From the moment I was born
They told me I was lost
I had to pay the price
Before I knew the cost
They made me work for money
They told me how to live
They didn’t care If I was happy
Or if I bought in to the myth

For my sins they gave me life  
I didn’t ask for it
They gave me alcohol
To numb the wounded spirit
It put me on my knees
And I began to pray
Would you love me if I was good
Or would you hate me if I was gay

When I got to the end
There was nothing left
Except for whispers from illusions
And the certain call of death
As the final sunsets
The voices fade in my head
I understand the emptiness
Of everything they said

One day I'll wake up with the sunlight in my eyes
Until that day comes I will keep on getting by
I'll keep on waiting
Until I wake up with the sunlight in my eyes

The sunny days thar never seem to stay
Those sunny days won't seem so far away

Someday I'll wake up feeling like I am brand new
Until that day comes I will keep on feeling blue
I'll keep on waiting
Until I wake up with the sunlight in my eyes

The sunny days that never seem to stay
Those sunny days won't seem so far away

One day I'll wake up from this dream I'm falling in
When that day comes I will settle in my skin
I'll keep on waiting
Until I wake up with the sunlight in my eyes

The sunny days that never seem to stay
Those sunny days won't seem so far away

Self healing isn’t about getting placing blame on others
It is about not placing the blame on yourself.

This is the man I want to be.
A man who walks through the storm, with his head held high, his shoulders back and his chest out.
He is strong, courageous, full of fight and purpose, so certain is he of reaching the distant sunlight  he sees breaking through the violent dark clouds.
He feels the kinetic force of the wild wind, the icy chill of the bullet rain slashing his skin and their weight push him back.
It is a blow that would **** the life from many mens heart but It does not break his will, he finds a meaning in the struggle that emboldens it.
He keeps his back straight, his pace steady and puts one foot in front of the other because he knows that each step takes him closer to the warmth of a brighter day.
This is the man I want to be.

I am a writer who does not write
I am a poet who does not rhyme
I am a painter who does not paint
I am an illusion in a moment of time

I am a counsellor but I am unwell
I am love but I am alone
I am a dreamer who does not dream
I am me but I don’t know myself

I am a philosopher who does not think
I am a politician who does not speak
I am kind but I forget to be nice
I am a pen without any ink.

The skies are full of woe
I see thunder down that road
Baby let me go
I can't leave you on my own

The clouds are dark and grey
I think I'm falling like the rain
I am on my knees
I'm begging baby set me free

Everytime I look into your eyes
I lose myself, I know that love is blind

Maybe baby, I'm just crazy
Maybe I love you so
Maybe baby, I'm so crazy
I don't even know
If I love you so

The stars they fade away
The light will die, just like the day
Baby, give me peace
You give me something I don't need

The nights they never end
I can't sleep so I pretend
You were made for me
That loving you was meant to be

Everytime I look into your eyes
I lose myself, I know that love is blind

Maybe baby, I'm just crazy
Maybe I love you so
Maybe baby, I'm so crazy
I don't even know
If I love you so

I saw a ******* the tube
I imagined we would get along
She would sit down beside me
And tell me her favourite song
And from that moment on
We would talk everyday
As if there had never been a moment
When we had not known each other
But the train came to a stop
She walked through the sliding doors
I went back to my paper
And read about the news.