I don't want to look at him
Not even say his name
Someday someone's going to break his heart
And I don't want to be the one to blame

One year, no months, twelve days
Just enough to matter
Someday someone will teach him how to kiss
And I don't want to have to hate her

There's so much future so much promise
Biologist and athlete
Compared to English teacher and literature
It's all just out of reach

There's so much no one knows
And so much that no one sees
Once twice thrice
Sometimes the scars still bleed

So just as this was the first one
It'll also be the last
The words locked away like a bird in a cage
And it's all in the past

She came to me with red eyes and tears
Said please don't tell another soul
Swear on Shakespeare's quiet grave
They can't know that you know
She told me of the skeletons that lie in his head
That whisper in his ear
She told me he's not insane
And not to be afraid
But the shadows in his eyes will never change

It's the darkness behind the eyes that kills
It's the shadows in the walls
That can never get their fill
The pressure, the demons, they tear him apart
All four of them are taunting him, and taunting him, they're taunting him
Taunting him in the dark

We all have our secrets
But not everyone can have the keys
Dancing near their collarbones for everyone to see
And I think back to the first few years
Just a glance, or two, or three
I never could've guessed
Never could've watched him get undressed
Without knowing all the rest
Since when is this world such a mess?  

It's the darkness behind the eyes that kills
It's the shadows in the walls
That can never get their fill
The pressure, the demons, they tear him apart
All four of them are taunting him, and taunting him, they're taunting him
Taunting him in the dark

And maybe it's about the regrets
Or the close calls and the second guesses
And the time
Oh, the time
The time that's spent that I can't get back
Even if it's just fleeting thoughts
Three years and four ghosts too long
And to be honest
I don't know why I wrote this song

She came to me, all red eyes and tears
And we've all seen a little darkness and we've felt a little fear
And I just wanted someone to explain
But nothing had changed
And no one is to blame

There's something about a distinct sharpness in your ribs
That is accompanied by scarce breaths
That makes your head ache
So that your nails dig into your flesh
There's something about silent smiles
And unreachable thoughts
That can only come every once and a while
Because no one has make me laugh that hard
In a very long time

Him
Her
Us
We
Does anyone else know the feeling?
Four for the price of one
What a sale!
What a deal!
One dimple
Two dimples
Less dimples
More
Aren't I glad I never felt anything of the sort!
Few
Many
Violent
Still
Maybe have but never will
Revelations
And
Revelations
Shaken to the core
People are such strange creatures
Whether there are one
Or two
Or three
Or four.

The night in question was September
That's when I realized nothing had changed
Three years had gone by
But some things were still the same

The sun was setting slow
And the radio was blaring loud
Push it down, push it down
But when you looked at me I was always just a face in the crowd
So I'll always push it down

You asked me if I wanted to go
Begged and pleaded up until now
But it was just the quiet echoes
Of everybody else bailing out
It was never about me
Never about my company
Just about someone I could never be
I will always be a quiet memory

The day in question was May
This time I did the asking and the shouts
It was a yes then a no then a simple I'm out
And even now I'm not surprised
Still just another face in the crowd

It doesn't hurt anymore
If I push it down, push it down
And recognize my place in this world
Below everybody and anyone around

It's been four years
And it'll be four more
Some things will never change
So I don't try anymore
I will always just push it down
Push it down
Push it down