How can you not see
That you are the root of your Toxicity
How can you not understand
That when you put a monetary value
Before anything else
You become the sum value of exploitation
Itself.

I'm in love with the fleeting
As it's never present long enough
To become all consumed in
The wind
The rain
The sun
Always present
But never lasts
It's these things I find myself
A fleeting moment in time
Constantly fading
In and out

Everything is fleeting, everything is fast
Live for each moment because it can never last
One moment you’re living
The next you’re decaying  
Consciousness floating back into space
Be present, be kind
Nothing we have is really ours
We’re on borrowed time, borrowed love, borrowed things, borrowed bodies, borrowed thoughts, borrowed death.
Leave no space for hate to fester
As you never know what someone had to borrow.
It’s easy to be anxious, but it’s quite unecessary
That was borrowed too.

I sit and wonder
Will I ever ******* move
I think maybe not

Vines are all I can recreate
Because just like them, I’m silent
Creeping in
I ruin all that I’m attached to
But beautiful all the same

I’m the most honest liar
That you’ll ever meet
I believe in the falicies
That I always create
One day I’m a broken home
The next day I’m great
Who can really say what the truth is
When it’s your own reality
Your own fate

I don’t mean to be hurtful
I don’t mean to be fake
The lies, they spew out
Before I can stop them and say
Really I’m terrible
Really it’s just me that I hate

I feel better in my waking day
I can eat again, sleep again
No attack from my brain has came
That is
Until I fall asleep
Living here pulls out all of the things
I never like thinking about
I fall into my dreams with ease
But always wake in the morning
Feeling quite displeased
I wish I knew how to shake the sadness
That so deeply envelops me
As much as I try
Everyone can see
All my sadness
And it’s depressing glory
I’m trying I’ll say
Trying
Trying
Trying