I say nothing...
when I hurt

Hearing Words I never wanted to hear
lies that were told sink in
Memories running through my mind
Affected
Effected
Promises unkept
Keeping myself together as I have always
But the pain seeks through my veins
I can't speak
I can't breathe
As if this suffocating ***** in my chest stopped
the allusion
the Illusion of "LOVE"

when i was a little girl
my mother told me there were
monsters,
under the bed.

no, mother,
can't you see?
they are in my head.

Who are you?
Who are you?
Who am I?
I couldn't tell you.

I am a shapeshifter.
I have many hues.
My emotions depend
on the feedback of you.

If you love me,
I will shine.
If you play coy,
so will I.

Hurt me,
go ahead and try.
I will turn dark
and blend into the night.

You'll never know
what character I am.
You'll never know
because I don't even know
who I am.

she's a corrosive story
Hidden within a mirror
Never to be heard again

As I gulp down my favorite cheap *****
I wondered  with amazement at my ignorance
And the vicious adage that crippled me
love is blind

You were a ruthless callous soul
and still
remnants of your cold heart still linger in my thoughts
loving you was devastating