If I ever lose my battle,
Just know that I fought.

I tried real hard to be alive,
And my lost is no one's fault.

Say to them the lies I used to tell,
That I'm okay and everything's well.

I am turning eighteen yet I still don’t know how to be myself. I am turning eighteen yet I don’t want to put my dream on the shelf. I am turning eighteen yet I’m terrified to express my opinion. I am turning eighteen yet the things I haven’t done are a million. I am turning eighteen yet I don’t know how to talk to strangers. I am turning eighteen yet I’ve never been exposed to all of this world's dangers. I am turning eighteen yet I’ve never believed in myself. I am turning eighteen yet I’ve never seen the movie elf. I am turning eighteen yet I've never been with you. I am turning eighteen yet I never have a clue. I am turning eighteen yet I feel like I'm fifteen. I am turning eighteen yet I’ve never learned a routine. I am turning eighteen yet I still sleep with my teddy. I am turning eighteen but I don’t think i am ready.

Smile for me, smile for your mother.
Smile for all she has done for you, for she has
sacrifice her life for the one you blew.

Smile for me, smile for your friends.
They only want to see you cheerful, and your thoughts
are making them tearful.

Smile for me, smile for your siblings.
They look up to the person you were, but she
hasn't been here in a year.

Smile for me, smile for your teachers.
They see the potential you once had, although
the thought of your current grades only makes you sad.

Smile for me, smile for the world.
Even though you don’t want to be here,
you might even want to disappear.
That thought might change one day,
so you should start to prepare.