When feet get lost in the shadow
Running back and forth
Between indifference
And unhealthy attachments
Holding on just so
I can let go
Breaths come shallower
And sleep doesn't come easier
Find myself whispering poetry
To the deaf ears of the night
I find you in the quiet places
Where I am invisible..

You are both the best and the worst person to love unrequited
It's incurable..
Because there's no one
Quite like you.
Your name flashes neon in my head
Washing the walls of my brain
In indescribable color
And I am mesmerized.

I would rip all the doors
From their rusty hinges
I would scale those walls
That you built around you
take down my own..
Nothing compares to you
In this breath..
In this shiver
Running down my spine
Nothing compares...
For you, I would

I'm going to live on the beach
And I'll be happy forever

like sunsets and sunrises
The places where dark meets light
Their beautiful backs turned
As one washes over the other
Clashing at the horizon,
Always out of reach
To put my hand against the seam
To feel what holds you together
To see you in art
To hear you in music
To read you in poetry
I am quite convinced
You are magic

Sick of trying
Sick of waiting
Snap it shut
Watch the dust rising
Pick up another
But your page is always marked
Makes me feel
Like a John green girl
you were like
Tyler Knott poetry
That book is closed now..
John green girls are
Irresistibly broken
You were too much to want
Don't think I deserve you
I know my tenses are disjointed
that's how you make me feel
I don't know what I can do
To stop taking you off this shelf
You were always leaving marks
In my dust

It's the hour of light
Windows to the soul
curtains are drawn
Shapes on them
Casting characters
Seconds when you wake up
'fore dreams rot to reality
Incandescent
Ghosts dance in memory
Catching breaths
One too many
Strings always snap
Puppets break
Like shattering illusions
I'm left holding
Pieces of you
That never existed