Pigs hunt us for sport
Then get awards from court
Judge and pork are cohorts
Victims to villains that's how they sort
Was it a gun or drugs put on the report

Kids dead and the feds said he deserved to be bled
Now a hole in his head and parents filled with dread
Murderers stalk the street they'll find you in bed
Watch where you tread listen to orders still your dead
Made no moves, Hands up, then your blood is shed

Now people protest the wrongs they write
Civil unrest, follow your psalms do whats right
If you can't see the plight then you've lost your sight
To be quiet is to support the violence in the night
Justice is worth the fight now, don't wait for hindsight

Media making enemy's out of friends
Bigotry, blacks against the whites
Plant the crack, give people a ***** sight
Now the injustice is looking alright
More ******* on news coming at eight

Trust your own gut go figure out what's what
Check your source cause events are never clear cut
Make sure you don't believe something stupid as ****
An example, thought blank was a gun, that's a cover up
Stay the course of the righteous never let fear shut you up

It may be hard to breath or to hold onto sanity
As the fires seethe and the jury makes claims of guilty
Hard to eat while fury builds within the family
Just stay on your feet remember you got the whole city
Don't worry the streets know whose really guilty

Wake up everyday and taste the acetone
***** hands and cracking cuticles
Fill up on pharmaceuticals over the telephone

Written off cause of the things they said
Locked away put your all back to bed
Heart tucked back under sleeve and thread
Words mean more than actions when someone trusts them
It's swords hidden behind fashion each word thrusts you into sin
Ask where you been what you've seen then cut you off before you begin

Judged by the most evil of thoughts left in a cell to rot
Truth and law never matter when both get bought
At least that's what the accuser thought
Play the games your never taught that's your lot
Never get lost in someone else's thoughts
Don't get caught in the ink and the blots

Doing all the wrong things seeking all the thrills
You know exactly what I mean
Its all found as it leaks from the seams with dollar bills
It's all exactly what is seems
Young suicidals going out without a hollow point
Ravers, molly, and lean
Pass the codeine left in a dream don't follow him out

The picture is the youth left in the cracks given no place
Filled with resentment and hate
Sutured with blue bullets and red stains divided by race
Shoot then get a statement
Die paying rent or Die sleeping on pavement
Misery is the raiment
Cut from peasant cloth life is the sentence

Maybe the next media personality has the answers we seek
Or maybe the next fatality
Wish we didn't live in reality TV in the middle everyone acts weak
Just clutching onto stability
While losing touch with sanity okay with atrocity when we cull the meek
To any we swear fealty
As long I get affordability then forget about our modern day slavery

Rotten teeth, family dead because of premiums
Still they sleep
Plotting robbery cause the family has needs
Like food to eat
Only then does help come for the victims
Cops on the beat
Track down criminals that scare the suburbans

Aren't we scary in these streets, so scary in this hell
But the demons weep
Brought to our knees some fall some just don't hear the bell
Guns and death on TV
Are these the answers given to me should I do as they tell
Crime, drugs, and ******
Taught the only outs are body bags and prison cells

Someone pass me the meds
Something to take away our heads
So we don't end up dead
Watch it don't talk to the feds
Leave you on red in your beds

Never talk it out your not a person
Villain criminal **** get taught a lesson
Punishment for all your running
Acting as protectors killing children
Only hope is being someone worth something

If your bank rolls in seven digits
Then life is what you live it
Otherwise be wise to keep a head down
Super sized painted with lies make a clown
Then on trial get paraded around

Another success of the system
Lifeless person assigned as ****
Look the systems gone and won
Victory, victory and my brother is gone
Judged booked by the pious how to atone

Live in a cell eat at the bell
Live in hell get stabbed in the hall
One last call or freedom if you tell
Oh well, oh well even if you'd never sell
Still welcome to hell may you forever fall

The people cheer for this is the cause of fear
They leer at pathetic addicts and their tears
Mock the poor as if its a choice to be born
Back to the hills and pools ignore the others
Who turn to pills and swill to pull together

Why fix a problem that can be swept into a corner
Kept in districts far from home my as well be foreigners
Don't you dare jump the border or face precincts anger  
Your no father not a toddler just society's disorder
Kept in mind as criminal stay in your quarter

Saw an article that said people who talk to themselves are geniuses. The source most likely people who talk to themselves, but was it they or the voices that said they were geniuses.

I was left in the snow I was pulverized
Just how it goes have a friend he'd say
"It is how it is" well now I'm in overdrive
Left by everyone to die I've never felt so alive
Lost out in the tide eyes are blasted out wide
Never go softly in the night always up at first light
Need out of my head because I don't understand whats left
Barely use my bed hes weird thats often whats said
Won't you just leave me like all those voices in my head
So silent now I don't hear them what was it they always said
"worthless, godless,  why aren't you dead"
Now its all silence and I miss them
My one and only friends

Diamonds above your head thats a pretty tiara
Tears down your face, are you a primadona?
Morphine to treat your pain, opana

Stick figure body, hollywood thinks your a hottie
wanted for your body just drown your brain young lady
anything for you I'll order the gin and roofies

Neon lights its a neon abyss
Bright nights feel my bliss
Let me fulfill your wish

Fame flashing in the fast lane
Fueled by lust and novocaine
Feel no love feel no pain

Hollywood actress
Isn't it great to be famous
Isn't it great to be tasteless

Hollywood actress in the mirror
Who is this? grey hairs and fear
surgeon knives to ply and tear

Diamonds above your head what a pretty sight
Tears down her face what a lovely night
Morphine,amphetamine, know what I mean?

Do you feel like a queen with a crown of thorns
Or are you a demon whose growing out her horns
The dress is torn as your life is gone its all been shorn

Remember a little girl who wanted to be a shooting star
Dismembered in hollywood her agent took the parts on tour
Wonder who you wanna be now, you don't really care anymore

Money, parties, and vice thats the life of the rich and deep
Thats the life they say as the put you down to sleep
Honey its lovely how your body decays as you weep

In the limelight your so alive
And every night you die
The people eat up every lie

The truth is a just little girl who chased after the stars
Got taken by darkness in blank spaces, said you'd go far
Now lost listless, witless, priceless as she plays her part

In local news a killers on the loose
And he's tying up another noose
your neck feels awful, loose

The ******* son burns high above
Father is gone where has he gone
He's lost in love or has he lost his love
Don't you take that tone

Don't you know what he's done
Shouldn't you tell someone
Before its all done and gone

The ******* sun burns high above
It's tattered but its warm
It's rays push and shove
They grip till the fabrics torn

Silk and velour how did you afford more
Lost his ***** and now he feels poor
Her neck circled with silk and velour

You saw purple through the crack in the door
Witnessed light battered in the daylight
Now speaking to death your not so sure
What is illusion and what is right

Just need to see one more just to be sure
The ******* sun will shine once more
A noose in the news at four

Another dead *****
Then sirens knock at the door
And you tell them your not sure
Why this body rests on your floor

In local news a killer faces the noose
And his neck is looking awful, loose

Hands lost in her pants
Time for a new pair of genes
Viscera all over the lance
And the organs start to sing
Friction feels like an addiction
Intentions lost in her diction
Wanton hopes dashed for passion
Backs lashed and impassioned
Awash in sweat and heat
She's weeping at the ****

do you understand, do you understand
with your feet in the sand
do you understand

beneath us all, beneath us all
that's where we fall
beneath us all

just take my hand, just take my hand
leave everything behind
just take his hand

we hold onto hearts, we hold onto hearts
All I am is spare parts
he holds onto your heart

I love you so, I love you so
When you go
I love you so

you left a hole, you left a hole
its in my soul
you left a hole

we are so happy, we are so happy
why do I feel so badly
they are so happy

dollar earned only a dollar made when its a dollar saved
baller blinged out to holler about dollars he's still a slave
company store takes payments at four just your soul and more
many march in tour of golden doors as debts reach from a dirt floor
chasing the four door you can't afford its the debtors reward

dollar earned turns to dollar spent
when did life turn into making rent
was it while the middle sat on a picket fence
it came so subtle as we all drowned in media
seemed so helpful like a pound in the city

lock up your problems and show no pity
thats how they solve em out in the city
that or send them to a mortuary
words seem so incendiary these days
burning citys as life sets the people ablaze

burn a hole in your pocket to get laid
what's left when the ****** fades
pantyless and penniless riding waves
hoes and jesus since times medieval
both have kneeled to escape evil

crime is just a high risk job kinda like flipping burgers
time shows both ending without any futures
so excuse the hard worker whose turned to dope dealer
I know time is the best healer but it won't fix this
only fix I need is cash on cash in bank thats swiss

thats a low tax on racks so none of it reaches you
a million ways to hide millions from the millions that make do
charity tax breaks in the collection plate let the money accrue
get a wife thats foreign thats a tax break if your american
new legislation to make sure the middle an poor don't win again

poverty makes a child into a survivor
wealth makes a child into a toddler
prince rules over the pauper
for the price of a few cents
still the prince can't afford sense

maybe for a dollar some of mine could be lent
advisors with white collars must seem heaven sent
till someone wonders where the money went
white collar or black mask only difference opportunity
go live in a parking lot for a week if you don't believe me

Every day reaching out to green lights in the bay
Everyone says let it go preach about giving it away
Flashing lights I need you to shine down today
Could live if I grasped even a single ray
That would be enough to make it through the day

Count the holes in my teeth about as many as the holes in my heart
What was it I was supposed to see when does my life finally start

Dead freaks never had any balance
Authority tried to demand compliance
So we left society and became truant
Forced to speak in ends now we're fluent

Money on my mind, mind on my money
I cant seem to find either bloods turned runny
I might just die just to make the ante
I steal and I lie to fill up our pantry

They know who I am I'll leave it all broken
Leave disrespect in dirt with toads croaken
Lacked it now on the ground chokin
Can't breathe in the arms of an ocean

My dead friends, I'm gonna run without balance
Got the bends underwater and uncompliant
Don't follow trends I've long been truant
Told to speak in ends and now I'm fluent

And whats it to you if I steal, lie, and cheat
Is it immoral to survive on the streets
Judged with morals I can't afford
Standards made by the pious and bored

Indigo hues haunt my vision
Scratching till I see thin red
incisions
Never been good at seeing long
divisions
A dream is just a lie of omission
What is my intention
When I mention
My one mission
Is just multiplication
Or when I say its really
division
Guess I forgot my own lessons
Goodwill leaks like lesions
Cut from me in so many
incisions

Theres only horns on the unborn
Demons living without existing
Skin is torn round their form
Sermons praying to stop forming

Walk without purpose whats it about
Never waver on my path to nowhere
Talk about disservice and about clout
Whether I last going onward only forward

It's not a question of will or right
Just a question of pills and sight
Placebos mixed with my life
Spells and hexes
Hide and provide
Give light or life
Heart and a knife
Cant part with the night

Never be reborn eternal within a storm
The fire and burns keep me warm

"News"
How fun is it to stay inside your cage
Reading a script from the given page
Rot away or receive your wage
Feed off the rust and **** slave

"Factory Floors"
Wave away H2S as I asphyxiate  
Corpse still strung on by opiates
Strung out to facilitate production
Combustion, institutions, and human waste

"Hedgerows"
Trained to work tenderize the pork
Worlds burning on its axis they call that winning
Champagne uncorked to celebrate burnt pitchforks
Worlds spinning on averages call that living

"Holders"
Hate and madness marches on the enemy
The friendless say that that's a friend to me
Pain holds hands with misery forms a circle
Maintain and enter me to continue the cycle

"Paper Hands"
If you lose your will to fight then fall from the fire light
Pitch black abyss or pure white emptiness both lack sight
To and forth I vacillate from deep black to blinding light
I reject it and accept it because neither is right

"Diamonds"
Pop there goes your whole stock
The worlds leaking from its locks
As you try to cannibalize your flock
Not wolves your mocked by the sheep

In the pursuit of happiness
Looks like your coming in last
Watch it's all gone in a flash
Lost in hopelessness and selflessness

You ******* martyr drowned in the water
As the dollar falters at the behest of father
Killing the winner to entertain the losers
He was colder and crueler but lacked numbers

Can't hold anymore lost it all at quarter four
Shorter and shorter every day must be a chore
Loss of billions them billions more
Jump from a roof its the only cure

You broker ****** deserve this and so much more
Revenge from the poor whom you ripped and tore
Tears rain as we use your firms ploys, hit at the core
Fears reign as balances come in red like so much gore

Emotions are the aperture
To anger then something fainter
Diplo emotions I'm bipolar
Heavy smoker, the chain toker
Draw slow its a nail puller
Faster the energetic sinner

Manifesto says never be vulnerable
And if you move blow don't touch the snow
Die young attain oblivion or grow venerable
Who knows how it will go in a show full of wacko's
At Del Taco and the cheese an grease is delectable
Pupils dilate and I speak in tongues, unintelligible

New genesis says the end is nigh
Wretched stoner I stay high
As the crow flys a mile from goodbye
You'll live a long life and enjoy
Sorry, I lied its all strife and you're a toy

Gods playing with action figures
Without any batman just jokers
******* and hookers
***** films they entertain
Suspect your not really sane
Insane is the common brain

Switching lanes and breaking glass panes
Both have a nice ring both mean the same thing
Won't leave any leftovers once I move through ya
Clipped wings to get angel dust in my coca cola
Bubbles in my veins heart bursts like Clydes
Bonnie weeping over me with a forty five

They made me and now they say they hate me
I'll uproot this whole family tree just wait and see
Roots rotten they took me all the way to the bottom
Branches cracked bleached and forgotten
Youngsters left for dead and misbegotten
And our elders are psychopathic mass murderers

They needed benefits so burn the witch
Creepshow and the freaks march to the trench
Evil smiles gotta glow, geeks eat up every inch
No green miles no water feel the burn in every stitch
Crutch rolled up in the joint smoked then spoke without a point
Such is life another meaningless thing under the sun its quaint

Used to be a touted genius
The lies were intravenous
Then I learned to speak
And the foundations creaked
My role in the system grew weak
So sorry, guess I was just a freak
Announced me as a inconvenience
When sleepless I submitted my thesis

No one likes red lights
Just out to see the sights
Tonight head to my place
The night and I in a race
After the stars we chase

After all the bars and dregs emptying in my glass
Hop and a skip too far straying ahead of my class
Because we all know, all we are is our past
And if that's the case it's trash and I won't last
But I rub shoulders with class and the money gets passed

Want fast cars, realty, and futures for my life
Gonna go far maybe crash an burn it all tonight
Got some cash its going fast gonna work it out
Spent it on trash, stocks an property never clout
No ice on the dash or rocks on hand, don't flout

Say I'm in it for me and friends but I don't have any of them
Either in the new family or don't got a slice in my time
Legal crime, law says its legal but it sure ain't moral
Guess the moral is don't be born poor or you pay the fine
Well I paid mine and now life is allowed to unfurl

I'm running through red lights gonna see the sights
Tonight I might not make it to my place
Got to win this cruel rat race cause the stars are giving chase
Its sponsored by the state but maybe its all just fate
And of late I've learned to hate the game but most of all hate the players

Cause they trample over prayers and cull the meek
Wolves taking samples of the flavors of the sheep
If your body aches and you work late till the bones creak
Than your the flavor of the week used up till you peak
Your sweat it reeks and draws out the beast

Thrown out in your decline as they recline
Protest your death an receive the fine
Try to survive and you do the time
Don't dare cross the line, moneys the bottom line
Some call it survival others they call it, crime

Money its on my mind
Calls come in and its on the line
I think about money all the time
I make it so I can dine
But others take it to drink wine

Been called a villain but I'd say machiavellian
Learned lessons from the enemy no more feelings
I'll keep living digits from the beast, seven seven seven
Close to falling, but thats the business of heaven
To **** without a weapon during a bull session

Money under my skin, It's killed the has-been
It the only way to win, not skill, not brains
I was saved just had to pay and rob the till
Ink stains over scars and pain none of the rich are sane
Moving Novocaine illegal till its pharmaceutical bills

Should've stopped at red lights
Can't unsee the sights
Don't even know my place
Or who's in this race
But I know it's stars we chase

All the hero's are dead or lost their head
Corpses layed to waste to grow our bread
We all got played bought what they would move
Traded my life and all I know is I'm still alive
To truth its tied when its said a villain survives

Fifths on the curb filth on my breath
Threats between lock-jawed teeth
Crime pays never follow laws, thief
Weak are prey in the belly of the beast

Cut with a sickle human life is wheat
Thoughts are fickle so you best leave
As wealth trickles my lungs heave
So I'll **** for a nickel long past naive

The living don't sleep at night
Thats a ending in our sight
If alls silent if alls quiet
It's violence It's a riot

Apparitions of our misery like a sister to me
Superstition is hidden history and trickery
Suspicions hysteria lead to be-witchery
Submission to superior forces and misery

Look over your shoulder sleep with one eye open
Never be bolder thats a quick order to a open coffin
Break camcorders, records fill folders in folsom
Blood is water never trust your brothers an cousins

They brought me to my knees, so
Fought with all of my friends
Now I don't got any of them

But I'd rather be alone
So I hung up my phone
I do my best on my own

I'm doing the best I can
On my own I still stand
And I've got a plan

When the stars touchdown
Let's see how much I've grown
Because I've always known

I do the best when I'm on my own
It's okay who needed them anyway
Nothing to say I will walk on my own

I got bags under my eyes
Awake but I'm tired
Stop calling me wise
All I am is expired
I've stopped chasing highs
I only do what is required

Is this whats called an honest life
To live bereft of passion within reason
I've stopped carrying a knife
Live within the bounds of demons
I've reached my own half-life
As struggle lessens sins deepen

Sink into skin pocks an permanent marks
No more broken locks and empty pockets
Just work and later nights
To be broke with empty sockets
No jokes no more laughs
What a joke living for profits

Live your life don't look up to mine
Life on a knife edge, life of a slime
And yet you said its gold when its grime
Parts of my soul sold while you drank wine
Need to fold before confusing glamour an pain

I'm not your role model not a person to follow
Enjoy your parents who coddle with silver bottles
Be thankful you never huddled alone left below
Its hurtful that you wanted to go into the only things I know
My path is lonely with woe my strength is just built from blows

Those traits you seek created by fates I wouldn't wish on snakes
My wits were gained by survival of being out in alleys late
Strength from the desperate struggle of being born a mistake
Will of rusted iron from a life on my lonesome with it all at stake
Will you throw away happiness and family to be a copy and a fake

We talked the other day you said you wanted to die
Even if its what you want I'd rather you be okay
Just going day by day
Sleeping, spending, nothing to say
Bingeing, barely breathing, letting threads fray
I ask hows it going you say you feel empty
Its relatabley the same I wish what I wished for me
I wished someone would save me
Never prayed but twice I was on my knees
Once to ask for anything set my life free
Once to ask the same for every friend of me
No reply, now just hope you don't become an amputee
Not like me, living without a guarantee
Stay surrounded by people that want you happy
A new year to go towards your own family
And one day relax as a retiree
Even if its a grim reality
And a ****** country
There's more in life to see

Darkness all around me set aside my light for belonging
Welcome to the abyss it resides beside your right and its growing
Lazarus in the flesh I don't fully exist so I cant fight whats coming
Hundreds green lush don't really fill the abyss just grows longing
Goes long but falls short silly people flip bricks and know deaths knocking
Can you hear it he's knocking, can you hear it the guns cocking
It all depends on whether you are of data or of the lost in earths strata
Born of dirt and its your stigmata be de-serviced or reborn as auto-mata
No room for poor flesh as you are to god, worthless
But pious gears thresh it from body a priceless business
My confessions are existences as worthless lesions
Life for passions, persistent refusal of life's lessons
Its wanton days spent profitless and yet the prophet begs the question
"Will you condemn yourself to society's prison"
"Come my son and drink of my poison"
"Or you shall drown in freedoms ocean"
If the choice is society or freedom than I am foreign
If they would let me I would be free of the chains
But angels blessed me with feathers followed by fetters
First they taught me with educators then put me neath betters
So I type out my many letters till the bars of the cuckoo birds cage rusts
Watch cracks and dig at dreams till it all busts at the seams
Unfortunately it seems I will die before freedom will sing

Always been cool, a cool head, and cooler heart
Easy to fool, Not to cruel, sometimes comes apart
Wall to wall, Often on call, A urban drug outlet

Covids breakin contracts, anarchy attracts, broken lights
Fights at night, fires in sight, moneys tight, famines in flight
Proletariat burn bright, Blue heart beats turn the crows quiet

I understand, so I know where to stand, and
salt the land, axe the clan, switch the plan
Iron and sand, tax the man, stitch over the pain

I found myself in the boundary of orbit in the planets perigee  
Void filled gospel only quandary's cause when I yell it don't answer me
Bespoken profits necessary debauchery  find your savior in 1-D
Lines raise erections green filled sensory experience money do grow on trees
Red losses, flaccid *****, and sorry stocks will put you on your knees
Blood will freeze with hell as corps marry investors and debtor steez
Calls dropped puts flopped moneys never stopped markets hit the rocks

Embrace betrayal tastes stale
Got my face in the mail
Want to find me follow the trials
Follow behind my shadows trail
I live on the hill beside the pale

If the sky flashes deep then leave
Or its lashes with tears, fallen leaves
If ground quakes grey in its ways
Then stay for I have nothing to say
This is the last line anyways

Reality distorts when your in the deep end
Memory it corrupts turning you on son and friend
Know someone for years and one day it ends
I keep it calm on the outside, hate on the inside
In you I will never confide out late to hide
Never been on my side always about your pride

Took care of business when you left state
Went to the corner store and left me to fate
Wonder if abandoning your son gave pause
Not enough to make you stay and wait
That monkey on your back wouldn't wait
Left me at a loss so you could get a taste

And it was your last, was it worth it?
How high was the crash into the last hit
Slash and burn, got dumped by a *****
Now under a bush you live in a ditch
Still none of it on you I would wish
Still love you after all of this

Hate and rage have a claim on me
A sliver of pity is still plain to see
I would burn that whole ****** city
That had taken you away from me
Wanted to see who you were meant to be
But you didn't want to stay with me

That said I would cut your tatted throat
Drop your body watch it ******* float
Leave behind nobody and feel what you felt
Red on cheap velour drips off a leather belt
Shot glasses, pill bottles, in the past they are left

I'm sorry I couldn't help, sorry I wasn't enough
Sorry a sons love wasn't enough
Sorry that love ****** you up
Sorry and sorry again that you ****** up
Worry about how i'm so very like you
Worry one day someone will say sorry to me

Twenty and I see you in me, wants to be free
Saying **** this society and **** this poverty
Drugs and whiskey sour no chance at property
Know the government owns everyone, thats you and me
Not a felon only thing different from you to me really

Only difference I never found love
Never got pills from clinical gloves
Never ****** without rubbers
Never got played and became a debtor
Never became a kids *******

******, ******
Just orders, protect borders
Justice and order, Fixers and sorters
Guts on a camcorder
**** out if you can afford her
**** hotels for the soldiers
Taped and stored in federal folders
Holes in daughters
Blood and *** drips as you hold her
Got questions, torture and water boarders
Doers, leaders, fuhrers
Child soldier bullets go pitter patter, splatter    
Colonial slavers are the industry pavers
Acceptable loss, lawyers and waivers
Watch or ignore it with entertainers
Silver screen lives and liars
Fired and dead reporters
****** in the mortar
So **** your leaders
Or live in hell forever

**** technology **** the progress
Give eulogy's on how its all a must
Your using me and I feel we have regressed
I study I work I made a dollar for twice what makes two
I'm ready I can start tomorrow for half price and die tomorrow
I wanted to do what others do work and get a home
Learned that I will work to the bone
And still have to take a **** loan
I made minimum wage at ******* twentytwo
My skills are trigonometry and construction to name a few
I am used and abused only ever worked to lose
So ******* I got nothing to lose
So ******* lets get some ***** 
Ten an hour to build a house from the ground up
All of my power all of my will and some say I'm stuck up
I'm embarrassed this is my only choice what a set up
My pride a joke my skills left me broke
Of every attempt loss has spoke
Top of the class, high IQ, what a ****** joke
I live in poverty
Rent a ratty property
And die in my poetry

Heels real and imagined grind on my skull
To the hospital at the bridge pay the toll
Rich and territorial start up a poll
For how many poor they will cull

Put on vans with the worn out sole
Head to work and fill my role
Everyday I sell out losin my soul
Getting harder to keep my cool

When everything is ****** life or death
Break a bone lose it all in a breath
Cant afford the upkeep on my teeth
So I hang with friends and smoke leaf

All decay all falling apart losing heart
Calls today say your wasting it your so smart
**** them I dont even know how to start
Writing on the wall saw it on a plummeting chart

Collapse into the past we wont last
The fashion is getting trashed
Faded today tomorrow I'm passed
Curtain called coffins filled with ash

Saw beauty once and someone bought her cash
The city lights are pretty but its a world behind glass
City streets are gritty and you'll get taken with the trash
Acid streaks, empty cars, jump and you won't make a splash

Burn a sedative, grey clouds over my head
Toss and turn, fourteen hours then im outta bed
Ten hours to pretend I'm not dead

Look out to the coast, look out for the ghosts
Its those old posts that will chase you the most
While you make a toast ice cubes and frost
In your glass fine taste kept a high cost
Just tell yourself its worth all that's lost

Faust broke bread at your table
Took your hand and wrote your label
Sable eyes dead but working and able
Job with ties has you working and stable
Odd that its all lies faker than fables

Look out at the sky where birds sing cheerfully
Took out my words and sang them wonderfully
A fool without a sword who says life is beautiful

He's filled with holes deep and bored into his skull
Ate his fill of drugs cause he was bored out of his skull
Filled with holes from deep wounds eyes gone dull

Label me a radical, a criminal, a ******* liberal
Eyes are critical and logical, thoughts are cynical
I am lethal, I am suicidal, maybe homicidal

Your fealty to the wealthy is filthy
This city made of many is ******
Somebody over fifty makes the money

Won't get better can't even send a letter
Careful if you tread here below is a shredder
Its a tax evader tears apart people and paper

One ******* on the roof looks to the ******* on the floor
Profits through a glass roof raining shards onto the floor
"Stop It" "It Hurts" "Where's the Proof" "Here's the Door"

No money, no ***, just drugs
So funny, so psychedelic, just dregs
Get money, get ***, just a wallstreet ****

******* if you don't care ******* if you don't believe it
***** to be you below getting ****** and no one gives a ****
***** to be you above ******* without consent, leave a cheap tip

I think about it
and forget about it
The past haunts me
it runs away with me

Abducting my body
its hard to stay steady
Old pains are fresh
stinging scars on my flesh

Ignore it and stumble on
choke it down never let on
Gotta keep it together
or be alone forever

I don't know who I am
but I do the best I can
Fragments of personality
coalesce randomly

Creates the illusion of a person
hiding a ghostly orphan
Shadows of myself hide inside
forgotten and set aside

I hardly remember who I was
who am I the thought gives me pause
Maybe an afterimage of myself

Money, can buy me anything
But if I had to name just one thing
It would have to be nothing

Some say love is all you can want
But all it ever left me was a haunt
A broken heart shriveled and gaunt

Maybe friends can make me smile
But they never want to stay awhile
Here one day gone in a mile

Twist the tales till I am the hero
Zero steps from the spiral

Of lies and half truths
Pies and words to soothe

Words flow through a sieve
Sounds make others believe

In me and in my way
Free too sit and stay
Toll to walk away
Stay away is what I say

Say you oughta give me life
And leave me an extra slice
Maybe pass me your spice
And I'll give my lie

Tall stories with that go deep
Below the water and seep

When you weep and Im the cause
With my words I'll give you pause

Was I really the cause of your flaws
Gullibility lost your throat to my jaw

So show, no soul
I’m cool, so cool
A tool, a fool
Highschool, cesspool

Like A B C, 1 2 3
Like way he be, wan’ to be

Better than me, than me, than you

No slowen, leave me be

Me, myself, and I
I shot me, myself
Catch myself when I hang me
Me, me, me
By myself

I
Wikihow noose knots
Not a cry for help
How do you cry out

A note loose leaf
With a noose knot

**** out my way, **** out my way
Im in my way, Im in my way

Luck run thin, eat a buck
Shot, blood all over Bathory ****
Blood pumpin, heart open, veins open
Open heart, open artery, deep cut

Surgical precision
Practical decision
Painful incision
Vertical division

I have depression

Stay positive who cares if your a *******
Ramen noodles and cold hot dogs with mustard
Living off the trash and scraps  its hard
But im not in pain really im just so bored
Listen to sad songs they really strike a chord

Twenty two years I made it I survived
Sometimes back in nineteen ninety eight I wish I died
Every year I see more clear where we steer
Those at the helm speak and all I hear is fear

Hope couldn't cope so he did dope went to sleep never to be woke
Hopeless and could care less I have to confess I'm broke
Light pockets and a heavy heart as a child torn apart, ****
Light at the end of the tunnel but the caves end is dark

American raised told "not even the sky's the limit"
Eatin rice and pain I just cant feel it
"all the dreams yours the greatest ever" how they sell it
Hope for the future, for better days, its sold for profit

American raised so I party my life away
Drugs and rock'n roll keep reality away
Movin forward when I stop forever I lay
In dirt debts catch me and I cant pay

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The gold and quicksilver flow upriver
Cold metal acts like water and shimmers
Amalgams come out in slivers, solid no quiver
Seepin into drinkin supply taintin livers
Curin life within daily doses part from life like moses
No one wants it, but strange forces have their enforcers
Pinkerton police, business moguls, and media sorcerers
While you curl up on your comforter
Meandering over boo hoos, poor me
Cant afford to treat your dying grandmother
Pressure creeps on your back, feeling smothered?
Smother her or lose your future

I've been dead inside don't even care if life gets better
Even if problems were set aside I know I wouldn't get better
Even these poems are just the dregs of someone I don't remember
Someone who cant feel attached not a spark to be found on tinder
I have drowned underwater below the sea and all I do is flounder
Sometimes I keep goin hoping that one day I'll have found her
Then somehow I might hold on and escape this water
Until then LSD gives it all a little color

Drugs make fake emotion like swells in this ocean
So don't mind me when I mix up a potion
Just need something to imitate passion
Something to slow the corrosion
Never touched a drug for the fashion
Just needed the chemical compassion
So when I come round the dealer cashes in

Hey can you just lay off
You aint my boss
So can you just lay off
Aint my fault we all laid off

Just sipping on some gin an juice laying around the couch
Just getting on the loose Letting it all hang loose
Last night phone rang now it hang loose

Roaches crawling out the ashtray
On the ceiling I watch them stray
What I'm saying is I cant stay
When Im leaving I cant say

One of these days though gonna go
Cop a few of those property's on the low
But cops might ******* away if I flow
About how the pig ***** gotta go

And Im sorry your laid off
At a loss without a boss
Really should of told him to *******
Even if it aint his fault we all laid off

I am a crutch left to get dusty in the attic
Its a crutch abused some might say an addict
I get used up all night and I just let it
So come day I'm empty an quiet

Who cares if you exist if all you've ever done is subsist
The stars were deaf to each wish too far gone in the cosmic
The liars left in the breach of void and ozone lost in a deposit
Beggar bereft nothing left said "Soon its all gone, don't forget it"
Sands shift castles built brick by brick torn down in a second
Sink quick if you let it **** you down but its not the intent
Just the nature of life its sick and quick soon your heaven sent