My father asked you
"What are your intentions with her?"

You told him
"Nothing. We're just friends."

you broke me down
and built me up stronger than before
covered me in rays of powers
and whispers of dreams
mixed with a double shot
or energy running through my veins

my heart is thawing

It was just yesterday
when you decorated my locker in a shower of glitter-stickers
and big fat hearts
that made me smile ever so foolishly

I feel lost in the world...
trapped in time
while life moves on.
I feel like I'm becoming the girl
they warned me not to be.

I'm not the girl in my poems
I speak the mind of a dream

You can't resonate with a girl who doesn't exist

Loving her
Was so difficult
It was like smoking a cigarette
Because I hated it so much
But craved it every day
Needed her taste on my tongue
I loved the rhythm
The consistency
Hated the mornings after
And the disease in my lungs
Even though she smelled so sweet
It was like she poisoned me every day
Yet I kept coming back for more

I am not
crazy in love
but a stupid in
in love...
I sank in the
deep stream
of love like
a dream but
I awake when
I can't swim up