My tears never fell
But I still felt it all
My smile didn't fade
But inside I drowned
My compose stood
But the chaos too
My love never left
But I just lost control

I walked out into the rain
It was always me wasn't it
I blamed the same person
It always wrote my name
I was never meant to be
It was an accident was me
I long used up my tears
It was my weakness I cried
I lost because I'm lost
It was my fault I chose to stay

Sometimes I hear the music
Secretly paying in my ears;
Even when I cannot begin
To envision your presence.

Sometimes I see the stars
Wink at my tear stained face;
Even when there are in fact
No stars in the solemn sky.

Sometimes I feel your kiss
Lingering on my bare skin;
Even when you have long
Closed the door to you and I.

Weeping tears of buried sorrows
You never saw me
Every touch of you a precious piece
Playing on my heart
An endless thread of love and misery
I'm walking on ice
Needles laced with cyanide and lead
Pierced in my skin
Crooked ways and silent entrapments
Cut me from within

To you this may spell
A single word
Betrayal
But the honest truth
Is that I'm just
Confused
Are dreams worthwhile
Or they're mere
Illusions
Is this a twisted game
Could this be the
Truth

This theory is one of no meaning
A senseless kind of excuse
Something further than this
Deeper than we can comprehend
An ache a vacancy in our head
Filling the space in this silence
Too loud too vast for us to escape
Mixed into this lust and fear
Our out of sync lives broken dreams
A masterpiece of our miscreations

Needle and thread
flesh and bone
Spit and sinew
heartbreak is home.
Your suture lines
they sparkle like diamonds
Bright stars to light
my confinement.