don't panic
2. but maybe calling him isn't a good idea either because you and i both know his voice is butter and it calms you down faster than your own tears
3. and do not let him play music because you'll only fall in love with the way he knows the lyrics ring truer than the melody and he can name every melody that's inside you
4. also making jokes about how you two are so similar won't help so stop that too
5. just keep holding on to your grasp of that rope that's labeled "do not fall in love" and hope that it won't break
6. they say it's impossible so try to believe that because you know heartbreak is heartbreak and he's no saving grace
7. if you start to panic don't cry because you're broken; look up and realize maybe it just means you're too strong and that's why you don't want to let him in even when he kicks the door each time with his laughter and the amount of times he reminds you you're not half bad
8. realize that writing a poem about this might not and probably will not help you
9. don't listen to old songs and start to get nostalgic about moments that have never happened
10. understand that he has the ability to break through your pain and get straight into your heart and
11. realize with that that you aren't superwoman and he isn't superman and it'll be okay

it's always the eyes that get people, isn't it?
and it's the way that he smiles and turns his head to let out a laugh
so loud, and so filled with happiness that you can't help but let him in
and no it's wrong
and no the voices are saying it's not okay
and no don't let someone else in
don't break another heart and don't let it break the already broken pieces of you
but you can't help it
and so you cling onto his voice when you have the seas to split you
and you grab as much of that blurred eye of his through the video that you can
and you take every ounce of negative thought and you shove it down the bathtub drain along with your tears
because you feel optimistic for the first time in a long time
and although the fear you have is unconquerable you try to conquer it anyway
because you can do it
and you know that he's making the risk too


you've both been through hell and you've learned how to breath fire
but when you meet someone who turns your fire into water, pulls the knife that's stabbing your thoughts out, you don't just wish they never showed up.

slipping is a lot like drowning except you don't realize you're in water and you can't breath and maybe his face is making you forget that you're this mass in an ocean that has sheltered far too many people but when he offers his hand out to you you can't help but grab it because you don't want to drown and suddenly there's this rush of realization that you're a sinking ship and maybe nothing is strong enough to reel you back in but you just grab him with the hope that he knows what he's doing while you take a load off for a while and realize that yes, you may have needed him