sometimes i like to say **** solely to **** people off and it often backfires because they’re either too ignorant to realize what i’m trying to say or they just think i’m cute and sweet only to laugh it off without thinking twice “she can’t mean it that way, she’s too nice”
i feel so alone i always run hot but i feel so cold every time i think i have found a friend i still have to force myself into a shape i don’t recognize trying to shift my muscles and my bones in a way that fit the mold so i can be stomached by others and seen the way they want to see me in their eyes
it’s different with you and that’s why this is so hard because you’re so far and even though we’ve never met i feel like i connect with so much of what you are but the reality is we may always be apart i want to hold you in my heart
even if i am always here and you’re always there it takes a lot to break through the walls i am constantly trying to build and rebuild and make me admit how much i care
but i am glad i’ve let you in i hate and love how much you make me grin