drowning in caffeine
breathing the nicotine
my blood cant circulate - your love will stimulate.
the ****** of death in **** will simulate
your touch , my need
as we spiral in to sin

separation , depression , paranoia
anxiety - the absence of my sleep
aggression , desperation
toxicity - of a drama we are in
discoloration - i can't control the spin

screams - muted by bitter pills
our dreams - induced by the  acid
capsuled lives - longing self destruction
your embrace - disconnection
release me from what is real

obsession - for what we cannot fix
frustration - for what we can't control
memories - of what we used to be
delusions - of what we could have been
isolation - thoughts of being free
now voices dictate what i should feel
digging through my skin - opening the wounds
put your fingers in

remembering the days when we held
an illusion no drugs could replicate
i can't forget.
exchanging promises of never letting go
was it all in my head?
i can't escape the hole.
i walk the road alone.

I am a Daughter of Venus

Alpha and Omega are who I call "Mom" and "Dad"


Tendrils of the cosmos spill from my scalp,

the worlds headlong pouring out.


These thoughts rocket for they are comets,

Like ropes

Spangled, torn, then thrown

Across the black expanse of spastic hands.


Shaking, shaking

breaking all over me

the rhythm of candy

and dream-culture pills.


The stars shimmer

frozen glitter dashed across this blackboard existence...


Gravity is my sanity

so many ways to pull

Direct thy head on a cosmic leash

Choke you with it.


Frigid gasps

Nitrogen breath

Icy puffs of nebulaeic smoke

Waft from our collapsed lungs

As We ride this train of thought

"Into infinity and beyond!"