Mama said i would be okay
my friends said it's only heart break
daddy told me not to cry
but tell me why it hurts inside
why when i see that he's happy
happy without me in his life
i feel a shattering inside my chest
and i can't smile even if i try my best
Mama said thats what happens when you trust boys
my friends say he was just a toy
daddy told me not to cry
but it still hurts inside
So i tried to move on
i tried my best to smile
then i was numb after a while
my grades started slipping
my sleeping was more frequent
i turned to something to help me vent
it wasn't very practical
actually..not healthy at all
but i drew with silver on a pale canvas and the ink was red
soon, i couldn't eat, starvation was a theme
maybe if i was skinnier...he'd want me
but mama said i can't stop living
my friends said to please be okay
daddy stopped worrying...soon he went away
therapists tried so hard to get me to talk
drawing was hard with artist blocks
writing became boring, i no longer loved it
reading reminded me of something i missed
now im under 105
and my health is deterring
scars line up my legs and arms
somehow...i still believe it's my fault
that someone named james would take my spot
now mama is just scared
my friends they all worry
mama begs me to try
and friends always nag
caring is hard...when the first heartbreak you've had
is someone you trusted with everything
just leaves as if you was nothing