Lonely

Can I be vulnerable for a
Second
Is the microphone on
Is everyone paying attention
You in the corner
Put down your phone
I want to talk about
What it’s like to always feel…
Stop tapping
Your fingers
You can spare a few seconds
This won’t be boring
It’s not a mathematics
Lesson
Oh my
Don’t roll your eyes
Why are you getting up to leave
Come back
Please listen to me.

Ugh I got dressed up
In bright red even
And everyone’s looking
At me like I’m a heathen.
Ok deep breaths
Lately I’ve been feeling
Extremely stressed
Oh my,
Not again
Stop whispering to your
Friend!
I’m over here
Please spare me just five
Seconds?
Does this whole room
Not know how to listen?
No I’m sweating,
I’m stuttering,
The room goes dark.
Stop! help!
They’re quenching my spark.

I walk right out the front door
Not even through the back
My eyes all big
Like I’m having a
Panic attack.
No one even asks
Why I’m leaving so early
They’re too busy
Refilling their drinks.
This is my life
Over and over again
Doesn’t matter
That I have so many “friends”
Being invisible
When will this end.