I'm becoming an old man, a cold man... if only others understood, what it is I understand. If only... they could

But the truth is, they cannot... 
I'm different to put it simply,​​​​​​ different than you all. If only...
I wasn't misunderstood

   "if only we simply grasped us all, understanding not everything is meant to be...UNDERSTOOD!"

Money isn't everything, they say... Happiness cannot be bought! They brought the beast out in us... When they fought!
Losing a war, is not nor never an option... WHEN YOU ARE MEN LIKE US!
We take it personal, because... We are men of our words!

when I gave all my love to you
and had none of it left for
myself.

Not everything is ok
Not even close to ok
I didn’t get the thing I wanted the most
And that makes me feel unk
That makes me feel heartbroken and crushed
And a little bit tired
I really wanted this
But it didn’t happen
And what’s worse
Is that I can’t imagine my life without this thing
And that is not ok
But yet deep inside of me
I have a little just a little faith
Ik that god is watching
And he knows that for me it’s not ok
But it will be ok
In fact it is ok right now
At this very second
Bc this thing was not ok for me
Nor I was ok for it
And so god knows
What is ok and what is not
And hence thinking about that
Just the fact that god
Sees, listens, and knows
What is ok for me
And has already written
What is meant to be ok to me
Makes me feel ok

Grey feelings is what I feel
No colors at all
Desperately wanting to heal

It's like the entire world feels right
whenever I see you.