Expect the unexpected,
Is what my mother would always say,

Fly my little bird,
Don't let your world turn to grey.

So I flew and flew high in the sky,
Not letting myself hold back, not letting myself cry.

Until years of sorrow built up so fast,
Don't worry Mama, I promise this won't last.

Lower and lower I went in my shell,
Hoping one day that all would become well,

IV's, Pills, Hospital bed,
Sick on the outside, inside I bled red.

Till one day the sun shined brighter than before,
I felt myself lift higher, starting to soar.

It was a stupid game, it always was,
But love has no boundaries, it never does.

You came into my life, when I needed love the most,
Yet I wouldn't let you in, I was a ghost.

A couple months later we reconnected again,
We started to become very good friends.

Me and you, we'd talk almost every single day,
You would stay up late at night just to hear what I had to say.

The only problem is, you lived a thousand miles away,
But you'll always be remembered as the boy who vanquished my grey.

I expected the unexpected and it led me towards you,
I'll make sure we meet, if it's the last thing I do.

Why do you have to have such a stupid face,
a stupid face with so much to say,
so wise beyond it's days,
that I find cute every single day.

When I met you I felt it,
Felt your presence seep into my bones,
like warm honey trickling inside me,
Oh how I miss that feeling.

You're in love now,
I get it.
But do you remember the past, did you forget it?

The way you looked at me,
those dark mysterious eyes making me tingle with delight,
piercing into me like a sharp kite.

It makes me sick to think you kiss someone else at night,
Someone that's not me anymore,
Someone who likes you just like I did, I still do.

I laugh that you try to hide her from me,
As if I already didn't know.
Why do you even care anymore?

It gets harder to be near you these days,
for your voice, your words float gently into my soul,
I never want to let you go.

And you still look at me,
with those beautiful poetic eyes,
yet there's a sadness I can't comprehend,
I just want you to be happy.

I care too deeply,
I wish I didn't,
but you're hard not to love,
because you don't want to be loved.

That day will come,
when you crumble down,
and I'll be there to catch you when you fall,
when you feel  oh so small.

For now I must wait,
Wait for our fate.

Just as you're pulling me in,
Making it seem like everything is ok,
You spit me back out,
Like you're gargling water.

Water. We used to be like the gentle sea,
Your calm manner lulling me to sleep,
Making me believe I was important for once,
You actually paid attention.

Attention is all you give her now,
Blinded by love,
Binded by your guilt,
You've pushed everyone away.

Away is where you want to be,
From all the guilt, annoyance, pain,
Away from the person you were once,
Away from me, until you come back again.

I care too much, I know I do,
Love has no mercy, it just gnaws at you,
I fall while you climb the tower,
And the saddest thing is you hold the key like a king.

Like a puppeteer you dance me,
Thick strings tightening my skin,
You don't know what you want,
But I know what I want and I don't like it at all.

All I have is my head,
For my heart is long gone,
They keep telling me to let go; set you free,
Get over that aching feeling whenever I see you.

You need to release me,
From my feelings that produce pure pain,
Leave the anchor afloat in the sea,
Let it slowly drift away from the ship; let it be at peace.

Peaceful mind is what you never had,
Always conjuring up ideas and arguments,
Never at rest,
And it will **** you when you sleep.

Sleep was stolen from me,
Like caffeine in coffee keeping me awake,
Making me drown in the depths of the black liquid,
Looking forward to insomnia became the death of me.

I've come to the realization that you're a beautiful beast,
Imprisoned by your imagination. By your deceit.
When will I be released?