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I see your fake smile. / Because believe me darling. I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply "I'm good" when someone ask you how you are. But not because you are good, but because you're just so used to to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question being asked. Your response so rehearsed it comes out with no effort. Just like that beautiful smile, darling. It breaks your heart to lie to the ones you love. It's so hard to tell them everything is perfectly fine. But even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you got to believe me when i tell you, darling, you are not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see every night. That one you don't recognize anymore. That same smile that you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second,
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