Things I want the most, never really found me.
I've been hazy for too long, never really understood how.
Actually almost on the rope.
but there's this beautiful star that fills up the empty void
I've been feeling all these years. The bare feeling of life.

These things usually pass by, like red light district.
Please don't take me back to the start.

On the dark expressway
I am once again found and reborn
Who was once was in an attic
Trying to enjoy
The space beneath the floor
Oh how little joy
Can be revived by such a walk
With the woman in black
And the sweat dripping
On my face
Is never a disgust to her.  

How im blinded by the city lights
How the cars passing through
Are a glaring vision
How the red beams from the taillights
Feels like a dream,
Yet i am here
You're here
Everything feels like gravity

"Breathe for love tomorrow,
cause there's no hope for today"

These words got me,
when I went up your room
and you were crying
I tried to mumble my words
to a comforting state
it's all I can do
I'm sorry for that,
I don't know the pain you're going through
right now
but I want you to know
if you want to leave
where the grass is greener
where the light is brighter
Its okay.

She's a woman who's red-blooded
A woman with a strong heart
Who still believes in love
Even if you don't

But,
I believe she'll be
The same woman
I met at 3 during 5
Where she was sitting
On a comfortable bench
And was so ravishing.
The same woman
Who eats icecream
And still crave for some.

I'm not even done,
She's the only exception
In my chapter
Hope is a dangerous thing,
But I hope
She'll be in the next book.

I hear voices
and I'm awaken.
Haunted by this earth
where I'm creepin'

convinced that I am
no longer
and I'm just another
spec of dust, in your world
but you make me want to live
you make me see
the stars that didn't shine
but you know
I'll try

And I have thought about writing about you

but here I go
my thoughts goes out to you

as waking up was a trouble to me, I seem to find perfection with your perfect morning message
as a smile was faking its action,
as a frown was truly formed
even after I have left you
you're here
to
stay.
I am deeply terrified of all things
even though there have been times I wanted to tell you
in overwhelming moments, but I can't stop loving you anymore
no matter
how painful
it gets.

It's one of the nights I wish you'd tell me
that I should stop drinking
I should stop smoking
but it's not
it's not one of those nights
it's one of those nights that I'd drink
and smoke
til' I pass out
and check up on my Grandmother
I'm not saying it's a lonely life I have
you're gone
and she's dying
but yes
I'm implying that it is a lonely life
I have.

It gets me thinking
that I did you wrong
The midnights that we used to
make time for both of us,
now its just midnights
My deepest thoughts goes to you
I wish you could feel, but that's just
me, being selfish.
If you'd say farewell to me
this is left unfinished.

The desire in your eyes
to live
is very futile
It depresses every bit of me
to see you
hurt like this

These are the nights
I wish I'd say to you
It's alright
or There's a brighter side to your clouds

Yet sorrow's got you now
But
I'm gonna say it here
I know you may not be reading this but
I'll still be here
after you have found yourself.

the time's where you
used to buy me novelties
and hide it from who thinks
I don't deserve it
but you, you thought I deserved everything
much more.
and now you're sick
I can't do a thing
it's not okay and never alright.

and I saw you cry
not a thousand words
could be said,
Just Silence,
in your dark room

I myself don't know
what suffering you're
going through right now
but you are assured
I'll be staying as long as I can

just silent sobs I hear
I wish i could say
everything's gonna be
Alright.
but I can't speak
There's too much pain
in your eyes
Don't worry, Grandma
I will always love you.

As I think of you
while I'm on this bus ride home
The stank smell of car gasoline
plunges through me

As the ignorance and bliss
is a riot in my head
And one day
I hope
You'll be fine
and have bliss time

The dank speed on the expressway
never felt so lonely
The moving cars and their taillights
never felt so bright
If only my Zephyr were here, we'd enjoy the gushing sound
of the chatter and the unruly sound of the bus engine

I do, I really do miss you
not in the way I miss us way
not in the way I miss your old self
just in an I miss you way.
Oh Zephyr,
I am afraid of the happenings.
I am afraid of the sun when it's time to rise.
I am afraid of searching to what I am sure of
look, Zephyr. It is not always the easiest way out.
It never was for you to be a person full of sorrow.
I never saw that in you, but please.
Please do know I too am just as scarred as you, but I never saw a mismatch in what I do.

I do know. You're one worth-while-time of happiness
It may be hard for you to admit,
as I am afraid to say,
but yeah. I do.
Endearment for you my dear Zephyr.

Zephyr ,
what's bothering you?
We're never on the right track
and that's not okay
Is Assurance all you entail?

Zephyr,
Close your eyes
perhaps we're already on the right side
possibly that's right, right Zephyr?

Zephyr,
Rejection is I Fear
but I'm close to you
Zephyr, I'm here.

I’m going to talk about my imaginary friend. She’s this short, she’s a bit skinny maybe half my body, she’s got the skin of an angel and seeing her, she just moves so calmly.

As she pointed her destination, she pointed out like this.  As I walked her home all night, I’m in the right lane but something’s wrong with me and I don’t know what she sees in me.  She told me to go home, I rejected. So she argued with me and said she would punch me if I didn’t go.  I calmed her. And I had to give her a warm embrace and I received the same.  And as I walked you home, I divided my money and felt melancholy.  Knowing I’m just somebody else just to walk away with.

The falling star crashed, I'm sorry I didn't catch you.
You were a burden, yet a beautiful burden
You were the star that makes me sleep tight at night
A star that makes me smile during the daytime
A star that makes me have shivers in unexpected times
A star that makes me
but I'm sorry I can't catch you anymore

Perfection was in society.
Perfection is beauty within, not without
I'm ******* thankful I heard words from your ****** mind.
Perfection was my hair
Perfection was my face
Perfection was my body
Perfection was my soul

All my flaws are perfection,
thanks for recognizing my physical attributes
thanks for the perfection in society

It's me again.
I tried to fill my room with clouds
it didn't work.
Unconsciously knowing.. My life's a bunch of clouds.
I had no rainbows after the rain.
I had no sun during the rise.
and I certainly didn't have a moon for me to look upon.

A star fell upon my world.
And you were so beautiful.
You made rainbows in my deepest cloud.
You made me see the sun.
and every night you're the moon I look after.

I've been here before.
The grass is so withered.
Can't reach anymore.
To heavy to wish.
Is there a place on T.V, where I can find the reasons why you call me blind?

Am I praying to the voice in my head?
Am I laughing at the tears ahead?
Am I looking at you?
Am I deaf for your kind of songs?
Am I blind for your favorite shows?
Am I tired to take a stroll, in this coffee table bookstore>
Am I that scared to take this role?

Here have some glue.
One day you'll find its use.
Because here's another promise. Don't worry.
You're about to lose what's useless.