I wish I could forget them.
I really do.
It would be so much easier to go through the day.
I wouldn’t have to remember that we were friends.
Or how much I care about them.
I wish I could forget them.
I really do.
It would be so much easier to be free.
I would never have to talk to them.
Or miss talking with them.
I wish I could forget them.
I really do.
It would be so much easier being happy.
I wouldn’t have to remember the good memories we shared.
Or all the hangouts.
I wish I could forget them.
I really do.
I wouldn’t have to hurt so much seeing them being together,
And being happy without me.
10-18-19

To be hurting so much,
To have to endure all the pain,
To have to stick around for other people,
It’s hard.
When your friends end up hurting you,
When they don’t know how much pain you’re in,
When all you can do is smile at them and say ‘I’m fine’,
It’s frustrating.
But try to have a little hope.

You have to keep fighting.
But it gets so hard to keep fighting.
There have been loses on both sides of the war.
You feel defeated.
You want to give up.
You want to surrender and end it all.
Please don’t.
There are people who want you to stick around.
So keep trying.