Alvin Montagnani

Alvin Montagnani Feb 2024

"I am unequivocally and utterly alone."

Said the man in his golden palace. The one within his mind.

The three tenets guide me on my journey:

• Handling everything equals handling nothing.

• Having everything equals having nothing.

• Hating everything equals hating nothing.

I despise you and that is the truth.

Oh. Did you want to remain ignorant?

Alvin Montagnani Feb 2024

{Entitled, Untitled}

Surely you're also one of them.
Those who take what they have for granted.
Those who take and take, without a care in the world.
Expecting everything to come to you on a silver platter.

On your deathbed, I wonder... Will you wake up to reality?
Will you see me as your equal despite me having been born into poverty?

The day I am no longer alone in having nothing.

I [ l o o k f o r w a r d ] to it.

To the entitled nobodies

Alvin Montagnani Feb 2024

{I'm Fine}

I'm lying.

All the time.

And I [ e n j o y ] it:

I was meant for this world.
I am happy.
I am content.
I am okay.

Crush my hands in the doorway. Keep me from writing my thoughts onto virtual paper. Watch as my fingers burst into pieces of flesh and bone. The pain keeps me awake.

I don't want to sleep anymore.

I only dream in black and white.

#imfine

Alvin Montagnani Feb 2024

{The Masquerade}

As soon as we met, I washed my face with grandeur and politeness.

She did not know how out of place I was. Nevertheless, I managed to fool not only her, but the rest of world in the process.

I'm smiling, gently and tenderly while standing in your presence.

All while [ l o a t h i n g ] your words, your actions and your image.

Hypocrite.

Falter.
Fall.
Fade.
Foliage.
Façade.

#liars

Alvin Montagnani Apr 2022

[Spiral]

Are you... a friend of mine?

By speaking my mind I've alienated myself from humanity.
Do they still want me here?
I was once ignorant and naive.
A boy with the power to save the world, in my eyes.
By attaining knowledge I only got pushed further away from a life with meaning.

Now I'm naught but a grain of sand - in a desert of suffering.
Unified - but alone.
We stand no chance separated.

Will you be the one to connect the dots? Turn sand into rocks; rocks into castles?

Will you be our _?

Nobody knows.

#kindlyhelpus #godsgift

Alvin Montagnani Apr 2022

[At Death's Door]

Inconsequential.
Menial tasks.
Even the books our truth were built upon - a mirage.
A sole purpose to detain and control.

Yet, I believe.
Perhaps not like I used to.
But it's there.

God is alive.
He lies dormant inside you.
I've seen it before.
You will remain oblivious.

Until he wakes...

#helpus #salvation #saveyourself

Alvin Montagnani Apr 2022

[Inheritance]

The things I own do not make the boy I am.
The things I'm taught do not make the soul I've inherited.
There is but one truth for every man and woman.

Mine was that pain is illusory.

Find yours in yourself.

#realisation #helpus