AllAtOnce

AllAtOnce Jun 2016

Like the golden sun going down for the moon
I'd drop everything just for you
Not everybody makes the most of the day
Clearly not enough for you to stay
But I'm standing here tonight
Just to explain to you why
If you were to change your mind
I'm here till I die

AllAtOnce Jun 2016

The Universe whispered in my ear

I swear the Universe is whispering in my ear
"Now isn't the time, and the place isn't here."
And somehow that makes me feel a lot more alright
Than I have felt in a long while
Because I didn't miss my chance or lose track of time
The chance and the time was just never supposed to be mine.
And I swear the Universe is whispering in my ear
"You can do so much better than twelve days, one year."
No matter the signs and no matter the mix
Of signals that never mattered and were never fixed
Because the Universe is whispering in my ear
And I know for once that I shouldn't have to fear.

#my

AllAtOnce Jun 2016

1:15 am

My eyes are swollen from the tears I couldn't shed
So I sat in the shower, watched the water drip off of me instead
My heart is aching like it never has before
And this time I don't know why or what for
Because the end is the end and there's nothing left
Not a feeling not a trace not a mess
My eyes are swollen from tears I wouldn't shed
So I shut them tight and passed out instead

AllAtOnce May 2016

But it's...

I'd care about your hopes and fears
More than you look like in a mirror
I'd care about your heart and soul
But somehow you'll never know
I'd write a song; I'd strum a tune
But it's all only for you

I'd stay up so that I never dream
To avoid the thoughts, to avoid the feeling
I'd stay up to wait for a soundless call
That I don't expect to come at all
I'd build a house, paint the walls blue
But it's all only for you

I'd catch the stars with a butterfly net
To meet someone I've never met
I'd reel in the heavens with a kite and a key
Holding more electricity than we'll ever be
I'd fall in love with the man on the moon
But it's all only for you

I'd take a breath for infinity
Hoping that it'll never leave
I'd take a breath for immortality
Knowing that it's something I'll never achieve
I'd even stop the breaths for a minute or two
But it's all only for you

AllAtOnce May 2016

The Man on the Moon

The bitter, night wind blows through my hair
Spring left April and now it's just air
But sometimes I just can't breathe
Blame it all on you, blame it all on me

The sky is dark and your eyes are the stars
A glint of something different behind the dark brown
And I swear that the man on the moon
Has absolutely nothing on you

Maybe sometimes you're a little quiet, a little sad
Pulling on the waves until they grow and crash
Just wait for the sunrise, wait for the morning
And maybe you could get some rest

Not every night has to be a full moon
Like every sky doesn't have to be blue
And not every star has to shine
But all in all, I wish they were mine

The man in the moon, the boy in the mirror
Everything suddenly seems so clear
Because you'll never again see someone so in love
With anything that hangs so far above

AllAtOnce Apr 2016

The Cosmic Pull of Nothing

Grass and hopes
Fill the empty space
What to do with nothing
With nothing all over the place

Bricks and bones
Caught in a cosmic collide
Both with tough outer shells
And a beating heart inside

Mortar and muscles
Entwines everything together
Everything needs a solid foundation
For anything to matter

Flooring and nerves
Cold tiles cause cold feet
But broken vessels and broken walls
Are cracks in plaster and hollow cheeks

Homes and hearts
Finding solitude with someone who's not yourself
That is, if you can brave the storms
And make it to the end

Hail and struggles
Tears apart shingles and dreams
Then you realize that, after all
Nothing is there but feelings

Roof and head
Feelings vs. will
What to do with nothing
When it's all you think of still