Today I do nothing but look at him
Today I do nothing but thinking
Today I do nothing but feel it
Today I do nothing but..

To think.. I cannot say anything. After all, I lying to my self.

This feeling is.. Yeah..

      No one know what I feel.

             No one ever understand me.

   My fears.    My tears.   Is everything no one can ever understand.

The reason why my fears is appeared is unknow.

      The reason my tears drop is unknow too.

      Lets just DIE. When I die, no one ever care.



I should tell them that I will die. Die from running out of tears.


    Open a new book and start a new story. If there is no happy ending, let's write it again.

With his words alone, I feel relieved.

   I had nothing special feeling for him.

But he save me.      He is the best "FRIEND" I have.

More importantly,   he never betrayed me. He always help me. He stay by my side  since my childhood.. And I don't remember when.. But I really feel it been a while.

H.      E.       A.       R.       T.

Hey, did you see this kind of shape.. Its just like heart shape. But its not heart. I think(?)

I need them and need to lock it somewhere else. That thing can no longer be stored in a safe place. It needs to be throw it away. Because it can't be fixed. It's broken. I tried tying it up, sticking it with glue and stapler and I sew it too. But it still crumbled. Shattered. And it has been fragile since the beginning.

I know what I'm doing. So its okay to throw it away. Because I don't need it anymore.

Bye, My HEART. I'm sorry.


By Siti Asmida
8 Sep. 2019
Self Important: HEART.

TEARS. Things that always happen to others including me.

Every one can cry, I too can cry. But when my tears dry. I can only make out the sound and no more tears.

Cry can make you stress. No! Cry can make you feel better. Witch one is true? The answer is, "everybody has different opinions," yes. It seems so.

Alraight! We just have to CRY! CRY untill the tears DRY!!


By Siti Asmida
8 Sep. 2019
Self Important: Tears.

I running.
Running away from FEAR.
I dare not face it because no one is with me expect my foe.

I running.
Running AGAIN.
Later, I meet my friend.
But they cannot help me because they never feel what I feel it.

I running.
Running and I MEET someone.
I cannot remember him I do not know him.
But to me, I feel safe because he is gonna fought with me. And he won't throw me away. He'll stay by my side until this fear is gone.

I running.
Running toward fear.
I face it togather with him.
Now.. I'm fine because I meet that person and I becoming more brave right now.


By Siti Asmida
24 Sept. 2019
Self Important: FEAR