The crunch of autumn leaves was the sound of when you smiled.
The rising sun, caressing me like the colors wild.

I wish you had known this but you didn’t have a clue.
The only thing I hate more than waiting,
is waiting for you.

A.S.

when I see you I cant help but smile
you take me to a place I ain't been in a while
the way your eyes find mine
it keeps me wondering what I'd find
beneath those cotton fabrics
is a man made of bricks

the one I must not dear touch
for you do not belong to me my love
I can only dream that day would come

fighting the urge to stay away
you pull me in closer with those soft silky words you'd say
you ****** me with your curled lips
placing your mind upon my hips
the tensions rise and I cant find myself
I'm lost the arms of the man who belongs to someone else

no we can not do this, our love is forbidden
no we must stay hidden
we can not fight for what is not ours
I must let you go be in the arms of another
your rightful lover

she may not be able to love you like I can
but the ring.... Is on her hand

Our love is like a rose but it still has its thorns
it may be beautiful, but it has its ups and downs
Our love is like the sun, it will never grow old
till death do us part, no for eternity do we stay strong

Our love is like the ocean breeze,
it comes and goes as it please
our love is like the birds that fly
one day we're low , next thing we're high

Our love is like the leaves in spring
we fall, but when the cold season's past
the only thing our birds can do is sing

Our love is like four seasons
our love has every meaning
our love has every reason

Our love can never be forbidden

I try to go out to feel wanted
I try to stay close to friends to feel comforted
but nothing is clearly working
when I'm in a filled room or not
I still feel alone and the feeling never stops

I put on a smile,
I do my make-up
but when will my friends ever wake up
to the reality of my insecurity
to the pain I'm trying to scream but no one seems to hear me

its hard trying to put my feelings out there
its hard trying to express when I know they wont care
at the end of the day you have nothing to say
so why tell you in the first place

this empty lonely feeling feels like it can never be filled
no matter where I go, what I do
this feeling wont subdue

its hard to tame these emotions
when I don't have an escape button
its hard to say how I feel
when I don't know what you're really thinking
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of this world

so you could say I like being alone sometimes
but it has grown too attached to me, it has taken over my body
I never should've let the loneliness in
but it was the only thing there when I needed it

I don't know how to feel anymore
you took my heart and threw it out the door
I'm lost for words, and I cant seem to over come the hurt

I'm trying to love but I don't know how anymore
you took my heart with you when you left me
now its just a black hole in my chest you see,
things wont always go my way I know
but you didn't have to kick me out for good

I loved you and that's all I ever did
and this is the payment I get
so confused, so lost, so cold
not knowing which direction to go

I just don't know.... anything... anymore