The truth is that, sometimes, I can barely remember your face, But I always recall happiness lightly skirting pain; A smile like a masked animal of prey, Every interaction, Laying heavy like a thick shroud of strain, Pulling the corners of your eyes into near total exhaustion, Like one who guards the boundary lines of a village at war And the shifts never change.
You were a child soldier Innocence obliterated Soul stolen at birth A tiny form placed at the frontlines, Armed with nothing, Not even a choice.
And they made you fight without mercy And you took more than your allotment of bruises Standing there in front of your little sisters with your fists Forever clenched I remember you said you conjured your strongest self When they came to **** the babies.
You tried so hard to be the savior But you were a child soldier Fighting giants with monstrous darkness in their hearts And how they ripped through your tiny body and tore All of your selves apart.
Yet, still you loved me, From somewhere good that lay untouched Beyond the broken mirrors of formative years Fragmented in your blood And how they would suddenly reflect a memory And cut,
And how I tried to heal you with my Childβs arms around your neck And how it was never enough And how I wore your blood,
How it lays now upon my skin, And how it feels like pain
And how it feels like love.Β Β
I will carry it like armor And I donβt blame you for giving up.
For my mom, whose childhood was a war zone. I love and miss you :( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbOWVwpCT8k