With no wind beneath my wings
With no dawn to my night
Hook, line, sinker.
If I'm a shark in a lake too small
Then in the sea, I'd be the shark pulled from the water.
My nativity is all I have.
My blind faith in the future.
I'm taking ten steps forward with a bungie cord tied around my ankles. Who knows what it's tied to.
Who cares?
All I know is that;
Quelling this fear will take more than a quill.
The distilled ***** tastes better with coke.
That ups are counteracted by gravity
And that same gravity will hold me down.
What the **** am I fighting for?

I feel an immense amount of pressure
It's overbearing
It's scary
My anxiety rises.
When I trend.
So many people see my thoughts
I feel naked and exposed

I've always struggled for a muse to my inspiration.
In short
I would hold myself back
smoke ***
get depressed
Then
be miserable with my poor life choices.
I'm choosing to no longer be punctual;
I will be early.
I'm choosing to keep my eyes on my horizon and surround myself with people who want to stay in my peripheral vision.
If I can see you, you aren't holding me back.
You're giving me a reason to keep moving forward.

It's Morning
The suns out
the fall seasons weather is making itself known.
I've missed this,
Feeling happy
Feeling like the season is mine.
Summer and winter
I get really depressed.
Spring and fall,
The verb seasons
I can do anything
That's why I'm leaving now.

I find an unbelievable amount of solace in the fact that he makes you happy.
I also know that I was cut off.
Yes, it hurts.
No, I won't reach out.
I'm setting my sights on California
Nothing else
No one else.

Today, was a massive ******* to me.
I didn't want to each you buy cute clothes,
I didn't want to watch you pick out new bras
I didn't want to listen to the sad k-Matt music.
And watching you check your phone and paint your nails was painful as ****.
Just because we aren't together
You make my feelings nonexaistant.
Being asked if you're outfit looked good,
That's where it hurt the most why do you want to hear it from me?
Tonight you were getting cute for him.