I still have feelings for you.*
And no matter how many times
I tell myself
that i'm better off *without you,
a part of me
*just won't let go.

is prepared for:*
-A million questions.
-Uncontrollable laughter.
-My family.
-My friends.
-My appetite.
-Random dancing.
-Sad/Happy tears.
-Deep talks.
-My imagination/dreams.
-Random texts.
-The acceptance of the real me.

Thank you  to the 160 followers.
You guys are great people and poets!
Thanks for all the likes, comments, and repost
Keep them coming.
I need a least 300 followers before January 1st 2016
so help me gain please and thank you
:)

Your the other half of me.
You're just like me,
you like what i like
you been where i've been
you're my reflection.
Why can't you be more clear
my thoughts are cloudy
and my heart is so crowded.
If you're my reflection
then you must know what it's like to
feel alone all your life,
you know what it's like to feel useless.
You have the potential to do anything
I should know since
you're my reflection.*
When I look at you its like looking at me,
all that pain and misery
You want attention, you want to feel useful
I get it because i'm exactly like you except,
...................
you're a guy and i'm a girl
but You and I can help each other

This morning, let go
of everything you
didn't do right,
the negative
things people have said
and *focus on all you are becoming.

The prettiest smiles
hide the deepest secrets.
The prettiest eyes
have cried the most.
The Kindest hearts
*have felt the most pain.

To the ones who still believe in dreams:
Chase them.
Chase them until you're out of breathe.
then, keep running.

Life isn't a fairytale
but we can pretend like it is
you're never to old for fairy tales

You'll probably  never  take me back and I know this.

I'm not a fool
I just love that your dead inside
I'm not fool*
I'm just lifeless too

Falen:
As you move through this life and this world
you change things slightly
you leave marks behind
However small & in return
Life and travel leaves marks on you
most of the time, those marks - on your body
or your heart - are beautiful
Often though, they hurt
                            Wolf:
We always seem to leave impressions
picking up our scars and beauty marks
along the way, hoping to do more good than
wrong, and maybe find love on our paths
the world is a vampire.....bleeding us
but also an oyster..feeding our souls
                      Falen:
In order to be, you must do.
All great things start from that one adventure, that one dream, that one idea, that one step.
To adventure is to find yourself whole, to have a story at the end of this all.
The places you see, the things you make, the people you meet will fuel you forever.
Choose to see beauty where others see none and strive for greatness
                                  Wolf:
Have the courage to follow your dreams
and to follow your heart
choose wisdom over folly, but never forget
how to enjoy yourself..and to respect and love others
be assertive while unobtrusive....
and learn all you can
life is a journey. we must always keep moving forward
remembering the past, but leaving it where it belongs
live each day as if it were your last
one day you will be right
                      Falen:
Not all wanders are lost.
We lust after traveling the world
we just want to find a beautiful place and get lost in it,
we want to discover something new
we want to feel & be free
                 Wolf:
It's the gypsy spirit in us all
keeping us on the road
and unfettered to hermitage
ensuring that we live and breathe
with awe and wonder
                    Falen:
I've got wanderlust in my veins
I was born to  live and I live to regret nothing
I'm in love with cities i've never been to
and i'm in love with people i've never meet
                   Wolf:
Gypsy blooded to the end

Forgive more
  Apolgize more
     Discover something new
         Find love & happiness
            Find out who I am
                Stop second guessing myself
                        Be nicer & Do something nice for someone
                             Stop regretting
                                    Learn french
                                         Learn how to save money
                                             Conquer my fears
                                                     Learn to drive & Get a job
                                                           Have the best sweet 16!
                                                            ­     **Stick to resolutions

I just wanted to be your last

Name: Falen Acon
Residence: San Diego California
Age: 15 (almost 16)
Birthday: Jan 4, 2000 (Capricorn)
School: Don't worry about it!
Grade: 10th (Sophomore)
Class Of: 2018
Favorite Color: Ballet Pink, Gun Metal Gold and Burgundy
Favorite Flower: Wild Flowers, Roses & Sunflowers
Hobbies: Dancing and Poetry
Favorite Food: Pizza
Favorite Drink: Strawberry and Root Beer Soda
Favorite Dessert: Ice Cream (Shakes) (any flavor)
Happy Place (place that makes me happy): Beach or Dance Studio
Career Path: Professional Dancer
Lucky Day: Saturday
Lucky Number: 3
Favorite Number: 7
Friends: Christan Zeal, Elsa Angelica and Drevon Young
Goals:  Find true love, Find happiness and Travel World
Favorite Artists: Lana Del Rey, The Weeknd, Drake, PartyNextDoor, Post Malone, ILoveMakonnen, Rae Sremmurd, RDGLDGRN, Kyle, A.$.A.P Rocky, G-Eazy and Zayn Malik
Celebrity Crushes: Zayn Malik, Justin Bieber,  RED (from RDGLDGRN) and Steph Curry (GSW)
Favorite NBA Team: Golden State Warriors (GSW)
Favorite NFL Team: North Carolina Panthers
Favorite MLB Team: Chicago Cubs
Favorite College Football Team: LSU Tigers
Favorite Nascar Driver: Kasey Kahne
Future College: Texas State University (TSU) or Something :)
Future Sorority: Delta Sigma Theta (DST) /_\

Why hold on to what you have to let go of?

The achiever meets the benefactor.*
This can work quite well, provided that Cancer has no objections to the grand projects Capricorn frequently gets involved in and Capricorn allows Cancer to be in charge of their private sector.
Once they become attracted to one another, they're eager to solidify their relation and don't mind the prospect of building a home together. A family is fine, too.  They mean it when they commit.
But they continue to compete about the leadership and about whose plans should win when they have conflicting intentions. The relation can be noisy at times, when the two strong wills collide, but they can take it. It's a process by which they improve their relation, even when it seems like the very opposite.
Actually, they are both stimulated by it.  A lasting peace would make them confused and worried, sensing that something is missing and worrying that their love is fading.

All of my dance life people told me how I would never make it
How i'm not good enough
How I don't have a dancer body
How i'm not graceful enough
But I didn't care what others thought
Dance was my escape
Dancing was all I cared about
It was all I could think about
Their words and the struggle I had to go through only made me stronger as a dancer
It made me who I am today
A  BLACK  BALLERINA
And I stand for every other black ballerina out there
- Your weakness can be your  greatest  *strength

I'm tired of scrolling through my page and seeing the poems you wrote about me
I miss you
I wish i could be with you
I wish I would have told the truth to you
then we might still be together
living our eternal dreams, as you liked to call it
**I'M SO SORRY

Why is everyone mad and trying to start fights with me and
No-one wants to tell why they have a problem with me.
I have always tried to be there for other people so I don't understand why everyones mad at me and can't talk to me about it

Why?*
Why didn't you just tell the truth? They all gave you a chance to tell it but, you chose not to. Why? You lied to Jarod about alot of things... He asked you if you was sure, why didn't you just say no you lied. You lied to Arcassin, who you said you loved. He also asked you if you was telling the truth you said yes instead of no. Why didn't you just listen to your gut? Now you've lost him and you'll never get him back. You should have known that it wouldn't have lasted, you knew that you lied. You lied to the two people who you say were important in your life and other people too, you hurt them. *You'll have to live with that.

I'm tired of being mad.*
You walked out my life and I blamed myself for it. I blamed myself for alot of the things you chose to do. You chose to walk out of my life and you chose to use herion.  I had nothing to do with those decisions. I hate to call you a terrible father but you are... you constantly lie to me, you always talk to me about selling drugs, you don't support me, you rarely call me, you weren't there for my birth and you don't even know that I lost my virginity. I wrote this in hopes to forgive you but i'm realizing that i'm not ready to forgive you. I just feel like if you really wanted to be in my life you would try harder to be in it but if not well, *I don't chase after anyone so if you wanna walk out my life, i'll hold the door open for you.

Poems coming soon.
#forgivesomeone

I have a crush on....
You

im sorry
thats all i got
forgive me or don't
i just wanna make peace with you
i just want to know why you can't forgive me
and how you find out
i just want closure basically

Falen: You are kind, home-loving, hospitable and friendly. Since you take responsibility well, you are a good organizer of social affairs. Compassion for others is an outstanding trait. You are a great lover and a great flirt – an artist, musician, actor, teacher, nurse. Your character can be contradictory. You are practical, yet idealistic and intuitive; capable of selfless devotion to someone you love, yet look to receive payback.You are bold, independent, inquisitive and interested in research. You know what you want and why you want it.
You are always looking for an opportunity to achieve financial and emotional security. You are basically peacemaker. You understand the law of harmony and desire to balance your life with those around you. You may feel incomplete without someone to share your love, ideals, wealth or work. You can be very sensitive and could appear a bit shy and perceptive. You have developed intuition, patience and the ability to nurture others. You can achieve the state of happiness if you are willing to accept your needs in a complimentary relationship and go to create them.

Im sorry

No more lies
no more fake ****
no more hate
The old me is dead
the new me is ...
completely honest
One hundred percent real
More apologetic
more understanding
more loving
more forgiving

The real her..............
Likes to laugh
shes very nice and understanding
she belives in second chances;
love at first sight;
Fighting for what you believe in;
equal rights for all
shes the one you can get high with;
stay up all night sitting outside talking to
The real her is fragile
Shes insecure about her beauty
If i tell you alittle secret, do you promise to keep it....
The real her is not as tough as she looks
The real her will never say it but she needs her dad

..............
I am the real her
I've  stayed in the dark for so long
that no one even noticed that I was gone

I need you
......

Not friends,
not enemies  
just stranges with some
memories

What are you afraid of

Im bored out of my mind
i have no one to talk to
now that your gone
Theres no one else that i can talk to
no none i can relate to
i guess i still need you
...?

where was all these people at when you wanted to **** yourself
you ditched all the people who actually care about you
for  people who could care less about you
know your real friends from your fake friends
you made a rookie mistake getting rid of your real ones
now your surrounded with fake ones
who have never been there for you and never will be
they're the ones who wanna see you fail

"Our Dream (Can't Wait)"
Running through my mind,
Running through my mind,
I wanted you beside me,
Like a marathon,
Im gonna keep it moving,
Coming to save you,
You I'm not losing,
About how fast were moving,
I put you first,
Love u no matter the cost,
But you are priceless,
Never run away from our dreams
Unless you would be loveless,
If you love me like you say you do,
Run away with me,
Having eternal dreams with you,
Bet you can't wait to see me.

falen



"Future Wife"*
Fell in love with woman,
Not for the beauty,
Or the body,
But the way she moves my heart,
Cant wait to tell everybody,
Oh look everybody knows,
I see a marriage commencing,
Will you take this ring,
Falen will you make me a happy man,
And make my heart sing,
Were gonna have the prettiest kids,
And we do,
Honeymoons will do the talking,
Baby making decisions,
In suites just night capping,
And when you kiss me,
I just like telling god,
That this is real beauty,
This may come as shock,
Future wife.

will you marry me?

all those text we sent each other
all that planning that we did
it all went to waste because
of something that I did
I let you give me your heart
I let you fall in love with me
knowing that I lied to you
I should have told you the truth when you asked me
but thing is you fell in love with me the person on the inside
not the one on the outside right
as so you say...
and if that's true
then it should be somewhat easy  
for you to give me a second chance right
I mean it might be hard for you to trust me again
but let me rebuild that trust with you please........

I  hurted you
I lied to you
and that's something that I will forever regret
and I will have to live with it
I loved you
you was good to me
you opened up to me
you trusted me
and I made you regret it
I still love you
and love stays and fights
so that's what im doing
im fighting for you whom I love
Im not asking for you to forget what ive done to you
but I am asking for a Second chance
because IM SO SORRY
I don't know how many times I can say it
but its the truth