I watch a sunrise behind an old abandoned church in my home-town
I haven't slept for two nights
the crystal clear beauty of the sleep-deprived
the jaw aching beauty of the pink sky
almost hurts my eyes
the irony I see reflected back at me
how such a daring light could hide behind
a cowardly institution
My thoughts are crisp and clear
after two nights of no sleep
and I cant describe
I cannot describe what I see
But its there behind my eyelids
when I close them shut
I am dreaming of tomorrow
But tomorrow never comes.
I am closer to god when I am sleepless
Though I'm not sure I believe in god when I am awake
like all things are during suffering
and the sky is just a canvas
for me to whisper my thoughts to
I paint his hands in the shape of clouds
under this red sky at morning
They hold nothing
and nothing holds them
heavy hands and my heavy eyelids
both closed
open
wide
shut
he holds me in his hands
he holds the promise of tomorrow
I tell him tomorrow is a lie.

Walking by the McDonalds
Licking an ice cream cone
It's vanilla
Like his skin
There's a creeper behind him
Wearing some shades
Probably wants the kid
He has ice cream too
But NO, Ryan says
He's holding kid's hand
Wearing some sandals.

Every day, it just seems like you and I,
Will break down inside, if you want.
Sometimes, it feels like we're going to.
The pain inside, it feels like a stab.
I can't run away from you.
That's why you're a *****.

The summer breeze blows through my beard,
Some people may think, it's kind of weird.
Alas, I don't care, as I whip my hair.
Let's go get some bbq and get busy.

I was looking for someone to love,
My heart gave me the shove,
I was looking for someone sweet,
Who would make my heart erratically beat,
I was looking for someone that would make me smile,
Someone who would walk with me for miles,
I was looking for someone who gives my heart a little tug,
Someone I could always hug,
I was looking for someone who wouldn't give in,
Even when time grew thin,
I was looking for someone who'd kiss me in the rain,
And promise to never cause me pain,
I was looking for someone who thought my heart was anything but plain,
Someone who wouldn't leave my heart slain,
I was looking for someone who could bring me joy,
Not someone with an evil ploy,
I was looking for someone to complete me,
Someone that wouldn't mistreat me,
Someone that would only be sweet to me,
I was looking for someone to be happy with,
This person can't be completely myth.

(I found all this in you,
The second my heart flew,
I knew it was you,
there was some kind of spell no one could undo,
It's true,I love you.)