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Apr 2022 · 81
flap text
Jonas Apr 2022
Just so we're clear this is personal.
I wrote this for me, I wrote this for friends, my mom, as therapy.
I wrote this for people to see,
to see me. Finally.

After I've died that is,
after I've done it, possibly killed myself.
Good riddance.
Now put the book back in the shelf.

This is my inner point of view, it is but a fracture,
a specific frame,
not the whole picture.
My solemn manufacture.

It's also me just fooling around.
I's also me just being lonely, being *****.
Find me.
Apr 2022 · 448
Bridgerton
Jonas Apr 2022
Ready your tea cups and bring out the biscuits,
chaps,
it's time for gossip.
Apr 2022 · 70
Untitled
Jonas Apr 2022
I'm sorry but.
I have words in my head.
I have to let some of them out at least.
Make space, I'm grasping for breath.
Apr 2022 · 75
Untitled
Jonas Apr 2022
hold up,
come back,
you left my jaw at the floor
Apr 2022 · 201
it's cold inside
Jonas Apr 2022
A warm tea in hand
the world looks brighter,

make me  a chai
my soul is freezing over.
Apr 2022 · 89
spring date
Jonas Apr 2022
she jumped from the coffins lying in the window screen,
death casually says hello,
while we're strolling through the city
,
but when it comes knocking for real,
racing right up to her,
she stays still.
Apr 2022 · 91
A life on film
Jonas Apr 2022
To travel the world
and shoot the palces I've seen
the books I've read
and the stories I've visited.
.
To share them with you
for when I'm gone
you get to see where I've been,
who I've become.
Mar 2022 · 75
Garden
Jonas Mar 2022
To drink freshly squezed juice,
to feel alive in the sun.

Oh how would it be nice,
if spring was coming.
Mar 2022 · 81
Fairy tale
Jonas Mar 2022
My book is falling apart
in my hands
as I read it.

With these caring hands
I'm trying  to hold the pages together.
Please hold out a little longer.
I'm not done with the story,
not done with you yet.

No happy end
No ever after.
Mar 2022 · 257
english breakfast
Jonas Mar 2022
I'm your cup of tea


left alone for to long,
grown cold and bitter
Mar 2022 · 78
Problem?
Jonas Mar 2022
The perfect lighting,
in the perfect mood
to take my time
and shoot some nudes

I just have no one to send them to.
Can I send them to you?
^^

hehehe
Consent :D
Mar 2022 · 227
war
Jonas Mar 2022
war
our days are numbered
time is running thin
change is coming
say goodbye to your kin

it breaks out
like a volcano in the night
you wake up in another world
unable to turn back, you take up the fight
Feb 2022 · 181
Good morning
Jonas Feb 2022
What to do,

read a book in the sun
pair a cigarette with coffe
visit your old hometown
work till you tire from exhaustion
work out and hate yourself
stare at the sky and listen to the wind,

instead,
when you can't be hugged,
can't be loved.
Feb 2022 · 109
bubble bath
Jonas Feb 2022
No matter how cold I shower,
I can't freeze my thoughts

No matter how hot,
I can't chase them out

No matter how hard I scrub, it's stll my skin,
that I am living in
Feb 2022 · 172
open window
Jonas Feb 2022
inhale
exhale
bathing in fresh air

the midsummer breeze
the cold winters bite
Jan 2022 · 80
fly on the wall
Jonas Jan 2022
I'd listen in to my neighbours
an ear pressed against the wall
for hours.
Shivering, cold
my back arched
trying to get closer.

Just to feel something.
Jan 2022 · 103
knock knock
Jonas Jan 2022
When I look in the mirror
I see
pathetic
It's me
I'm pathetic
Jan 2022 · 98
Cigarettes after sex
Jonas Jan 2022
Your lips my lips,
apocalypse.
.
Is that my thought or just another song lyric?
.
If all the thoughts have been made before
all the actions been taken
walked down every road
.
Am I even my own person
or just a replicant,
an open transmitter broadcasating?
Jan 2022 · 81
day after day
Jonas Jan 2022
Why is it so hard in this world
to find yourself valued and respected,
loved even

when you are trying so hard to be kind
to keep smiling
and not become bitter?
Jan 2022 · 110
coward
Jonas Jan 2022
I'd rather leave it unfinished
take it easy
crack a joke
than to mess it up and watch me fail

again
Jan 2022 · 80
domestic
Jonas Jan 2022
How many hits does it take
to change the nature of a dog unbothered?
So he becomes a violent creature
that bites the next.
Jan 2022 · 72
philosophy
Jonas Jan 2022
what is life?
shut up
*******
Jan 2022 · 73
Untitled
Jonas Jan 2022
You will be the end of me.

Continue.
Jan 2022 · 72
rise and shine
Jonas Jan 2022
Get up,
brush your teeth,
shave,
make your bed,
and clean the dishes,
clean your room.
Take out the trash
Work out,
study,
cook,
eat healthy,
mastrubate.
Go to work,
get it done.
Just one more week,
Get up.
Jan 2022 · 187
sweetheart
Jonas Jan 2022
Funny,
how all I need to forget myself,
forget my troubles

Is to hear you chuckle
hear you moan

with me.
Jan 2022 · 87
softboy
Jonas Jan 2022
I really wish I could cry sometimes, you know
For my on sake, not that of others
Be it real or fictional

I have a hohle in my tummy, my chest
and it's aching
aching
aching

If I had someone, if I had you
to hold me close at night or day
If you would be mine, and I would be yours
Could you save me?
Or would I just drag you down with me?
Into the mud
Jan 2022 · 75
desperate
Jonas Jan 2022
Quickly
A pen, a paper , your grocery list
anything

The words are already fading
from my mind
quickly
Jan 2022 · 83
A quiet sommer night
Jonas Jan 2022
"You know,
I knew I liked you from the momet I first saw you
Did you?"

" No
Back then you were a girl  and I was a fool

You are a women now.
Smart, funny, breathtaking beautiful
I adore you so much it hurts

And I'm still a fool
A fool for you"
Dec 2021 · 94
Alone
Jonas Dec 2021
Who are you
when doors shut close
your friends in another room?
When no one's watching?
Only you and your consciousness remain.

Your hidden sides creep out,
bones aching pulling down,
demons crawling forth,
insects nibbling at your skull
The past comes knocking,
flooding in
with whisperd words


Memories are haunting
you can evade them in company
but you're all alone now.
Can't drown them out now.
Can't look away now.
Do you see?

Is that really me?
Or am I the other person
Oct 2021 · 74
2 am texts
Jonas Oct 2021
Hi,
you up?

I'm a curious person

I gotta ask, gotta know
you know?

What's it like?

To hug you from behind
smelling your hair.
To hold you and be held
biting your lip in the dark.
To whisper sounds, hear you breathe,
hear you moan?
To trace your curves over and over
up and down.
How soft are your thighs?

The shape of your breast
your hand in my hand.
The shape of us, feet intertwined.
Your skin on my skin.
The light breeze on you, resting.
Would you leave marks on me?

To fall asleep, to wake up with you.
"How was your day" and "I miss you already" 's
To share a cigarette, one coffe in the morning.
Black, no sugar?

Your taste, your smell, your sounds.
Tell me.

What's it like in the night?
Laying next to you?
no regrets
Sep 2021 · 325
A perfect storm
Jonas Sep 2021
Heavy sinks the sailors heart
He pulled through sun, sea and storm on the daily
But this change of course
he could not have forseen

When the sails are singing tales
of loved ones left behind
waves come crashing down on him
His soul is swept away

Being lost at sea, now
sun rays touch his face
Beneath the surface
he rests

happily ever after
Aug 2021 · 454
goodbye sailor
Jonas Aug 2021
You are to me like the most beautiful ocean,
;
How many times does one die when drowning?
Jul 2021 · 87
Sing me your lullaby
Jonas Jul 2021
Awaken children.
We have a long day ahead of us.
Lust,
envy,
loss,
hunger,
scorn,
hate,
despise,
loneliness,
b­itterness,
addiction,
sadness,
hope,
more sadness,
awaits.
Time to go.
Nostalgia soon will follow.
Of childhood dreams well spend.
You'll get to sleep again.
Awaken children.
.
Jul 2021 · 65
But why?
Jonas Jul 2021
I almost had ******* everything.
Oh and there is a woman.
...
A woman is what I might need
for me.
To see what is what
and what still might be.

So I gave you my everything.
Did not hold back.
And what did you give me?

A
*******
virus.

Your kiss just might be
deadly to me.
Jul 2021 · 108
Alive / the same
Jonas Jul 2021
To put a time stamp on ones life.
How much are you worth?
What's your number?
Clock out.
Take your break.
Never come back.
...
Jul 2021 · 94
Of candle light and stars
Jonas Jul 2021
;
You are human, not a moth.
Choose your flame.
And burn.
Burn.
Jul 2021 · 87
Literally
Jonas Jul 2021
All I have is you,
my work,
and the privilege of being young,
of having time to waste away.
All I have is you.
Jul 2021 · 106
Don't catch feelings
Jonas Jul 2021
Don't forget to breathe
she said
Why, you're gonna stop me?
I said
My lips on yours
the End
Jul 2021 · 271
It's okay
Jonas Jul 2021
You're allowed to fall
through all safety nets
for a while
but breaking
is not an option
dear friend
Jul 2021 · 419
surreal
Jonas Jul 2021
Somedays
I fall out of time
and have to force my way back
crawl to the surface
of this demanding reality
Jul 2021 · 82
Hold me / Leave me
Jonas Jul 2021
Finally
You are an answer
to a question long longing,
burning through
a hole in my  chest
my being.

A temporary answer perhaps
a substitute,
an overripe fruit picked from a tree
before falling, breaking, molding
bursting open
unconditionally?

But that hohle was my furnace
that fire my flame
without it
what even am I?
doing?
here?
with you?
without you?
leave me, hold me

Call me by your name.
May 2021 · 574
keep'em coming
Jonas May 2021
Gods great plan.
He's testing us.
Stones laid in our way.
What doesn't **** you
makes you live
a little longer.

This is not a test.
It's a personal vendetta.
Said stones aren't laying around
they're aiming for my head.
And I can't keep avoiding them,
dodging 'em forever.
May 2021 · 868
memory / edit
Jonas May 2021
We tend to forget our past struggles
The details
of pains gone by
and obstacles overcome.
Until life reminds us again
to be thankful.
.
.
.
I am thankful today.
I can walk,, run and bike freely for hours and that's normal. It wasn't always like that. It could have ended differently. It still might. But for now. Thank you so much.
May 2021 · 254
Y/N
Jonas May 2021
Y/N
yes or no
positive or negative
affirmation or negation
the differnce matters

except when it doesn't
for we are
"past the point of returning"
"past the point of no return"
May 2021 · 107
brave
Jonas May 2021
Beliving in something
actualy caring about something
again
is hard
cause you're riskig of losig it
and you lost it before
and you can't be disappointed again
can you?
Apr 2021 · 986
Untitled
Jonas Apr 2021
Missing out or
being left beind
which is worse?




As if you had the choice ...
Apr 2021 · 659
what a life
Jonas Apr 2021
how much **** can you take
before you break
******* everything
in your way
Apr 2021 · 50
sweet talk my heart
Jonas Apr 2021
"I'll love you till the end of time babe"
Time is nothing but a human construct to deal with reality.
It's fictional.
"I promise you the world."
Don't give promises that you can't keep.
Besides what am I to do with the world? Watch it burn?
"Okay, I'll hold you through the night at least."
You'll suffocate me.
"You're so irritating, what do you want?"
Drop the *******.
"Okay ..."
I want you to punch me in the face.
"What...?"
Softly.
With your lips
slams him into the wall
.
Who run the world?
Apr 2021 · 93
fairy tails
Jonas Apr 2021
love
hate
peace?

never
ever
again?

whole
broken
design of mine?

hope
despair
endlessly

forever ever after
dead or alive
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