Parker

Parker Mar 2018

Red is floating covered in the the perfume she stole from the store
The night drips into the drain where the sad man sleeps
The last words held the second hand on the clock until it stopped
I felt ripped off
Finally the bulb burnt out and she got some sleep
The sound drenched and late slipped into a mad mans mind
A landing strip you created for the crash
Who new some things never dry
They just stand behind windows and pretend you cant see them

Parker Mar 2018

Schizoaffective

It started with a single voice
Telling him to jump off the roof
Now, his head is full of voices
and as far as I know, they are all cruel

It started with a single voice
Now, one of them has replicated me
Convincing him that I have wronged him
Giving no power to my actual voice

It started with a single voice
Now, he believes everyone attempts to **** him
That the world is conspiring against him
That his thoughts have the power to take lives

It started with a single voice
Now, he sleeps in a locked monitored room
Drugged up with anti psychotics
Angry and confused

Over the last year and a half I watched as schizophrenia consumed everything my little brother had going for him, Causing him more mental suffering then I have ever see anyone experience. Watching the pain of his condition ******* my family and his future has left me at odds with my own journey. Just a for warning, my brothers predisposition was ignited by him trying lsd. You never know how much you cherish your loved ones being of sound mind until they're gone.

#family #mentalhealth #cherishyourmind #brothers #thislifeisenough

Parker Dec 2017

To Every,

The primitive violence engraved in wild animals, having to ****** daily to survive, downplays all that haunts us, people.
Does a fox lose it mate and not question where its gone?
How similar does loss and trauma feel in us?
To every, fear is the same.
I don't believe intelligence matters, we're all scared

Parker Dec 2017

Man and Wife

I see you dancing in our future as our bodies grow old
I, have married my soulmate
Time has changed
My heart has evolved to beat next to yours, assuring it on every pulse that I will never leave your side
The struggles we faced have become one and with every step I take I fight to make your half feel lighter

Parker Oct 2017

Paint your Pain

Everything will eventually fall apart
You must keep running
Steering towards your masterpiece
The pain must shape you as a vessel that can withstand all the tragedies
Your captains wheel must point in the direction you will one day crash
you must keep running
For all life's tragedies are waiting to shred you apart
To try and misdirect you so that your vision seems impossible
Pain must only be used as another tool embedded in these bodies
For the one thing you are guaranteed is pain
How you handle it is completely your responsibility.
Paint your pain or let it **** you

Parker Oct 2017

Rise

I hold the mornings like a lover that is shaking from the cold
Thank you sun for always being my rock

Parker Oct 2017

Reality Check

I will accept you as you are, for rust on the nails never tried to hide
It was only I who placed pieces over my eyes to make a portrait that never existed
I who dismembered the screams and attempted to make them sound like the rain
loneliness has embedded me tonight in a form so alienating
A sadness has dawned on me like a final goodbye as you pull the cord
I am a mountain
Though even this mountain at times the wind is cold
I can feel it wrap around my existence
Whispering in my ear "you are alone"
No matter how rich love is in your life
You are alone
I see now that everything is an illusion
That the observer is not my mind
That I have created my own hell