another
painting a disorderly picture onto a marble canvas
with a blade as your brush and the reddest pigment
only the best
for
you

you cry out into the
stars
but they never listen
to you
they never listen
you feel her teardrops on you shoulder like a
cold summer
rain
but she never listens
to your comforting
words
what would you do if those turquoise glass orbs had not met yours on a
humid
july
afternoon
you would not
exist
yet again