i invited you over for a cup of tea
and you stayed the night
i remember watching you stare out the window
i remember making eye contact and smiling for no reason
i remember rolling my eyes at every compliment you gave me
"your room is so cool" "you smell like cigarettes and i like it"
i remember wanting to hold your hand the whole time
but i couldn't because i knew that you liked someone else and that would be weird
i still wanted to hold your hand and kiss your face every second of our time together
and as i listened to you talk about the things you liked and the things that scared you
i fell in love
i fell in love with the sound of your laugh as you laughed at a stupid joke i made
i fell in love with the way your face scrunched up as you smiled
i fell in love with the way you wore your t shirt and the way you sipped your tea
i fell in love with the faint red in your cheeks, the red that never went away
i fell in love with the way you sung along to every song that came on
i fell in love with the how excited you were at the mention of your favorite band
and i fell in love with the boy who wanted the same things as me
the boy who promised to catch me every time i slipped on a patch of ice
the boy who listened to the bands that i recommended
the boy who was so passionate about whatever caught his eye
the boy who i allowed to tease me because i liked that he noticed me
the boy who always told me that he enjoyed being my friend
the boy that i wanted to go on adventures with
the boy that i wanted to visit art museums with
the boy that i wanted to fall asleep next to every night
the boy that came over for a cup of tea
and stayed the night

we sat on my roof, listening to Frankie Cosmos and sipping tea
"this is going to be our year" you promise, the January snowflakes landing on your lashes and i smiled because i believed you
i believed you
i believed you
i believed you
i believed you

What keeps you sharp,
hardening your bones against
the soft dark, between

I will never have good ***, or
The apocalypse is in process, and
My cat will die of liver disease.

Every evening I will eat alone.

You fight for me when I cant fight for myself,
You stand up for me when I can't stand up for myself,
You make me strong when I sometimes turn weak,
You dont care what people say about me when I do,
You figure out my problems when i can't,
You do so many things for me,
So many times,
Thats why I call you my hero