It was bad
I was

I felt like dying and sobbing
shaking and screaming on the floor
wishing for nothing but death

then it got better,
slowly but it did

I felt hurting and breaking
Sitting crying and lost on the bed
wishing for nothing but it to pass

then it got better,
slowly but it did

I felt nothing and empty
sitting in silence and thoughtless on the table
not wishing anymore

then I wondered
was I getting better or just benumbed

time passed
and I wished,
for anything,
a feeling,
just something.