It’s been two years,

I remembered when I use to continuously Ask for you to come back to me,
But that was stupid.
You physically couldn’t.
Not even mentally.

Time stood still for me.
It still stands the same as I don’t ask for You to come back anymore
But I still yearn for you secretly when I’m Alone at night.

The full moon falls as my heart drops.
The night sky cries as I lie down quietly.

I remember when I used to not be able to write about you,
Because what is there to communicate to someone who won’t be able to hear my words.

My mouth. No words.
My lips. Won’t move.
But my tears will fall.
Although I don’t know why it does.
It’s been two years.

I guess still miss you.

I feel so alone, even when I’m surrounded.
It’s three a.m.
and all I could think about is words that don’t correlate in my head.
They’re mindless thoughts in my mind,
full of nothing with nothing to fill.
I cannot make out what I’m thinking.
It’s hurting how much I confuse myself.
The sun comes up and the day goes on and I am happy again.
I make more memories.
Then I come home, straight to bed I go.
Laying there.
It’s three a.m. again.
I lay there not knowing why it’s hurting so much.
It’s like a black hole has ****** my happiness away.
The next day comes and full of joy, my day goes by filled with love and happiness.
I go home.
It’s 2:59 a.m.
Tic tok, the clock stops.
Then again, three a.m. appears.
It’s as if it’s mocking me.
Mocking me everyday when I come home alone, alone in the dark I lay.
But when morning comes, I don’t feel the pain.
As if I’m as bright as the rays,
And when night comes, the cycle repeats.
It repeats and repeats, shall silent keep me at bay?

If we were never meant to be,
You’d leave.
And all the melodies along with you would disappear into the abyss.
They’re the melodies of my heart,
They play on repeat like a broken record.
I miss you.
I-
I-
Mi-
You
Would you miss me?

Paint me in the colors that you want me to be in.
Kiss me just as passionately as the colors burst right in front of your eyes.
Touch me like the rain does so casually.
Drip, drop.
Down, up.
Let me hear the soft tunes of those lullabies as I slowly fall asleep so deeply.
goodnight.

I’m trapped inside nothingness and I am left defenseless.
It seems to be pitch black as I open and close my eyes, there is nothing to be seen.
To be specific, it’s Vantablack.
It’s one of the darkest substance that’s known and it absorbs 99.96% of visible light.
You, you are my .04% when I’ve lost hope.
You, you are the thing that keeps me going.
I know the faith of mine has been wavering.
But you, you God are the reason I’m fighting to find my .04% chance of light again.