I have been plagued by the monster my entire life. They've always stopped me from falling in love with them. They've always blocked your way to them.

“You can't go to her,” the monster says, “If you go to her you'll die. I don't want to see that happen.”

I pulled a blade to my wrists.

The monster disappeared.

They appeared.

“Why, my love? Why,” they pulled me into their arms as my blood trickled out.

“I just wanted to be with you,” as I muttered my last words they pulled me in closer, they were crying. My eyes slowly were closing. They were the last thing I saw ever.

You had defeated a monster, but the monster was me. I now lie in the hands of death.

Death was such a nice person, very welcoming. I was always in love with Death and Death was in love with me from time to time, but loving Death meant losing Life.

Oh, dear.
Here we go again.
Shown to be less and just a footnote
A note for a source

Oh my.
Here goes another fix
Shown to be useless for this writing style
A note that wasn't needed

Oh ****.
My information erased?
Shown to be not needed
A note nonetheless

A note
In the winding version history
Shown to existed at one point
But I wish I wasnt even sitting there.

"her name"

I'm not overreacting
Not making up
negative scenarios in my head
I feel too much,
too fast

A thousand needles
rip and tear me
from the inside out
A weight inside me falling,
breaking my heart into a million pieces.

My heart feels like it has stopped beating
and it begins to be hard to breathe
for my lungs stop working
and I try to gasp for air  

I clench my fists
draw blood from my palms

Forcefully, I let out a smile
using it to cover up the pain I feel
And the tears hiding behind my eyes
As I laugh making painful jokes.

But you'll never know it
Because I hid it from you

I have nothing to say
No words to give you
My mind is blank
Void
Empty
No clever remarks
No witty retort
I won't waste your time
I'll just cut it sh...

Your presence, twice the pain of what
Your absence e'er could be.
A ******* of sorts am I
To keep you close to me.

- p. winter