When the fire is over
We'll turn on the lights
And run our finger through ashes

We'll gather arround
The last bright ember
Until it too leaves us for the night

We'll save what's not gone
We'll long for what is
And slowly we'll forget the last few thousands days

Some machine eye is watching me
Dots in the rain, no one to see
Witnesses things, can't focus none
Grabbed at my skin but my soul's gone

Electric sight and steely gaze
Captured my face for unknown eyes
Deep behind iron irises
A few million roads set ablaze

This machine eye keeps watching me
Looks in a way nobody does
Prints out all the air that touched me
Knows every pattern I'd compose

Electric sight and steely gaze
Sees through me hiding in this maze
From under iron irises
It couldn't care less where it is

And machine eyes keep watching me
Accounting on my sketchy ways
Gathering lines from my body
Draws perfect pictures as always

Electric sight and steely gaze
Bolted in an eternal daze
Before their iron irises
Watch as another day rises

Please machine eyes keep watching me
For not from you I'd like to flee
Remember that I once was there
While you stay staring through the air

(From kindergarten on)

Adeline (very cute)
Angélique (for a while !)
Marine B ( had a true smile)
Elise (wrote her name on a few tables)
***** D (great, beautiful and nice with me)
Eline (first time feeling butterflies)
Andrea (out of my league)
Wendy (asked a friend to ask for me....)
***** C (saw myself in her)
Léa (made me feel important)
Chloé (made me laugh)
Alessia (best first time one could ask for)
Manon (loved meeting you at that exam)
Sara (played the game with me)
Anastasiia (taught me how to love)
Jade (me if I was a girl)
Marine (never got your name)
Mélissa (made me stop worrying)

(Sorry if I forgot you, I drink too much)

I 𝘢𝘮 sane,
don't ask again
Dig your own hole,
fill it with rain

Silence falls when I'm left alone with myself
Silent songs
Sing from the shelf

I better hold my aim
The sun may shine another day
Let it go don't let it reign
Or every day will feel the same

I better hold my aim
Or I won't get another day
Everybody's just the same
Let it go don't let it reign

I am fine,
don't ask again
In my hole,
feeling the rain

Silence stayed, and I'm face to face with myself
Silent songs
Fly from the shelf

I better hold my aim
The sun will rise now any day
And everything may stay the same
I don't care I'll let it reign

I better hold my aim
The sun will shine a thousand days
There are no rules to this game
Just let it go, let it reign

How long does it last
When it's forever
Rolled into the past
Running a fever
True colors, broad cast
One day as ever

All together, done
When another eon lies
Folding into none
Lows and highs
Whispers of old stone
Buried in the skies

Past time paralized
In incessant news
Eternal life sized
Waves of letting loose
Surfaces incised
From current abuse

Whatever goes back
Whatever waters away
Slips into the cracks
Only a matter of day
Some days cut deep
Most are lost to sleep

Strange figures sleepwalking by
Dancing through nightfall on their lips
With half rotten half guilty smiles
For all those who would touch their hips

They must have such beautiful eyes
To dare looking us in the face
Strange figures sleepwalking by
Would go anywhere but their place

Stained people gliding down by
Drinking through their mind with a straw
Getting ready again to fly
They can't remember what they saw

They must have such powerful minds
To find the strength to run away
Stained people gliding down by
Won't let anyone in their way

Lovely sheppherd starring in the night
Keeping a loose eye on her sheep
Wanting to say we're supposed to dream
And dreams we need to fall asleep

She must have such a pretty face
To make everyone so afraid
Lonely shepherd starring in the night
Just sad there's nothing new to say

It walks and runs
It sees, it follows
Anything in their path
It swallows
The crowd runs deep
A million feet
Comes to smother
You in faces
By and gone ! An other
Probably off to the races
Locked inbetween polite blank stares
And many strange rules the crowd bears

The more you know
About artists
The less likely you will
Make any art

I went to meet
The Lord of words
But within His pages
I'm

I went to show
The first reader
And ever since I
Have become God

I don't believe
I'm being sane
I spent so many times in vain
And the troubles
Keep gaining ground
No one believes the things I found

Feels like
I made another stain
I'm not sure if
I'm feeling pain
Just following predilections
Always trusting precognitions

I'm not sure what
I mean to say
Feels like so much
Has gone away
Forgot to put salt on my wounds
Of course you know
The things I've found

In the ether, touch,
In the colours, scent,
In the shadows, light

And the unmoved thinks
As the landscape, sinks
An older world flies

The alentours scream
So many outlines
Under the covers, resonate

Another cloud fell
And so many days
Under its cover, resonate

Move away
I want to hear my own sound
Rejoice
Over what is lost and found
By the way
I think I missed your phone call

Memories
Lost touch with reality
Some day
One with a cloud of eternity
Time left
As it was written on the wall

Lost in contextual warfare
We truly have no word to spare
If we should ever get a clue
On what we believe to be true
Matter of mind, remind later
Learn to spell out endless chatter
Wouldn't mind bending heuristics
Around unfortunate metrics

Another morning to reset
The pawns on which the sun will set
And some times feel like providence
Made so you could tell evidence
Morality monopoly
Lobotomized territory
Hide luck beneath the thinking feed
Be mindful of the word you breed

This morning my little bird died
But I don't know it yet
The air grew cold, feathers grew old
Gazes unusually wet
Yet after all another day
I wasn't so upset

A month flew by and he still died
But the days just reset
He's still in there behind the bars
We got the story straight
Bears the same colors, shares a name
Chirps slightly out of tune

It's been a year and he still died
But I don't know it yet
And memories began to fade
But I can't share them yet
I can't believe he flew away
But I don't need it yet

Before another year goes by
I'll lose another pet
Bring it with me to the deep lake
Of tears I never let
At the bottom of my own heart
The days will just reset.

They wander off before my eyes, listening around
They march onward, staunch, cold as ice, blinded by the sounds
They charged through every battlefield, never picked a side
Contempt is all that waits for them, around these fading flags

And when the world is dead to them, fallen in disgrace
The blood of those who hide their word's running down their face
As everyone just walks right through what they're standing for
Away from all that can be true, and what was there before

They know, they know, but at least the world,
They know, their way around it they know,
Their way around, they know
But at least the world is changing
But at least the world, is changing

They wander in behind my eyes, observing around
They fly away then each come back, ten times before noon
They'll, tear down every wall you build, it's what they live for
And then nothing will ever be as it was before

And when the world is dead to them, fallen in disgrace
The blood of those who hide their words, will run down their face
And then the people of the norm will hold onto their pace
Away from all I thought was true, and all I'm living for

What is obvious to you
Is not to me
And frankly I don't know
This has to be
That's why I won't
Do what you tell me
Because it's really not
Obvious to me

Surely the truth
Is far beyond me
Maybe I'm wrong
And words aren't free
Epiphany may come
Another day
A misunderstanding
In the way

And I don't know
What to believe
There might not be
Right ways to live
But beneath the point
It all seems
To lose oneself
Into common dreams

Welcome, dear people of the end !
Look at the things we did for you
So many good stories we wrote
No way you'll ever make it through

Shadows hiding from the light
Beneath the windows, sitting still
'Been runing since the death of night
Inside the world they wished to fill

Shadows leaking from the night
As the day surrenders the world
Drown everything in old memories
Eat all there is without a word

And shadows fall from all around
Spreading as far as I can see
Until the last oblivious thing
Gets eaten by the shape of night

Like dust
Floating through the air
Watching people stare
And I wonder what it is that I do
The thinking isn't real
The being doesn't feel
And I wonder what that's supposed to mean
Between there
And nowhere
I don't think I get to choose
I'm on the air
And some is mine
Along the day
Along the night

Like dust
Floating
Falling
Foreshadowing
Drawing faces on a cloud
Seeing
Feeling
Mysticizing
Going places no one would
I don't know why
I don't know where
I don't know that much at all
I keep eating through the air
I keep screaming at the wall

I hear a song softly whisper
Into the wind out of the blue
Hear notes hanging on the aether
But the voices cannot come through
Left to guess in the hereafter
On what I believe to be true
I fear I couldn't tell ever
There are much better things to do

I saw in beautiful colors
Much of what remains to be seen
In the body my soul weathers
Fragments fall back into the screen
In a boring land of wonders
Into the gears of the machine
I walked in looking for answers
Got none and lost grip on my spleen

Sometimes I wait and hear nothing
Feels like the thunder's gone away
Like reality was bluffing
Keeping the nosy minds at bay
My muse just took me for a fling
No matter what I have to say
Most things are worth remembering
But most of it will just decay

I stay in the forest
Because there is
Nowhere else to go
I look out of the trees
And nowhere seems
To be the way

I think it's for the best
Not knowing where's
Where death will grow
Let time calm and freeze
Natural dreams
Cast you away

I know my way out
My path inside
Is out of mind
Through misplaced words
Cluttering thoughts
And seas of white

I wander about
Somewhere to hide
Nothing to find
What never comes up in records
And what oughts
To be out of sight

SO I WOKE UP THIS MORNING
AND TOOK MY LSD
THEN GAVE MY GREETINGS TO THE SUN
AND HE JUST WAVED BACK AT ME
I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BORN IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD
OH I'M SO GLAD I MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT MY TIME CAN AFFORD

AND THEN I STROLLED ACCROSS THE STREETS
OF SUCH A PRETTY TOWN
THAT HAD NO NAME BUT MANY PEOPLE
AND I AIN'T SEEN NO FROWN
I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BORN IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD
OH I'M SO GLAD I MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT MY YOUTH CAN AFFORD

THEN I WAS SITTING IN THE PARK
WHERE LITTLE BIRDS ARE SINGING
WHEN ALL MY FRIENDS CAME OVER
AND WE ALL STARTED DANCING
I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BORN IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD
OH I'M SO GLAD I MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT MY HEALTH CAN AFFORD

AND THEN I CAME HOME IN THE BUS
WHERE EVERYBODY SMILES
WITH PEOPLE OF EVERY COLOR
THAT HAD SUCH MYSTERIOUS EYES
I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BORN IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD
OH I'M SO GLAD I MADE THE MOST OF WHAT MY TIME COULD AFFORD

Life is like a less persuasive kind of dream
Things feel they are yet sometimes only seem
Making wonder if there is some real what to know
Or could it truly be there isn't any how
Why are others and might they be made up ?
Under the spell or all drinking from the same cup ?
Still mostly spent looking after new holes in context
Colliding words in hopes some turn out to be what was next
Everything can be imagined but not ever be grasped
Whatever else could in no way be more than swiflty gasped

I made another stain
On the missing pages
Time to pull them again
Away from the edges
Invisible and vain
Lost words to the ages
Letters call for eyestrain
Redaction assuages

I leave empty spaces
Tell another story
I draw stolen faces
And have them say "sorry"
Tell them we'll go places
But everything's blurry
Nothing else than traces
Left in purgatory

I pull on a corner
And make sentences split
The journal gets thinner
But words won't ever fit
I'll make my world cleaner
Since lines come out of wit
Squeeze tight ***** of paper
And trust the trash with it

I don't want to be lame
But you know the truth stings
I wanna seek the flame
And let it burn my wings
To them it's all the same
Another picture springs
Can't keep it into frame
I fly around in rings

Nobody is to blame
We're all just sweet nothings
I want to play the game
See what history brings
I let faith hold my aim
Kept on hitting ceilings
But it is worth the shame
To know which way light swings

There is more truth to claim
Beyond the flutterings
Just see what life became
For all our past beings
Your fears will emerge tame
Wait until the cloud clings
And closer to the flame
Conjure warmer musings

Okay
I will let the world choose for me
They say
Things are the way they had to be
No way
Could ever truly set one free
𝘖𝘶𝘪 𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘴
There is always enough to see

Today
Such a weird name for memories
Decay
Keeps making everything at ease
Away
Is where we always put the keys
Let's play
With many words and open seas

I'm sorry if it's getting dark
It's the wind that pushed us that way
Just have a short walk through the park
We'll do our best to get away
Some people like watching the clouds
And remember their shape before
They lifted appart from the crowds

And in the crowds today they said
That they'll soon figure something out
They know what they're seeing, they said
It's not the end it's just a drought
Some people like watching the crowds
Giving strange names to everything
And telling us the shape of clouds

Another station left
Sitting down we're moving, still
Forward once again
To climb the flattest hills
And in our little cage
We travel through the fields
Gazing towards nature
Behind our brittle shields

The train is right on time
What a wonderful world
But I still can't explain what it is that I do

Another hour left
Until the black skies pull, out
A new day's worth of miles
To dispell any doubt
And silently people
Are waiting for the day
To do important things
They don't want to delay

The train is right on time
What a wonderful world
But I still can't explain what it is that I do

I want to see your favourite colors
On the walls
We all belong to others
No matter where destiny falls
Please show me the astonishing
That we'll keep forever
Just a piece that we're missing
We have to find together
So much is hidden in dreamland
That we  know where to find
Casting away anything bland
We'd no longer be walking blind

Feeling somewhat rotten inside
But not really knowing where it went wrong
Looking into no place to hide
Doing what it takes to go along
Wear whatever face that suits you
The tone of things just elicits nonsense
Lying awake dreaming of few
memories when the stars did align

Be whatever has to be you
It is fine to be seeming so bemused
When one's always starting anew
Some things have to bear being used
Stop keeping fingers in your backs
to point on what you don't believe belong
You've really just been losing tracks
And it very well may just be lasting ever long

Why yes of course the devil knows !
No way he's sitting out that one
And no matter how the world flows
Try to utter the word that won, I guess ?
Anything that may help soothe the burns
Of being constantly irate
Helpless, unable of concern
Alone and inconsiderate

Someone has to be wrong
It's written in the rule of things
Cannot keep up, on time for long
Until the end it will pull on your strings
You stole your own soul
Please bring back one when you're finished
Orbiting near the monopole
Finding out that every thing vanished

I've already been in this place
I'm sure I have seen this before
The past don't seem so far away
It is a day from now no more

This day so far up the skies
So far you can't see anything
You didn't really see the clouds
Couldn't tell the seas from the soils

Too many bright holes in the night
Holding the future in their hands
They know they will see you around
They know some day you hit the ground

Now here's the sun, rising again
He seems to only know one way
Leaves the moutains to kiss the trees
Then, vanishes beyond the world

I say goodbye without a word
As he's starting to fall behind
I've already been in this place
I'm sure I have seen this before

I wish there was something again
I wish there would be something new
I wish it wouldn't stay that way
But I don't remember if I care

I think I know where I'm going
But I'm not sure I remember
There's no reason to stay away
There's nothing to stay away from

And here I go rambling again
I seem to think that it would help
I don't know what I do again
Was anyone else living there ?

I'm so afraid of those who talk
Because I feel like I cannot
My words aren't the ones I thought
Their world isn't the one I'm in

And maybe we all kept writing
Just so we could talk to ourselves
While wild memories **** us off
The one who's left would maybe learn

And maybe he will not look back
He'll let us die just like we did
I could say that I am sorry
But I'm not sure I believe it

There's no reason to be sorry
Nothing in there I would preserve
Wouldn't show anyone on earth
Why would I show that to myself

Why did I show that to myself
What in the hell was I thinking
There's a thousand of other way
Yet there's the one I can think of

Is there at all logic in there ?
Am I the one bound to try this ?
I've been doing it everyday
Twenty more minutes gone away

Well maybe I won't sleep tonight
I feel I really don't want to
Me tomorrow won't remember
And all day long he'll have to learn

Maybe he'll find sleep in his night
Maybe he'll find the clue I missed
Or maybe he will delete this
He'll try to find out a new way

What is poetry anyway
Some people like to write novels
Because it's like a trip abroad
poetry's just stepping outside

Maybe it's better improvised
Maybe you can't chose what you do
Or did I chose so long ago
Twenty more minutes gone away

I'm just listening to some guy
Talking over the internet
About some pretty mystery
He makes such pretty videos

This is the third time I watch it
I have no idea what he said
I just wish there was something new
Twenty more minutes gone away

People read whatever they want
I'm only writing this for you
I can't pretend that I make sense
But that's something you always knew

Twenty more minutes gone away
I wish I'd have found something new
I've been looking everywhere now
You'll try again 'cause I know you

In two hours I have to walk
With people who know I can't sleep
And most of them are pretty nice
but there's nothing that they can do

Twenty more minute gone away
I haven't found anything new
The me I am today is tired
I am waiting for tomorrow's

I really should stop this thing now
Throw this down to the internet
To folks I know nothing about
I'm sure this is a good idea

I could have known you
But I wasn't myself
A book far from view
To be left on its shelf
Forgotten memories
Of what could have been had
Out of place reveries
No more dreaming to add

I don't know who you are
But I tried to learn
Afraid to go too far
In the distance I burn
Out of nowhere and back again
Another friend lost
Let's meet nobody then
Make sure no one is crossed

We are the same
Just as everyone else
We keep things tame
Lest we fall as ice melts
And drown in the expanse
Of the void between souls
Timidly yearn to dance
With our own kinds of fools

Fiction is such a welcome lie
Under an indifferent sky
Pictures are soaking up the night
Put up some omnipresent light
Not unlike describing colors
Not seeing further anymore
As Time without interruption
Pulls new days back into action

People are the last of their kind
Raise some incoherent hivemind
Mouses all runing down the maze
Moved on by an insolent blaze
There is a place above nothing
Where one could outdo anything
Mountains around just got steeper
Pick at the contextual blur

Fortune seeks only the living
Pulling some omnipotent string
No other task ever given
Courses of fate interwoven
Guiding stray fish out of the sea
An unconscious conspiracy
In disingenuous fanfares
Lets you remember something cares

We've seen it all and we're livid
The illusion is so vivid
Beneath  inconsiderate stares
Through such superior softwares
Almighty, calm and innocent
The world always gets its consent
In due blissful incompetence
Adrift yet always on the fence

Amid evermoving edges
In fantasy and in pages
Looking for a new way to find
Another path to nevermind
We call for the puppet master
And Time couldn't go on faster
On teaching us to get a clue
That nothing else that it is true

The tolerance has grown stronger
We could go on for much longer
Through an antidepressant screen
Reliving the anthropocene
Keep on rekindling the fire
Find the end of the quagmire
Drowning existential distress
Alone with anybody's guess

My eyes,
They always betray me
When I run down the
Uncanny valley

Your smiles,
They mean nothing to me
While I'm going through
What is left to see

Your thoughts,
Are walls that I can't touch
A prison for my words
Where I don't know much

Your names,
They never stay around
Loud ideas of noise
You shared and then drowned

Your eyes,
They always betray me
I confuse your dreams
With what I should see

It falls like rain
Simple and plain
Dropplets riddle
Each other
And the ground moves them
Together

And in a pool
Recallers whirl
Darting away
As if
Run by some fool
Swiming like they would never reach the floor

Well you just stepped
In little waves
On which God knows how many wept
But where painters
Got their own caves

I can feel the cold breeze on my arms
I can see all the odd ways the world behaves
I can't be wrong, the bird has left his nest
And today I can be

The way back was pretty long, I guess
And the road was lonesome at its best
Some came along, I can feel them here and there
And I should know
Where they went

Perhaps they went where all of them belong
A small house with windows in the sun
Some toys around, and laughter on the grass
A black hole where they smile and forget

Close your eyes, or did I just close mine
I can't get this picture off my mind
It's funny how, I can see through your eyes
Yet I can't hear you

All I hear is what's sung by the wind
I don't care if all the trees stand still
I hear beyond, that water we swim in
I don't believe the sun

I don't believe in things I can't touch
I don't reach for things my eyes can't meet
I don't know why, I just hear it a lot
It's written in
For good now

Oh it's good to be myself again
I'm in awe of what I could do now
The music's on, now everything makes sense
Just like it oughts to

So what did you learn ?
Did this make any sense to you ?
Tell me what you saw
Because I need to hear something new
I've been everywhere
But it always looked the same

So how did you do ?
Has it always been just good enough
Or have you seen
What we've all been waiting for
I've seen everything
But it always ends the same

Look into my eyes
Do they mean anything to you ?
What did you expect ?
Can you tell me what I want ?
I know all of you
And you never think the same

Now what did I miss
Thought I figured it out with you
You almost got it
There's something here that we can't see
And we all miss it the same