My brain is the purgatory of thought
Always busy jumping fences
I have to read past sentences
To know what I'm talking about

Things just happen without mercy
Nonsense nothings no consensus
Reminding me I can't focus
Mind in constant adhocracy

Past reminders of things to do
Taped on and forgotten on walls
After one too many night falls
They're no longer anything new

Everything just scatters aside
Now where did I just put my keys
My things are like a swarm of bees
I need to take a step outside

There is no game of power
Inbetween pawns
From here only what's leftover
Until on one the truth dawns

Living in the small world
One would learn to look away
From words uttered and faces whirled
Smiling because they know the way

And somewhere deep inside
Seems like somebody hid the key
We were born the day freedom died
Stumbled our way out of the sea

Whatever ever it may not be long
Before I dabble in psychiatry
I'd urge you not to come along
Disease has its own poetry

You sold your soul
To cheat your way into peace
Chose a well lit old path
To keep clear of your own
Discovered many tastes
Of second hand unknowns
Tried what was already true
And then you faded away

Virtue tickles good spirits
With the stroke of many feathers
Touches every peaceful mind
Beyond their wildest dreams
Imagination waking up
On the grass of a fresh abyss
With everywhere to begin with
And whatever else to miss

Eyes looking for an horizon
Still have faith in the end
In a foggy smooth apathy
Hunger ate itself out
"Another piece" you think
Trying to unsee a fool
Hiding in a dream of mirrors
Out of the blue then back again

Yet you're keeping it cool
Gliding the day away
Not a foot on the ground
Clear as sky as always
Everything's lost to the wind
Nothing was meant to stay
Remember, new tomorrows
Further forget today

Walking along such a glitchy path
Fading away in unrecorded memory
Minding your steps in a dance of math
Just blinking thrice
Puts an end to discovery

Rising the stakes, calling the void
toward a rushing horizon
Losing control of a stolen asteroid
Truth is as pure as meaningless
An opinion is romanticized delusion

Finding the way among fragments
Of life simultaneously lost
In time the Dreams will start again
In shared and obvious confusion
And universal vanity

Echoes of faith in the darkness
Splatter meaning on innocent nothings
Let's pray there isn't more to guess
Real is real but what else is
Wait what was the question already ?

There's no horizon
But the world seems to end everyday
The sun has risen
Yet shadows still dance the day away
Barely out of sight
Right now still seeing years ago
This cannot be right
This cannot be the way times flow

The walls keep pushing on the ground
Trying to float these feet away
Useless names, faces forever unfound
Memories with nothing to say

One stands paralyzed
Wondering yet again where is here
Never be surprised
The world keeps saying that the end is near
Constantly near
There's no escape from tomorrow

Accept the mystery
Of the deep unknown
Lost to history
The unseen you own
To fulfil your dreams
Don't step on others'
With so many teams
Nobody bothers
Lay the words in pages
And lay the pages up
Hold them through the ages
The world will never stop

I'm putting clues out into the universe
I seem to always find new ones
Lost in the past stuck walking in reverse
I can see only days ago

I'm making sense of something that doesn't
Put it right back onto the pile
Discarded bits of thought by the dozen
Fresh memory from days ago

Something's not right with the way the world looks
Water feels dry air sounds filtered
I wonder what is left for the history books
It was still like that days ago

Look down a while and you'll find stranger things
Nothing can get past true boredom
I let my body walk while I'm pulling the strings
It started running days ago

Walled in
High at the
Top of a
Peak
I can tell all around

Peaking
From a
million windows
I can see just fine

I put
My ear
Down to the
Cold floor
I can hear every sound

Alone
I wait for them
To show their face
'Cause I can't see mine

Just got an idea
Of something great to write there
But it left me for some reason
So here's something else instead

It's such a shame
I think it'd have been pretty good
Well I can believe whatever
'Cause I don't remember

If I only could
I'd say all the good things to you
And keep the nonsense to myself
But I can't tell them apart

We're on our way out and still there is
Nothing to see
I don't even know why you are still
Speaking to me
Honestly think I have discharged myself
Honorably
But the world still feels like I made
An enemy

Back then when the truth was granted
We didn't care
We made a many headed beast
Out of thin air
Gladly set up our bright red flags
In New Nowhere
Then we climbed up our last mountain
And nothing there

Sometimes the answer is right there
In broad daylight
You can't see it through your foggy
Daily delight
Meanwhile we're connecting the dots
With all our might
We recall words are meaningless
And then we write

Floating by my face spiraling smoke into the night
On one too many restless evening a new ember I light
Never care for what I'm looking for
I never know what I'll see
I don't remember what was life before
What tomorrow came to be

Lost in my own time
Fighting shadows
Why on my soul must darkness dine
Come tomorrows
With a whole new way to complain
Pieces of space
Filled up with dread but yet so plain
I must keep face
Remember how good it must feel
To win this fight
Do not let bad faith take the wheel
Set it alight

Nothing that great is being said
Accross the pomerium ahead
Can talk for hours, can't hear nothing
Over the dull voice they're casting
Some body stands, some body sits
And this one couldn't be bothered

And as the slow lights fade away
We're incomplete another day
Follow the easy way they say
Another swing at the ashtray
One miss and the whole place will burn
And these ones couldn't be bothered

Playing with fire in the dawn
Every true color is long gone
Not seeing people through faces
Not seeing yourself through the screen
Putting the pawns in their places
Because they couldn't be bothered

Brain chemistry finds logical
To put things together
With all that there is to recall
It's taking forever
Our scientists may understand
All the whims of matter
We may just never learn to stand
How the world walks further

We know the way some particles
Just hold on together
And it's said among articles
It's been since forever
In life there's only chemicals
And things that don't matter
But we'd prefer our chronicles
Would go along further

You eyes
Feel so very heavy
Right now
Just take a deep
Cool breath of air
And let your mind
Fill up with snow
Come back to where
You always were
Ominous peace
Surging below
Failing time in
The blank you stare
The voices you
Gently follow
Blissfuly blank
And empty
Magnetic words
Softly hollow
Crossing the void
To sound pretty
You're falling out
Below the flow
Forsaking your
Humanity

Running down the lost track
Every shadow disappears
Breathing in midnight's black
Sends you feeling many fears

Pulsating fleeting lights
A periphery of dreams
Flying in the void of nights
Gliding in infinite streams

Ground is hard and fear's shallow
Step around its many teeth
It gives you orders to follow
From all around and from beneath

Don't you all want to be like them
Aren't you way above the ****
You show it in the way you walk
The words you smile the colour you talk

Don't you all feel lost in this land
Surrounded by lines in the sand
Unspoken lies outrageous dares
Living among the many blank stares

You're words apart with your own heart
You don't really know when to start
Don't you all stand there mesmerized
Doing first whatever is advised

We're all the same to each other
But some are just ourselves better
They show it in the way they walk
The words they smile the colours they talk

This sort of thing
is one of the rare kind
in a lifetime
That, meanwhile you're cruising
Along in the seemingly
more or less homogeneous
lethargic repetitiveness
Of day to day life,
kindly makes you go

What the ****

Time has a bitter taste
Once lost in one
Too many days
So much memory is erased
One hour asleep and a minute ablaze
Laying drunk in knowlege lost
Making diaries out of ash
For the thoughts that our dreams exhaust
Living forever in a flash
Instantly remembering
Today's last night
Greeting and numbering
Each second
Until the light

This road leads down to the bakery
Jet planes fly along these mountains
There's been a leak near the cemetery
We keep a padlock on these chains

Street lights go out after 3AM
Birds sing as the sun goes up
It's always new yet it's still the same
We pour coffee in our cup

Tall signs tell us we should be giving way
Neighbors call cats home to eat
People came home with some things to say
Cars go too fast down this street

The old playground has been overgrown
The town's sad crank jumped from a bridge
It's winter time and most birds are gone
We have some bad eggs in the fridge

Background bell noise from the old church
Lots of mushrooms grow in cow's grass
Current went out in a power surge
Someone out there just dropped their glass

I don't tell you what to think
I'm showing you what I found
In my travels on the brink
In all this watching around
Open your eyes and just sink
You will never hit the ground
Dig into oceans of ink
Travel a land out of bound

We had us feeling monstrous
I'm telling you what I've seen
Truth first comes from the unconscious
Before we don't know where it's been
We're peddling hallucinations
Finding the way to new fears
On our onboard televisions
But it is music to our ears

Tell good from bad and run across
There is still time to get it wrong
Just keep on running at a loss
Because the road is very long
Find a way through each other's eyes
To tell a stranger the same
What's right with many little lies
As long as no one ruins the game

There's been so many strange things
It's getting hard to keep track
We struck unusual feelings
And gave it all a righteous wack
Constant contextual action
In our historical outburst
Nausea's a common reaction
When stepping foot on something cursed

That was bound to happen
Some things mean too much to be otherwise
Pressed in place like pillars
Dress a ceiling of truth

Accidents only happen once
It was their only shot
Sometimes you're just along for the ride
Dreaming that you're wasting away

Have you been drowning in today
For too long maybe
Tomorow probably
You'll be breathing yesterday

I lost my taste in life
A while ago
But there's something about you
That picks me up to go
Around this daily thing
The daze turns out a phase
I drink up from your spring
And my thoughts are ablaze
Twisting in your sugar
I remember today
Suddenly no longer haggard
And now this morning is okay

Sword clad men at the end of the myst
Strange motifs on their shields and their robes
Foreign eyes of a day reminisced
When they thought low of xenophobes
As they walk their hand loses them
Their eyes close their thoughts back away
They wonder when does victory come
They know that silence leads the way

No one runs anymore
On the forsaken field
No order therefore
No more fate left to seal

I would like to go under the trees
But I don't
Every once in a while time freezes

I would like to close my eyes and see
Whatever
But first of all nothing but me

I can't remember anything you said
You keep talking
Off the silence I made

I distrust reality
There is doubt
In my gravity
Casting out
Some lines
In the well
Finding signs
The whole world just fell

I have doubts
In their sanity
Ins and outs
Dreams and vanity
Far beyond
Conceivable terms
Pretty fond
Of feeding the worms

I take pride
In our eulogy
I abide
By mythology
Our latest fever
Got us out of bed
We could feel better
At least we're not dead

Can you teach a bee
How to be an egoist ?
Would you take a knee
If you were told to ?

How high's the limit
On how much the walls can speak ?
Teach a cat to sneak up on you
and you now when it does

However, fine
Don't truly believe in anything
How do you know
What you'd change ?
How could you see
That you're believing

Some days are the lasts of their kind
Fly away unknown bound to thrive
When something comes back
It has always been there

So randomly some times I feel like myself again
I can't fathom how things went this way
It's quite a thing to have so much been in vain
So much happens while I'm away

I have no idea what you're talking about
Let's talk a bit about today
Let us stay beyond any doubt
I'm glad everything is okay

There's been a lot happening still
Today several seasons worth
More time than anyone could fill
We keep walking but our feet can't feel the earth

Straight ahead with the workers of the mind
Lost in a minefield and walking blind
Sempiternal might against alienated sparks
Aiming for stars and earning these marks

Waking away into some unfun feeling dream
The only way out was the one way in
During the day, when the righteous fury starts
Pure automation with many moving parts

Glimpses of old life shining in through the night
Auroras fell into few eyes tonight
Moving to nowhere, pick a favourite shade of grey
Negociate with death as you sit down to pray

Hey you looking right at me
Do you remember me
You know, I'm the one
Writing on the walls while you're away
I keep trying
To make it nice in there
But there's no way to make you stay
And when you're not around
I wonder where you go
These times you stop dreaming along
I come home
And find an empty head
And I keep writing
Until you come back

They say people are scared
And so you are
They say many are outraged
And so you come to be
They got you swinging on a leash
Watching them grinding their teeth
Your eyes ready for the leap
Their pendulum set

Waves in the air, you switch sides
You get colours with sounds, your head slides
They show there's  nothing out of here
Tell us that the end is near
We believe in the things we see

Remember what you saw in streams
Nothing really
Ever seemed to burst at the seams
The world you want everywhere
And out of reach
High in the common dream

They said people were scared
And so you are
They said people were outraged
And still red you see
They got us pulling on the leash
They got us showing our teeth
We change the world when we know
How it came to be

It's a different kind of order
Laying beneath the flying moon
Through blades of grass, mindless fodder
I know the clouds are leaving soon

And right on time mine is about
Shameful visions crawling away
Some better eyes may express doubt
I'm waiting like I know the day

Infinite stream, endless wonder
Just out of sight and everywhere
And then the space where dreams wander
Inbetween this all we're aware

What is up close will start to blur
When one just stops and looks away
And voices lost in the future
Will then begin to show the way

Adrift where everything is vague
Waves of meaning scatter around
Avoiding reason like a plague
Flying too high missing the ground

One look at the world that made you
Do you think that it thought it through ?
Another day another clue
Another dance around the *****

Whenever I find meaning I lose words
For all the subtle ways
Beauty dresses this dreadful world
I improvise away
In hopes others don't get lost
Seeking for too long
What they like to do the most
And where their thoughts belong

We're all gonna make sense one day
Just in time
As we finish thinking through yesterday
We'll just tell it in rhyme

Lights are running on the walls
Shining through the glass left and right
Behind a brawl comes quiet and stalls

Moving again this time it seems
Probably nothing worth a fight
Maybe someone's been dodging beams ?  
Once every cat has got his bite
This all will surely settle down

Red, blue, shadows on the walls
Don't put a finger on your phone
Pull down the curtains
Shut the lights
After all you got yourself
A better hole to dig
Don't you ?
Some good leather to lick
A good coward
Will earn your name
It's probably too late
For you

There's a chip in the crystal ceiling
I can see it from there
Printing down shards of the outside world
Softly pushing among the dust

Light is flashing along the rust
Figures stood still  and  shadows whirled
A distinct smell of walls populates the air
And colours look unappealing

In a foreign land some silhouettes dancing
They keep bringing kids to the fair
and at some point the surroundings curled
In deeper dreams and further disgust

Nobody knows.
Reality is so verbose
Full of unintended purpose

Who are we,
Nobody knows

Lives right across the undisclosed
With many living things so close

Who are
No body
We know ?

Fictions and dreams of bygone truth
The real world juxtaposes
Stepping inside the living booth
To experience blood and roses

Who are
The body
We know ?

For all the thoughts
Lost in decency
Like hell we fought
To save our apathy
We lead the way
But won't show you back
You're there to stay
It's all on your back
The dreams, the sorrows
The anthems, the wings
Not much tomorrows
Way too many kings
We are alone
Without you along
Our skies are gone
And yours won't stay long

People are making weird faces around me
Behind my back they are speaking feces about me
And they smear it on their walls
They talk in their 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵 code

The hand signals, the 𝘦𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴
The words I barely hear
Words in the corner of their mouth
Their seemingly 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳

No one's the same when I'm around
And I am 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 of it
It's quite telling what I have found
But forget about it. You 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸.

How do I know you're not like them ?
You know the 𝘭𝘺𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘴 to their songs
Would very well want to know but
All I ever feel is that I'm wrong

Am I losing my mind ? Why
Aren't we all eventually
You don't inspire healthy thoughts, to me
𝘈𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 ?


I am so far removed from yous
That I might as well be batshit, to you
Is that a spider on the wall ?
What is looking at me through time ?

Is that the feeling I might have hurt someone ?
I don't know why I'm so sorry
I don't believe I remember well
The last time around was extrasensory

We can't access the memory
Of what has never been a fact
Silly me. The psychiatry.
Oh the inanity. The manipulation knows no bounds

We're all wrong , but hey
"At least this other guy right there
Is way more wrong than me
I can afford to take a break for now right".

You can't, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, take a break
And death is a permanent state
Of being drastically tired of life
Not a break and no salvation

𝘕𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴, if I got there
And did not manifest in a fraction
Of wet darkness at the bottom of some
Existentially forsaken mud pit....

Considering an amoeba's
Probable take on existentialism
It's no wonder we're not in the mud pit anymore
We've always been chasing the light

The illusion is so shallow
Drowns in poetic arrogance
Manifests a world in my mind
Then cuts my mind from it

Why is the void still stealing my thoughts
I keep hiding them nowhere
They've been talking they've been watching
Sometimes even started thinking

What at all do you think
With all you sanity, do you believe
That we are more than a blink ?
Well I'm keeping an eye on yous

I like the way our words align
Make sense of a natural law
We lose ourselves in the hotline
And each comes back with a new flaw

Any time you get lost in the cold inside
You could put new shivers on the blank
For each new arrow in your hyde
Let out a bit more of your flank

A patch on the costume of dawn
A medal on the chest of sin
Some toymaker and a new pawn
We're going all out in a spin

It seems he's still holding up sir
His head is sitting on the shelf
His ******* body dropped down
He's still looking arround
Staring at our things angrily
Only alive
Out of sheer will

Eyes wide opens
Like they shouldn't
Following me
Like they couldn't
Hanging at the edge of the pit
He's taunting me
He's showing off

'Tried everything, sir
'Don't understand
His face's dried up as you can see
He's yet still talking back to me
Spitting on us, biting back
Frowning at us
Staying back

I'll just put him in a bucket
I'll teach him to disobey law
Let's see how he holds on
When his dear world is put away
It's only fair for death to reap the things I love
It's not to love
The things I hate

I am
Sorry
I have no idea
What I mean
To
Say
It's just
like the filter is broken
I don't know any ins and outs
Some sort
Of Fog of war
I can't
It's all around
All I hear
Is thoughts over your voice
All I see
Is something new
Of course
If I knew how to speak
I could tell you
insanely beautiful
Things
But I'm
Reduced
To
This

Nobody knows what's good for them
That's why we need to know everything
Make sense of the world
Or it will make sense of you
If you can please the words
If you cannot let them please you
And like a train the roundabout
Got us all in our seat
It is the road to anywhere
But not many places
Lead from here

You might lose your sanity to intellect
But you can't lose your soul to love
From whom you might smile with delect
For what you place up and above

You might find you cannot pretend
To anywhere beyond a map
To anyone before yourself
Exist it does and time I spend
Everyone's wrapped up in this trap
Swinging along atop the great bookshelf

A window from another world
To open time, and times again
So you can see those words we hurled
Out of our eternal fear, in vain

The void difuses anywhere
Takes onto each given up thought
Rots through your every memories
Behind your eyes you cannot see
How much its has taken its toll
Burning through all you'll ever be
Neutralises what once fought
To save this gorgeous scenery
From blindness
You thought once that you could fight back
Meaningful words
Hard to come by
In the echoes of distant fear
Days forgotten
Seconds pass by
It couldn't be any more clear

Let's scoop up a bucket of nothing
And throw it right on the table
It's silent but we'll make it sing
We'll end up with a whole fable
Pry it with righteous scrutiny
Set it a million words alight
Lost in a blissful agony
A stone for yet another night
See the true colors appear
Watch its ethereal slime glow
Through the meaningless we clear
A spot to just enjoy the flow
No time would go anymore
Along the depths of the nameless
You don't know what you're looking for
But there's beauty in the pointless

Throw the goalpost across the ******* moon
You'll never live to see the day
When what you know is true
Like all you scattered many thoughts
But only one came through
No one knows what you want, not even you
You're so afraid to choose you'd wish nobody would
And everybody would just play along
Easy going in the easy world
For people like you
Well what do you know
What we show you
You don't want to see
What we say to you
You pretend you never heard
Life is a race against yourself
And you came third
Then you went to sleep in a simple utopia
And you never dreamt again

Hey there
You're losing it friend
Don't bother about who I am
Just call me the voice of the rain

The oceans
Have pretty steep waves
These days you can't tell up from down
It's the same over and again

And when the days end
We trickle down
Call you over
Again and again

I don't care
What you think
Don't believe
In anything you see

Our name
Is watered down
How could yours then
Have any colour

You did all the things
You loathe
You will never
Be born again

Because it's easy
You can say anything
People will make it make sense for you
When you don't care
In any way
If there's any beauty to see
Before you die
You are lost and content
You don't have to care
About tragedy
Does it mean
you should have a choice ?

You have
My undivided
Attention
But I like to keep
My arms on the raillings
As you walk
Such thoughtful
Radiation
Carreens over the hills
Falls into the skies
I may sense
A small bit
Of tension
But it's lost to the wind
And caffeine clouds

And the world moved once again
In a brand new way
And as a whole another night fell
Over some mourning stars
We stand on the edge of the pit
Fishing for new memories
Walking the way we taught ourselves to
Putting our souls in jars

You have
My undivided
Attention
But I don't believe I
Can give you my thoughts
We run an
Undisclosed
Dimension
Where our days bathe
In the morning to die
In all
Our staunch
Indecision,
We know