have you ever wanted
correction, needed
to hit something
or pinch your skin
or anything that inflicts pain
the physical pain that you can feel
so it can dull the emotional hell that you're living in

have you ever wanted
to make your wrist turn red
because you keep snapping a rubber band against your skin
just to feel the sting of pain

have you ever wanted
to put yourself through a physical pain
so you don't feel numb anymore
so that you might actually remember
how it feels
to be alive



                                                                                                                    (w.n.)