I don’t want to remember the sweetest days—
not your smile, not your warmth.

I want to hold onto the days you hurt me,
the silence, the absence, the sharp edges of your words.
I want to hate you,
just enough to walk away without looking back.

But nothing is working.
Not hate, not forgetting.
Not even pretending.

Because deep down,
I know I never showed you—
not enough—
how much I loved you
in those days.

And now,
it’s terrible
to carry these feelings forward,
to move on with my heart still rooted
in yesterday’s soil.

I want to remember the bad days,
the cold,
the pain,
the distance—
anything but the way you loved me once.
Anything but the way
I fell.

Let me remember the pain, not the love.
Let me remember the hurt, not how deeply I loved you.
Because that’s what I need to survive this.

We fought, we lost our way,
But I still remember the days.
Even through the hurt, the tears,
You were the one I held most dear.
No matter what we couldn’t say,
Just having you close, was enough, anyway.
In silence, in those quiet moments shared,
I knew you were the one who truly cared.
Now, when I dream, you’re still there,
A presence that comforts, beyond compare.
We try to talk, but words fall short,
Yet just being near, was the truest sort.
Time has passed, but I see it clear—
The warmth of your presence, always near.
Not in anger, not in regret,
But in the love we had, I won’t forget.

You weren’t just a person; you were a feeling,
Part of every moment, every breath.
Fights and laughter, just being together—
A treasure I’ll hold onto forever.
You were the spring that brought me joy,
The bloom that made my life bright.
I did know those days would fade,
When the time came, we had to part, leaving memories in my heart.
I’ll hold you longer than I’ve known.
And now time has passed, and things have changed,
But that feeling, it still remains.
For your memory is my heart's true home.
I can let go of them, maybe someday,
But not the feeling—not ever.

Through whispered words and silent sighs,
We built a world beneath the skies.
We fought, we hurt, we drifted far,
But still, you shined like a distant star.
No matter the battles, no matter the pain,
Your nearness was where my heart remained.

In moments of silence, we found our space,
In each other’s eyes, a familiar place.
Though words may fail, and time may flee,
Just being near you was enough for me.

Now in my dreams, you softly appear,
A presence that brings both joy and fear.
We reach for words we can’t quite say,
But your warmth stays, in every way.

I carry you with me, not in regret,
But in the love we shared, the things unmet.
No matter the distance, no matter the years,
You’ll always be close, in my heart, my fears.