Set out to achieve a goal
Seeking the right people
Be better than before
Never the same
Keep moving forward
Feels like time is running out
Over all the worry and doubt
Mind is racing overdrive
Not knowing or showing emotions
Things are not a sure thing anymore
Call out escape the struggle
Not looking back or allowing to be pulled back
Heart never set because it's not meant to be
Not focused on who I was but focused on who I've become living in the moment.
Looking back is yesterday
Looking ahead is not always promised
Live in the moment appreciate the current.

You ignored my silent pleas
so I screamed my pain with a knife
yet I know you still wont hear me
until I end my life
even then I don't think you'll change your ways
and honestly we both need to learn how to cope
instead of turning to our addictions in order to conceal our pain

my eyes are stained the color red
from all the crying we did the day before
but today its as if we never even talked, so my wrists stung as I bled
you drunk and I cut more and more
you said we'd be a happy family again
but if you think about it, we never were
because even from way back then
the good memories are a blur

My heart cannot feel hate
for anyone besides myself
so I see why I believed your apology wasn't fake
up until you grabbed the liquor from the top shelf

I don't expect you to change your ways
I guess I can't either
so you can just call me razor blade
and I'll call you alcohol breather

Strong winds may uproot you
Unsettle your stoic resignation
You will be shaken and stirred
Lot of ponderings and doubts
In the middle of nowhere
When gravity does not give hope
Become a fearless traveler
Encounter the strong winds
No matter where you settle
Continue to spread your roots, deeper
Your soul is still with you
Nothing can stop you from reliving
Every unsettling episode
Will teach you to be more resilient

isn't it odd
how we can know
human nature
well enough
to write poems
that move others
to tears
yet must hear
the words of others
to cry
alone
.