If meeting your needs was what it took to ensure their safety I would do it. No task, no demand would be too difficult to accomplish. All I ask in return, pass them the salt when they ask for it.

The Pain Keeps getting worse....The further apart we get the closer to the edge i become.. I try to hold on but I'm slipping...I can feel the distance between you and I. I've been losing sleep for a while now..Ever since that day...I've been scared to call or text when i need you, scared you're going to get mad...so I don't say anything...I let you sleep, peacefully...While is sit in the dark silently crying hoping i don't wake anyone....as i drown in my own mind...I can hear the clock ticking away my time before i snap. I whisper to myself.."I'm okay, this is okay, This is how i heal." When i reality. "No. I'm not okay. This is NOT okay.. this will **** me.." But by that time...Its too late. My mind is too messed up...I cant be saved anyway...

I'm sick
of being hit
with your
sharpened daggers.
What makes you
think that
my heart
is protected by an
impenetrable
shield?
It's covered in scars,
bruised and damaged.
The slightest mention
of an insecurity
and I'll break,
crash,
and burn.
You don't even care.
You don't even *see.

The air is autumn.
Smell of yesterday enters the air.
Yesterday's furniture.
Piles of junk.
Flaming ablaze.
Flaming amazing.
As I said smell the air.
Don't stand too close though.
No fingers burned.
It feels so good.

Don't need the heating on.
Rely on the bonfire burning bright.
To keep me warm for a while tonight.
Great excuse to destroy the flammable trash.
Only reminder, a pile of ash.
Smell of burning.
Aged brush wood.
A flaming bonfire.
So good so refreshing.
Fireworks such an expensive waste of hard earned cash.
Don't want my wages to go up in a flash.
A good bonfire is just so gratifying.
November the 5th, smelly fun.
Livvi

I opened up my notebook today, To find an anonymous note.
It read:
'Nobody wants you here. You are worthless. You are Nothing. Everyone hates you. Death is your best option. The world would be better off without you.."

Are they right?
The only reason I'm staying is because of the people., I don't want them to be sad.
But if everyone else wants me gone then maybe I should leave.
The world would smile more without me.
I'm just an annoyance.
I'm a **** up to society.
Born in the wrong time.
I don't need to be in this place.
Nobody could tell by just looking at me but I'm falling apart
Everyone would soon forget the girl they once knew.
I guess this is the end.
0:00
My time is up..

Cracks appearing in my porcelain skin,
probably because I'm thinking of you again.
The beauty of innocence will soon disappear,
and I will be left with eyes not as clear.