Alexander Rose

Alexander Rose Aug 2022

Defeat

Late nights will bring out the worst in me,
It brings out these versions of myself that I never wanted to be,
My hearts numbing and it hurts to think,
If I'm out, maybe pour me a drink,
It might save my soul cause I'm drowning knee deep in defeat,
Reminiscing the feeling of your uncertainty,
Cause I need to leave it all behind,
Behind this facade of my silence,
While I drown in those deceiving eyes.

Alexander Rose Sep 2021

NA

Okay I get it you are indecisive,
Look at me , you gotta be more expressive,
Cause my feelings aren't precisive,
Often some or the other problem arises,
Distracting myself through these devices,
So that I don't become compulsive,
And even you know you are so impressive,
I don't even know how to express it,
You know my nature is defensive,
And sometimes it don't look so attractive,
Although I promise you, I'll be supportive,
You don't get it, I want to be possessive,
These excuses is making me aggressive,
But im not gonna be persuasive,
And I guess God is being preventive,
Maybe I am only being deceptive.

#hope

Alexander Rose Jun 2021

Demons

D. Reynolds sang, "I want to hide the truth, I want to shelter you,"
You have become a wonderful person now,
Just can’t fathom why I can’t stop remembering you
I can't escape it unless you show me how,

Writing letters , writing poems,
Promises saying I'll take you to the spotlight,
You know you said I give meaning to your life,
Yeah, the world does not feel so bright,
Tryna hide my demons, tryna show off my pride,
Just wanna hold your hand and show you the sunlight.

Flashbacks in front of my eyes,
Dan also sang that,"that's where my demons hide,"
Even though this pain, these lies, This is all for you,
But burdening this has brought my demise,

don't want to hide the truth,
But if I die, I want us to die together,
Won't lie I want it to last forever,
And now someone met you,
Thinking you are special,
Broken pieces is gonna be my end.

#sad #hate #love

Alexander Rose May 2021

Alive

Just because I'm breathing,
that doesn't mean I'm alive,
I know I should be sleeping,
But without you, I don't think I can survive,

Because when you are with me, the world feels a little gentler,
And I know you were in misery,
Though it's not like I was feeling better,
My actions might seem contradictory,
But nothing compared to our love was greater,

I know I'm right for you,
And I think you are right for me too,
Now there's this pain in my heart which won't go away,
But, life goes on, what can you do?
Cause I want to hear the words you want to say,

I don't know what continues to gnaw my heart,
I guess its the desire for that sacred bond to revive,
Maybe this wound is meant to be scarred,
Since then, everything that kills me makes me feel alive.

#sad #love #pain

Alexander Rose Mar 2021

Misery

Your beauty was my aesthetic,
But your heart was made out of prosthetic,

And now I want to be out of this misery,
This pain got me all shivery,

All I can remember are those dreamy eyes,
And that soothing angelic voice,
Yes, that is all I need to suffice,

Darling, you are so far away from me,
These shadows don't let me heal,
Why do I think you are the only remedy,
Although, when I see you I can't reveal
the sorrow confided in me.

And now I want to be out of this misery,
This pain got me all shivery.

#sad #love

Alexander Rose Mar 2021

Until you were gone

Oh! How long do I have to be on my own,
Passing by your street, I rmr singing 'until you were gone'

Now I'm stuck listening to your songs,
And I wish we were along,
Although I want you to elucidate your wrongs.

Now I guess you are happy,
Or not, all I know is i feel ******* nasty,

To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Now this malaise has got me aghast,

I desire to find a way to make things proper,
Now My brain is faltering, rusting like copper.

And if I were you I would never let me go,
Won't lie, you tried, still was it my mistake though.

#sad #love

Alexander Rose Feb 2021

Tomorrow

How does it feel?
Knowing that you won't be my tomorrow,
been waiting for years for my heart to heal,
now I'm all left with is sorrow

my only flaw was that I was an anomaly,
and I wish you could take it normally,

now my brain is in this fiasco,
and my heart is filled with arrows,

and I'm aware I have behaved like a stoic,
but I am a human too,
and I need somebody heroic,
to get me out of this mess that was created by you.

#sad #love