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80 · Apr 2022
Untitled
Jonas Apr 2022
hold up,
come back,
you left my jaw at the floor
79 · Mar 2024
Animal farm
Jonas Mar 2024
Some people are just awful
Rotten to the core
Walking this earth in misery
They try their best to drag everyone around
Down with them

Come join me
In the mud
Pig
Let's wallow
79 · Mar 2022
Problem?
Jonas Mar 2022
The perfect lighting,
in the perfect mood
to take my time
and shoot some nudes

I just have no one to send them to.
Can I send them to you?
^^

hehehe
Consent :D
79 · May 2024
Imposter
Jonas May 2024
I'm doing fine aren't I?
I think you said so once
Wouldn't hurt you to tell me more often
I still can't see it
I'm getting better at it tho

I've done more and seen more
Than others do in their life time
And I'm far from done
I keep creating
Keep evolving
Getting better at it
Sooner or later you'll learn
One way or the other

I'm a good person, a good friend
To some
Good looking, funny too
At times
Financially secure
For now

So why don't I feel it
Why can't I see it
Belive it
When I look in the mirror
Why can't I live it?

I keep changing, growing
But will I ever grow out of this?
The ghost of my childhood still hangs around
It's settled in
79 · Mar 2021
Subtitles
Jonas Mar 2021
.
inaudible screaming
what a beautiful subtitle
you can see the absence of sound
and yet hear it in your chest
bursting out
.
78 · Aug 2023
Limbo
Jonas Aug 2023
Who is
he?
Who is
she?

A story of
him
A story of
her

stuck
in limbo.
78 · Sep 2023
dew
Jonas Sep 2023
dew
It's junce again,
and I can't remember the last time my smile was forced
or my eyes were empty staring blankly into nothingness.

AsI point my face to the sun and my nose into the wind.

Depression is a faint memory.
Winter is ages ago, ages away.


But it will be back,
and it will make me remember.
First slowly and then all at once.
78 · Oct 2023
valley of wind
Jonas Oct 2023
There must be
a special factory
somewhere in the world
hidden away
with care

It would shape the clouds
as they come in molds
all fluffy
in pink, orange, yellow and white

It sends them out
grazing the sky
like flocks of sheep
peacefully aloft

And then suddenly
all grey and dark
boasting big,
almost bursting open on the spot
carrying all that weight
crackling with lightning
so full of energy

But so patient,
holding on
waiting
trying so hard
till the right moment arrives

Last stop of the line
destination reached
time for a festive hosting
to let it all out
let it fall

Refresh the world
with new air
a change of pace
a quick break for us all

Rip open
with bursting thunder
you deserve it
let go now
little big cloud
you've been so bave

You carried it all
kept it in you
for how long I can only imagine
and how far you must have come
be proud

Surely
the wind alone
can not make up all these shapes
I see
when I lay down in the grass
looking up
you're here with me

Watch
look at the sky
watch 'em go by
never tyring from reinventing
it's ever changing
infinite forms

So
surely
there must be
hidden away somewhere
in this world

a little cloud factory
78 · Sep 2023
20's
Jonas Sep 2023
Please,
can someone just tell me what I'm supposed to do,
where I'm supposed to go.

Just tell me how the world works,
give me something to believe,
it doesn't even have to make total sense.

There is something deeply wrong with me,
tell me what's wrong with me.
Just give me a reason, a story
give me something to hold on to.

So I can move on.

Can someone just care for me please?
Take over,
just for a little while, so I can rest.
Take a break form being an adult,
cause it never seems to stop.

I'm so done
78 · Jul 2024
Imagine
Jonas Jul 2024
Money doesn't mean much
I think
Against a lifetime lived
Between grief and happiness
Love and despair

I wished

Money doesn't mean much
Where heads rest at shoulders
In a world of morning dew and sundowns over the ocean
Where clouds lay down over the mountain ridge
Like white water turned golden

I hoped
Surely it couldn't

And when it all comes tumbling down
All gears stop turning for a day or two
I'll hold on to a thought
I once had
That money doesn't mean much
In the end
Jonas Jun 2024
The fire in leaf and grass
Blazing green, it seems
Each summer might just be the last

The wind blows cold
makes leafes shiver
Each day goes by, a little quicker
Came to pass

A red salamander lies still
Frozen in the sun
Do you too dream?
Of a better life, a warmer place to rest and recharge?

Right now, at my mercy
I open my palm, let him go
Leave him free to find his fate

I can smell the fall in the breeze
May the next minute be my last
78 · Dec 2023
Mandala
Jonas Dec 2023
I have no purpose here

I'm not in control
Mesmerized
I watch

Hold captive
By shapes
Made out of a blank space
Brought to light

By pages slowly filling
with ink
bled by a pen
seemingly
led by my hand

Black ink
absorbing the light
77 · Jun 2023
Crowded
Jonas Jun 2023
Isn't it curious how you can spend a lifetime
going unnoticed.
Alone with all your small habits and thoughts.

The more people are around you the easier it is
to become invisible.
The last person on earth among others
77 · May 2024
Dead mans grin
Jonas May 2024
In the heart of the storm
Only there it is
That your rage goes quiet
Settles down
Drowned out, under the sound
Of weeping winds roaring loud
An fade and fade
Gone at once
Just swept away

Lost importance
Together with the rest of the world
Doesn't matter
All things change
Raising the question
Like a whisper amongst the noise
What now?

What now? What now? What now?
77 · Jan 2022
desperate
Jonas Jan 2022
Quickly
A pen, a paper , your grocery list
anything

The words are already fading
from my mind
quickly
77 · Dec 2022
Hi u
Jonas Dec 2022
Leave me
Give up on me
To the lost and found
To gather dust in the dark

We'll only end up hurting each other
77 · Mar 2024
And you watch
Jonas Mar 2024
A family of five one day decided to quit
Packed their bags
Only take what you can carry son
To leave this mess
Behind

Hoping to find a better life
Crossing oceans
Off to strange lands
I believe
We can make it
The future is bright

They're just trying to make it
Putting up a fight
Make the best with what they have
If not for them
At least for their children
Can you blame them?

Who needs to know how to swim anyway
Just don't get wet
Close your eyes princess try to sleep and pray
I’ll keep the monsters at bay

An easy mark
Two were shot dead
Both slaughtered
Like cattle in the dark

Another drowned the next day
He panicked, jumped ship
It was a mistake, an accident
They can't charge him twice now
You see?

The youngest got fished out
Caught in their net
They brought her back
First she got ***** and beaten
Then left to starve
Close to her farther’s land
Chained and bound to familiar ground

The last just got lost
Forget about him
Last he was seen?
When we pushed him back
There's enough space for them
On the ocean
Out of sight in the middle of the night
Missing in action
The actions we don't talk about

No one came back
That means they made it right?
They must have made it out

Momma, momma
Tell me
Where are our neighbours at?
77 · Jan 2024
kids playground
Jonas Jan 2024
I try to spread
As much light as I get
Leave the world a brighter place
And still protect myself in the process

Yet
I myself always lean to the dark
For the comfort of it's safety
Afraid to be blinded
Afraid to be emberassed
Being out in the open

I'm scared
Please don't hurt me
77 · May 2024
Löcher
Jonas May 2024
In der Hose, im Pulli
In meinen Taschen
Eine handvoll Pennies
Im Mund und im Kopf
Lächeln mit Zahnlücke und ADHD
Das hab ich selbst diagnostiziert
Schubladen sind nur zum Verschließen gut

Und im Herz, ja im Herz
Da herrscht Leere
Du fehlst halt

Aber immerhin weg
Nicht mehr hier
Mit dir

In Wien
Budapest, Berlgrad, Istanbul
...
Und wieder zurück
Immer wieder
In Berlin
77 · Mar 2023
Oh, shut up
Jonas Mar 2023
Take me, take me in
pull me closer
and brush my skin.

Here's my lips, my face,
kiss me, have a seat
Oh, what a sweet embrace.

Take control of me, please.
I don't want to hold the reigns.
You have me on my knees.

Before you.
Leave yor marks on me.
77 · Apr 2022
Lebensmüde
Jonas Apr 2022
I'm so tired
Lord lay me to rest.
76 · Sep 2023
Vibe
Jonas Sep 2023
Turn up the music,
louder and louder still.
Till my ears bleed and I go deaf.
Till my thoughts become lyrics
my body in resonance, same frequency.
My feet to the rhytm, my heart a drum to the beat.

Till I find ecstasy in drowning out myself
76 · May 2024
Caged animal
Jonas May 2024
Locked away
Forced to be domesticated
It turns cannibalistic
Eats you up from the inside
If you don't feed it a little
If you keep it starving
Away from daylight and fresh air

It will grow larger, growl louder
Taking up more and more room
Tunrning you hollow
Till you have to pay mind
Or it gets strong enough to take over
The reigns
And run wild
Time for payback

You can't deny your own nature
If it feels trapped it will try to get out
Finding violent ways
Fighting for control
With the animal inside
Howling to be heard

So don#t forget to let it walk around
From time to time
Stretch out it's legs
And get some pets

Who knows
You might gain a friend
76 · Mar 2022
Garden
Jonas Mar 2022
To drink freshly squezed juice,
to feel alive in the sun.

Oh how would it be nice,
if spring was coming.
75 · May 2024
Fast fashion
Jonas May 2024
Sometimes you do get lucky
You meet people who don't use you
Up
Don't wear you
Out
Like the rest of them

Who don't just try you on for size
Force you down
Rip something
Wear and tear
And then throw it back on the shelf
For someone else to sort out

What's that about?
75 · May 2024
The eyes of god
Jonas May 2024
Bulgaria,
08.40,leaving from sector 2
You pay with the driver
You can stick your head out of the window
Watch meadows and cows pass by
Chewing in indifference

The market is every wednesday
I wish they'd lay better pavement
1kg and one apple please
We want to have a bbq later
In the rain
You fill my heart
But my tummy can't keep up

Sure, the Dixi is available
But there is always the option of being a friend of nature
And **** in the woods
The cave is one of the biggest in Europe
Which means
It's tall enough to fit a horse
He told me, holding hands with his wive
Of over 30 years
They wouldn't let me pay for the ticket

A day in the park
People are peopling
Yes that's a word, now
I'm people too
Yet it irritates me when they remind me
Here, I picked these daisies
Three of them, they're for you
Ne razbiram, sorry
Caho, chao!

Did you know?
The black sea is milky
And cold
75 · Mar 2024
On trail
Jonas Mar 2024
I could be the smartest person in the world
The collective intellect in one
And still I'd be thinking about ***** all the time
Not to be crude or anything

The animal is hugry
Out for blood
The urge to feed

I'm refusing to play along
I'm refusing to go hunting
75 · Jan 2022
Untitled
Jonas Jan 2022
You will be the end of me.

Continue.
75 · May 2024
My needs, your needs
Jonas May 2024
Canned laughter
And bottled up anger
Let's call it a lunch
Quality tupperware
A gift from my parents
It's hard for me to open up

Try to crack me open
Use brute force
Till someone gets hurt
But we have to eat
It always comes down to needs

The sun always shines the brightest
In it's last moments
Before the night
A flash of rare green
Mirrored in your eyes
I'm staring again

Will the sun rise tomorrow?
On us?
Will we still be together?
Tomorrow, next week
Next year
Will it be the same?
Who can say?

Who can say?
74 · May 2024
Explain it to me
Jonas May 2024
But how do you know
Anything in this world?
How do you tell
Right from wrong
And good from bad?
In this complex mess
That's changing constantly
All the time

And no one rellay explains it to you
For only a few really have a clue
And they get drowned out too
Buried under the mass of missinformation
So called opinions
Which to often are stated as facts

What can you rely on
In a dance of deception and manipulation
When you don't know the steps
Blindfolded, only slightly see through
All you can do is stumble
And look for something or someone
To hold onto

You have to believe something
Commit to something
To a casue, an idea, a person
In due time
With whatever limited understanding you have
And hope for the best

That's all you can really do
In the end
Hope for the best
74 · Mar 2024
Bad blood
Jonas Mar 2024
How do you go
Find home in another person
Looking for familiarity
When your parents messed you up real good?
What if you can't trust your instincts?

When you don't want to end up with resemblense
Just another version of them
In your bed the next morning
Their mantra stuck in another sack of flesh
Sweat on the sheets, bad skin
Eating, *******, all consuming
They'd be so proud
Cheers to  our tradition

Your words raise red to the wind
Sounds like landmines and pitfalls to me
But what can you do
That's alawys been my colour
Painted as a cross across my chest
It suits me best
Just what I'm deserving

Let's get married
Can't wait for our honeymoon honey
Can't wait to mess up our kids
Let's raise our glasses
A toast
Cheers to our heritage
74 · Jul 2024
Good morning
Jonas Jul 2024
I've lost my footing
My feet ran away from me
Trying to get away as fast as possible
Abandonm ship
These waters are unfamiliar

I'm losing my head
Slowly coming undone
The everyday now is a fever dream
The good old times are gone
Yet each days remains the same
The same, same same all over again
I'm going insane
Can only pretend everything is fine for so long

Everything is changed and nothing changes
It's in the details
You could see it, feel it if you'd look
A change of mood
But people don't change
Fast enough
Who cares about history, the past
In present times?

It's happening again
Again and again and again
Right here too, but espacially over there
This isn't real, I'm not ...
What is? This
May just be the best way to live

Ignore, look away, zone out
Sedate yourself
Drown in all the noise
White screens in the dark, double tap
Swipe right, don't fight
back Shut yourself
away, become real quiet
And small
and Give up your voice

So you can stand the injustice
Double standarts all over
It's not fair
HA, what else is new?
You knew, you've known it since you were a child
All grown up now, a cynic, didn't you?
Incredible
What damage a little bit of hope can do
To you

Living in a world of predesign
The system is working against you
Just a bunch of made up rules
Making us miserable
We stand divided together
Children will always fight at the school yard

Capitalism
Modern day cancer
Limitless growth in a finite system
Value money over peoples needs
What could possibly go wrong?
When you only matter as much as your numbers add up
Working for them, the few
Whoever they are
The big bad behind the picture
Behind curtains or office windows
Step out on stage, into the spotlight
Let me draw you
A pretty picture

The world is ******
And so are you
****** before you got here, not even a thought yet
****** while you're here
And ****** long after you're gone
Maybe, hopefully, finally
At peace
74 · Jan 2024
Flying above the clouds
Jonas Jan 2024
I wrote you a love letter
while wearing her perfume
On my wrist
Affirmations on a tissue
Or was it a puking bag?

To seat 4D

To you,
Whoever you might be
I wonder are you lost,
On your way,
Or perhaps are you found?

Just for a moment
Together,
Here,
With me
Somewhere in eternity
73 · May 2024
Regional guard
Jonas May 2024
Soldier boy
Be a good boy
Chained up
To your little hut
Closed off space
Only a yard or two to pace
Back and forth, back and forth

They raised you well
Only one purpose
All bark and bite
At everything that's new
That smells, seems strange

It's all you've been taught
All they see you fit for
How could you be anything else
Anything more?
Do you have any friends?
Does anyone come closer
See past the shell
Unafraid of the pain you promise
Gently offering you a hand
Trying to make peace?

What a lonely life you must lead
Dear leader of the pack
I hope soon things will change
And turn out for the better
May you find kindess, a little freedom even
Locked away from the world
In your cage
73 · Jan 2024
Command open status
Jonas Jan 2024
There is this one question
Which seems to manifest
Waiting, lurking
Behind every turn
And every corner
A reacurring visitor

Tell me
Where did I go wrong?
What did I miss?

Tell me
What is wrong with me?
73 · Mar 2024
Sytem call
Jonas Mar 2024
Open status window
Open inventory
Reapply stat points
Report error
Debug

Start a new journey
Override safe files

Do you want to continue?
Log out
73 · Sep 2023
shoe shine
Jonas Sep 2023
How does it feel,
when you've learned to make yourself accpeted, included and liked
by making gifts to others?
When you feel like you have to earn your worth, earn your place?
Always think of others, their needs, help them, care for them,
you keep going out of your way to please.
Without even being asked to.

Literally no one asked, why do you still do it?
No appreciation to be found
yet you still give more, do more, spend more.
Till they excpect it from you.

Just to watch your gifts be tossed aside,
become forgotten and expired.
You can fish them out of the trash later.
Frame them, added to the collection.

Be grateful you can still be around.
No one likes you anyway right?
You're nothing but tolerated.
Leftovers, appendege, third wheeling.

Be grateful. at least you're not completly worthless and alone,
right?
Does that sound right
to you?
73 · Jan 2024
Drop anchor
Jonas Jan 2024
Sailor, sailor
Riding the waves
Facing the horizon
Breaking wind
Sunrise to sundown

Truly a master of the elements
But a master of oneself?

How romantic
How platonic
You're heading north
It's going south

Away, away
Where are you going?
What are you running from?
72 · Mar 2024
Along the river banks
Jonas Mar 2024
And one day I woke up
Smelling flowers again
In full blossom
A feint scent of almonds walking by
I can't help it
It makes me smile

Squashed sticky between my fingers
I hold hidden flavours
Wet grass and dirt beneath me
Lying down at the river banks
My favourites are alive again

Nostalgia served on a platter
A slight sting to the chest
Watching the light break and curl at the surface
Glittering gold shimmering
Water always finds it's ways

Don't get me wrong
I still feel empty
A hollow shell of a tree
That burned out long ago
Keeping up appearances

But as the sun goes down
The gentle spring night air
Speaks to me of summers warmth
Filling me, holding me up
Making my step a little lighter

I long for somebody
To love me
Soon
But for now
Today was a good day
72 · May 2024
Leave me / Come back
Jonas May 2024
I see, you
Clearly
You're out of this world
It's all so obvious to me
Please
Take me with you
I want out
My therapist says I need to kiss you
I think
I wasn't really listening

What's my lifes worth?
What's a life
Worth
Without a little joy
A little company?

Show me
Your teeth
Sweetheart
Haunt me with those pretty eyes
Of yours
Wolfen stare
You run with the pack
Run wild
Make me miss you

Be the paint to my canvas
You draw me, in
With a stroke of luck
We'll have a deep connection
I need a good ****

You bite
You're on my mind
Constantly
I guess it's bad luck
You're name scratches on the inside of my throat
Stuck on my tounge
Claws and fangs
Make for hard facts to swallow

Sweet pains always turn to poerty
In time
So tell me now
Is this real?
Are you, real?
Are you for real?
With me
About me
About us, this, whatever this is?

Your laugh
Is the only hope
In my stroy
72 · Jun 2023
The last drop
Jonas Jun 2023
Listen,
I've been holding back my entire life
When we step into the ring
I want you to know I'm not gonna hold back anymore
And I expect you to match that.

So before you do step in
Make sure you hugged your mother,
told your women you love her,
showed her how much you worship her
and spend some time with your friends.
Real time.
The kinda time little girls and poets write about in their letters.
I'll make sure to do the same

Cause one of us might lose their life in there,
Blood, spit  and soul on leather,
The respect between caged animals.
72 · Mar 2024
Put on your blinds
Jonas Mar 2024
There is freedom in the dark
To be found
If you turn away from the light
If you stop trying so hard

Stop hurting yourself
Putting up a fight
Scraping your knees
Running and stumbling
Chasing what's shining to bright

Still
I'd like to try
For a little while longer
If that's alright
72 · Apr 2022
Take control
Jonas Apr 2022
Chain me up,
clutch my wrists,
and hold me down.

Hold me tight.
Show me you care,
show me I matter.
72 · Apr 2022
Untitled
Jonas Apr 2022
I'm sorry but.
I have words in my head.
I have to let some of them out at least.
Make space, I'm grasping for breath.
72 · Sep 2023
A glimpse
Jonas Sep 2023
One second,

for the broadest smile to shine,
for tears to form, dripping out of your eyes
waterfalls down your cheeks
An exchange of looks, a parting of ways
To shy to try
To say hi and goodbye

Two seconds
It's all it takes

For tires to screech leaving your bike under wheels
For your life to unfold and fade away,
to be changed forever,
a spiral out of control
downwards.

Three seconds is all it takes,

To say
I love you,
Thank you
Could you help me?
I'm glad you're here.
I woudn't know what to do without you

Imagine what you could do with a day

I believe one day you'll smile again, cry again
One day, you'll bike again
And believe me when I say
it's gonna be worth it, it's gonna be okay.
72 · Jan 2022
rise and shine
Jonas Jan 2022
Get up,
brush your teeth,
shave,
make your bed,
and clean the dishes,
clean your room.
Take out the trash
Work out,
study,
cook,
eat healthy,
mastrubate.
Go to work,
get it done.
Just one more week,
Get up.
72 · Jan 2022
philosophy
Jonas Jan 2022
what is life?
shut up
*******
71 · Dec 2023
Shut in
Jonas Dec 2023
You make me laugh louder
Than anybody else does
And making me feel safe with you
Just by being near me

I can tell you anything
I can be anyone with you
I can trust you,
Even depend on you

High in contrast
To my usual life
You came into my life so easily
A friend send to me by a friend

A summer breeze
Cominig through a slight gap
In the window
Bursting it open

Letting in the light
71 · Mar 2024
I'll call you
Jonas Mar 2024
You ghost me

Yet I'm the one
Who's left behind

I'm the one feeling invisible
And empty
Inside

I'm the one who's haunted
By your memory

How fun
I'd curse you
If it'd make a difference
71 · Apr 2022
I noticed
Jonas Apr 2022
She struggles hard
struggles, each and everyday.

Still she does it so beautifully
so let's try and keep her safe.
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