I have exactly 24 minutes to get my **** together
The sky seems dead
The wind that used to nurture me hurts
I've become so vulnerable

The pulsating heart of the ground
Shadows born from the sky
A clash of light and darkness
Below a cloudy sky

On this green battlefield
Wind pushing the victors forward
The light pushing through
The shadows fizzling into the ground

A tree standing
The only constant of the land
Catering to the shadows and motivating the light

The clouds clear up and the battlefield revealed

The shadows have gotten darker
And the light has gotten brighter
In perfect harmony under this blue sky

I'll go to sleep
One arm under my pillow to lift my neck
The cool side is getting hotter
I think I need to put the fan on again

Clarity

The sun is shining in the sky
Void of any cloud, worry, in my eyes

And so I walk
I feel this warmth from all directions
and I walk

A journey? sure
but a pleasure none the less
it's days like these, that life's not such a mess

on the porch I sit, the blades of grass dancing in the wind
The trees shaking with delight
as they stare at my grin

My heart isn't always empty
On the contrary, its rather full
I misplace it sometimes, that's all
but this dance helps me remember

Remember that I'm loved.

We made a choice under the sun
As the velvet clouds covered it's gaze
A broken vow made for dust
A scarlet promise made for today

My heart rythmic with the sky
Your smile illuminating the night

You'd be a girl, no a guy
Honestly it wouldn't matter what's outside

Because we're here in the fields
A summer breeze passing by

You gazing at the stars
While I stare into your eyes

The reflection I hold most dear
Your heart thumping with mine

I want to see the stars
The moon
A shooting star I hope

I want to see it all through the most beautiful telescope

I want to give my heart, my soul, everything I have

Just to stare into your eyes once more
My beautiful telescope

I want you
I need you

But I can't find you

The stars are so dim in the night

I'll search
I'll stumble

I need to see you

In hopes that one day you'll say

That I look prettier than the stars
Or that your smile belong to me

I'm hoping you'll just be there
When I can't seem to see

I want you
I need you

But without my astral reflection

There's nothing to love

I love you
I see you

Somewhere in my heart

Looking outside a window, at the same two stars

Wrapping around my mind
Intoxicating my soul
A golden string stiching my heart back together

The gems clinking
Glimmering
The yarn shining
brightly
The little buttons
Waiting to be pulled

The past has entered the present, holding a ball of yarn

A ball of hope...

The stars above were the final destination
I'd take a rocket ship and roam with no hesitation
Through asteroids and suns I'd dodge and roll
But I didn't think you would be my first obstacle

Hundreds of suns exploding all around me
But you've stolen my sight
A black hole could appear right in front of me
But it wouldn't eclipse your light

I wondered where we are
What we're doing here
Why I even exist

But all those questions seem to leave my mind when we kiss

Comets dividing couldn't stop me from wanting
Stars colliding couldn't stop me from seeing

Wherever I travel in this deep dark void
You'll be there to light the way

Galaxies crashing couldn't stop me from needing
The universe dying wouldn't stop me from loving

No matter how long it takes, it won't matter
Time is relative anyway

I took a swim today
In this deep blue ocean of ours

With a dandelion as my guide I swam with the eagles
I swam with a plane
I dipped in and around some clouds
To get out of the sun's way

But a dragon fly from the depths pulled me back a shore
Still the grass and wind applauded my return
I couldn't ask for more

I stand on this divide between two worlds
It's a narrow path, a little shaky, easily swayed by the wind

Sometimes the path becomes too small, sometimes it gets too big
Either way I fall into my worlds, be it choice or not

These worlds I wish were my own


One filled with sunflowers in a magenta sky
Filled with dreams I call mine
Love in the air
Happiness in my eyes
I could sleep in this world
For the rest of my life

One a deep blue ocean in the sky
Filled with my life
It's wind grasping my heart
And opening my eyes
Clarity in the air
And the sun on the horizon

I can fall into these worlds, but I need to get out, because I'm not meant to be in one for too long

So I fall again, in the opposite direction, hoping to miss the divide by an inch, but my back hits it with a thud

I'm tired but I look up not towards the worlds but inwards
A mix of blue and pink lay inside

The waning lines etched on the roof
A chair swinging in only two directions

Neither of which I know

Dip my hands and grind the grains of the clouds between my fingers
Release it's tears across the soil, saddening the landscape one last time
Allow their prisoners to escape, the sun and the sky rushing out
Beg them to take me with them before submerging myself back into the clouds

Breath in a cloud
Call it a day
There's no time
to precipitate

Breath in a clouds
Steep to their height
Watch them become phantoms
To the moon and the night

Hop into the sky

See the clouds
See the sun

See it all change in the blink of an eye

Hold on to your tree, see it cut down

Give up on the soil, and watch flowers bloom

Everything changes
The ground
The sky
The water

Except your coat of fur
Only matted with tears of regret

Surrounds my cortex
Blocks the clarity
I so desperateley desire

Burns the walls
Crushes my spirit
Makes me feel in-human

I'll talk about it soon
It'll only leave through my mouth
I'll mutter it's weight

and drop it behind my path

The sand on my feet rubs against the towel
A towel, on a beach, 2 miles from where we were staying

I can't help but notice the sun, no not you silly, but the sun in the distance
Melting into the ocean scattering it's aura across the sky

I could stare at it for hours but it seems like you brought me here for something else

You open our picnic basket and pull out a bottle of wine
The purple elixir flowed into the glass tinted with the sun's last bit of life

"I'd like to sing you a song, if you'd like?"

"Of course I would"

And a song he sang

The wind joined in the festivities helping the grass sway to my darling's voice.
The seagulls all became silent to allow this performance of love to go smoothly
And the ocean rolled in and out harmoniously with his song.

The melting sun froze it's retirement for just one moment, so I could see just how bright he really was.

The song ended, and he gave me a grin

"How'd you like it"

But I couldn't respond
They're were too many tears rolling down my cheek

But I had to show my gratitude somehow

I gave him a kiss on the cheek and smiled in his general direction

And in return, he gave me a ring with the promise of love for a lifetime

Crystals form, frigid water sticks
Blood drips from blister never truly fixed
A bellow of frozen air, a touch of lonliness
Conglomerating into this experience of heaven

The sun refracts the stars above
The shattered glass shines your light
But the moon drips from the reflection of your tears
And again, I'll count the days till I see your eyes

Drawing the moon's ire
I ran across the concrete
In fear of the chains of sin

But when I look behind me
All I see is a ocean in the sky
The clouds acting as currents
And a wave of realization comes to light

I don't need to run anymore
Not away
Just walk toward
I'll be okay

I've made mistakes
3 to be exact
A heart made stronger by pain
I have to endure

But if I can walk away from this
I'll find that I have a heart capable of overcoming anything

A heart made fullmetal

Blood dripping from my hand

Crimson bathes in the spot
where only a few drops managed to touch

His face revealed just like his plot
Oh god why'd they make him so hot

Dim the lights brighter
Change the tune of your tone
Playing my heart forwards and backwards
Playing my heart with a song

The sun draws it's last breaths, it's light stretching to the trees
Their still shadows grab it before becoming phantoms to the night
As it dissipates on the cusp of the horizon, the moon brings a familiar face
The shadows of the leaves cry in the wind, their tears blanketing what little blue is left

The suns going down
I'm still stitting up
I'm restless when I think about your face baby

This might actually last
But first I must say
That I'm scared as hell without you baby

Why do I trust these thoughts and feelings that have never come before

Why do I say these words when I know that they don't mean much to you

I'm still looking at you baby girl
I'm still thinking of a time
I'm still wondering if this could work out baby girl
But it's time I head to sleep tonight

Dreaming, Dreaming, Dreaming of you tonight

Dreaming, Dreaming, Sleeping alone at night

There's a warmth on your back
And an idea on your mind
As you fall into the lake, and eventually sink
Sink into this world of yours

Where reality has no bearing
And you have all the freedom you can imagine
Where the consequences haven't reached you
And the rewards are endless

Where your heart can finally be one
And not broken into a million pieces

A dream where dreamers finally find meaning in their existence

A place where I'm not tethered to hope
A place where I have everything

A place where I finally have you by my side
Smiling and holding me

A place where I see your eyes
Watching over me

A place where I feel your warmth
Keeping me away from the cold

A place where love with you
Seems possible


But I wake up, with a full heart
Full of hope that this dream will come into fruition

That this dream will grow into a most beautiful flower

A sunflower shining it's light onto me
with a smile I can only dream of...

Another storm
Clashing bolts
Rain chipping me away

All I want
All I need

Is someone to call me pretty

My parents forget
My friends lie

I can't cry

There's no time

Sadness seeps inside
My heart dies

My laughs turn to sighs

My hair crawls on my legs
Sticking to me like parasites

It keeps coming back, slamming me in the face
Reminding me everytime I look in the mirror
I'm born a guy

To my dad that's what I am
To my mom that's what I should be

A rock eroded

The clouds fall into a maze of flames
I've been in here for so long

I've been burned a few times but otherwise it's been warm
But it's finally over and it's time to move on

I'm telling you know
I'm telling you know
I'll love you someday
Without a doubt

Flying through the sky, in front of you a falcon

You follow it without realizing what's beyond it's wings

You never look beyond it's wings

You never see what could be

I am a fool for dreaming
for marveling
for wondering
of you

A fool for believing
and thinking
I could be different

But what remains is a tired fool
Sitting on a bench
Alone

I can't see the sky
Behind he who roams
Blanketed, Suffocating, Paralyzing with snow

Freezing rain drips down to my toes
Freezing blood drip down from my nose

Freezing and paralyzed from the snow

I don't see a finish line
It's farther than I can imagine

But I'll keep pushing
Till my knuckles blister from writing
And my muscles splinter from work
Till my blood shines a different shade of red

One that will never contrast well with the outside world

I'll do it for me, and no one else

Mindlessly driving my cart
With one tire stuck on it's axle

I'm searching for something sweet
Maybe savory
Maybe not

I'm going to hurt these people if I don't
Confess, choose, and make up my mind

I don't want to hurt them

They always said having a big heart was good
I beg to differ

It's terrible

Feelings happen faster
Pain hurts more
And dead love lasts longer

I am a hopeless romantic
And I am ashamed to admit it
While others admit they are too
They really don't understand

It's not longing love, it's obsessing over it
It's not feeling sad, it's feeling desperate

For someone who idealizes love above else, a hopeless romantic is willing to lower all their standards for a taste

Ask a friend if they have a type, a hopeless romantic won't
They've been alone for so long, that just the sight of love would be enough

And it's not something they can control, I fight it everyday
I have dreams of going to the stars
I have worries, homework, hobbies.
I have so many other things in my life

But yet every waking moment of my existence I think of it
It clouds every other motive in my life, lowering my ambitions and killing my happiness

Love is not what it used to be
It's a crutch
A disease
And I hate it

I hate it

Maybe?
Should I
Well....
Maybe not?
I don't know
At least i'm sure of one thing

I really don't know

I don't know what I'd do
With these two hands I now hold
With this heart we now share
With this love I might throw

Away into the distance
A silhouette of you forms
I don't know what I'd do
I don't know how I'd know

There's gray in the sky
Blue in my heart

But not sadness yknow

A clear blue, with the sun shining

I told you stay with me
Don't tell me I can't just concede
You're love is all I need
Right now

I want your loving tonight

Before you go just say goodbye
Say you'll love me, then lie all night
We can do this every day
But right now

I need your loving tonight

I'm sure it is
I'm sure that it's just a figment
A picture of a fractured soul

It's shards being picked up by blood soaked hands scorned with cuts
But it's there
The blood still flows from a beating heart
And you make it beat faster

Up until now I was comfortable with who I am
An average looking guy with impeccable taste

What if I was a girl?
What would change?

Would it be better than now?
Or would it just be strange

I'm tired of not knowing
Wondering and dreaming

Because reality hits me in the chin
As I wake up looking at the ceiling

I just want to be a cute girl
With my personality intact

Not this manly figure
Who knows what he is a fact

So I sigh and look out my window
With a tree flowing in the wind
Stretching out to the clear blue sky
Carrying a warm grin

I smile at the sight, as I often do
Dream about being a tree dancing in the wind
Dancing in the wind with you

A tree with no dreams, but a tree with happiness nonetheless

A tree in the snow, on a hill, touching the sky...

right next to my desk

I don't want to hurt you
While I'm falling down
This bliss of colors
And collage of feelings

I want to hold you girl
And you say you went let go

But I'm scared
To hurt you
To feel pain

But I want life to be worth it
I want it to be worth it with you
I want memories to call ours
Ones I promise I won't let go

I promise I'll hear
I promise I'll understand

Just tell me

And we'll figure it all out later

Sweet caramel brown
Black hair flowing down
A beauty like the sun
Stealing everyone's eyes

She exists in my heart
Someone who I'll always want
To love? Sure one could say that
To be? More than anything in this world

Vuloptuous

Skin as smooth as ice
Glistening eyes in the night
I could finally look at the stars
And see a reflection just as attractive

I could wear what I want, love who I'll be
Love who I want, and finally believe

That I was born in the right body
One my soul desires

A body as pretty as my dreams...
My dreams of being a lady

Just let me be weak today
I promise I'll figure it out tomorrow

Just let me be weak today
I promise I'll figure it out tomorrow

A little sour but it has the intended effect
I'll feel a bit clearer at the end of it
I'll drop into a fountain of thoughts
And rise in my kingdom in the heavans

I wanted to hold hands
And draw together
Our love on the powdered floor

The sun warming us both
Our hearts close together
Your eyes fixed on mine

With a stick I drew
My name and yours
Engraved onto the sands of my dreams

The water crashing
erasing the memories
the future of our love

Like lines in the sand
Our love washed away by the ocean

My love still hanging on

I've got a lot of things
I only have two hands to hold them
My range of emotions is limitless
But I can only feel them one at a time

I don't have the strength to be happy for you when I'm sad
I don't have the time to be sad about us when I should be glad
I don't have the energy to talk these days

But i'm still chugging like a choo choo train

The spotlight is in my eyes
The moon's glow surrounds me
I stare into the sky
Never knowing when you'll be here

I'm just staring at my phone again
With the moon as my light
That text message was seen
But I wonder if you've really seen it

The moon dances alones
No more contacts, no more souls
So I dance alone
With the moon and my phone

It is the single most complex and simple thing in this world

It boggles my head
Hurts my heart

But it's there

It's half past 10
And the stars have never been brighter
And yet here you are
Lighting a ******* fire

And blocking my view of this terrific sight
Eclipsing the stars with all your light

It's half past 5
And the sun's rising
And yet your playing in the ocean
Which I find unsurprising

Distracting me from the sun, a sight worthwhile
With your calm, comforting, most beautiful smile

It's half past 1
And the trees are dancing
And yet here you are interrupting them
With your romancing

Covering my eyes from the clear blue sky
Kissing me on the lips, oh how I could just die

It's half past 10
And the stars have never been so dim
And yet you're not here
When did life get so grim

The plentiful stars now seem to be fading
God I wish we were more than just dating


It's half past 5
And the sun's rising
And yet you're not here
Which I find surprising

The sun seems to have froze
I really need to just propose

It's half past 1
And the trees are tired
And yet you're not here
The one I most desire

The birds now chirp less
I think it's time to confess

It's half past 10
All but one star is left
And yet you're here
committing a most heinous theft

You've stolen my sight, my lips, and most  importantly my heart
But still there's a question I must ask -
Would you love me through hardships, through Mondays, and till death do us apart?

The clouds shimmer and sway
As they become distant phantoms to the night
I've forgotten the sensation of love
I've lost the warmth of your light

The fall leaves trigger dreams of melted snow
The touch of your skin on mine
But my dreams have fallen from the sky
Like raindrops..

They wash away your eyes